How many of us in recovery thought we were in pain before seeking help, only to find out recovery itself was more painful? I know that is how my progress in Twelve Step recovery, especially from compulsive eating, has been. Fortunately, pain in recovery doesn't break my spirit as it did before I started working the Twelve Steps. Now, through recovery, the walls that I had built around my inner spirit for protection are being slowly broken down and moved away.

This changing and renewing of my inner self is extremely painful at times, and if I didn't have the tools of the program such as sponsorship, a food plan, working the Steps and conscious contact with my Higher Power, there would be no understanding born out of the pain. Before recovery, the pain would start to fill my inner shell with self-pity, self-disgust, and despair. Now when the pain comes to me, I've slowly learned to embrace it, and hold it close to my heart. This new pain means that I will be shown by my Higher Power the insight and understanding needed for me to continue this daily recovery process. Does this mean I am filled with joy as I see the pain coming? Absolutely not! This means that I now have a power greater than myself to shield me from pain that would break me. After feeling the pain needed to give me understanding, I am given healing to continue my journey. One day at a time... I will seek to feel and face the pain on this journey, knowing that understanding and healing will follow through my Higher Power's hand.

One Day at a Time . . .
I will seek to feel and face the pain on this journey, knowing that understanding and healing will follow through my Higher Power's hand.

~ Ohitika ~

	Meditations Index
	Recovery Site Map
	Recovery Main Page
	The Twelve Traditions
	The 12 Steps of Recovery
	Recovery Message Board
	Recovery Online Meetings
	Serendipity ~ Our Newsletter

© Copyright 2000 THE RECOVERY GROUP All rights reserved