There are those who feel surrendering to God is an act of weakness. There was a time in my life that I did, also ... and, if not a weakness, then certainly surrender was unnecessary. I felt God just didn't have the time to spend on the lesser issues of my life ... but what I discovered is that those "lesser" issues became some of the biggest issues I would ever have to deal with. One was my compulsive eating. How dare I ask God to handle that! This was MY problem. MY weakness. MY Hell. What right did I have to inflict that on God? And now they're telling me to turn not only my will but my very life over to Him?

The bravest thing I ever did was get down on my knees one day with tears streaming down my face and beg God to help me with this compulsion that was taking its toll on the quality of my life. For the first time, I told Him that I gave up ... that I could no longer deal with this ... and that I was turning this and my life over to Him to do with as He could ... and would. From that day to this ... whether it be food, relationships or whatever ... I walk hand-in-hand with God and try to do what I believe He is telling me to do. I have to do that ... because I remember the feeling I was experiencing that day when I first surrendered .. and I never want to go back there.

One day at a time ...
I will walk hand in hand with my Greater Power.
Each morning and each evening and often in between,
My Higher Power hears these words ...
I love you, God.

~ Mari ~

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