B.) Discuss and reflect on the idea that there is no middle of the road solution to compulsive overeating.

C.) Spend time discussing the alternatives to recovery on page 25.

Well, I've certainly tried all the ways I could to walk away from this disease and not claim it as my lot in life (as I've often mentioned in other questions on the journey). The Twelve and Twelve states, "Who cares to admit complete defeat?" Certainly not I! Yet, I, like so many others, come to points in life, especially when my abstinence has been clean for a long period of time, where I think that I am cured; that I have things under control. I have never, ever been correct about this.

On page 25, I read, "We are in a position where life was becoming impossible, and if we had passed into the region from which there is no return through human aid, we had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to accept spiritual help."

But, it does come down to this: either die (mentally, physically and spiritually)...or accept spiritual help and live a sane and happy life. We read so many stories in the Big Book about those who came right to the edge...and found a Higher Power that was greater than themselves; then and only then could they return to sanity.

My will is not strong enough to overpower my urge to compulsively overeat, try as I might. But, my HP is able to lift me up and over the obstacles that are put before me. Why? Because I more often than not set the bumps and roadblocks there myself; because, when in a diseased mode, I see only the negative and cannot see the forest for the trees. On page 23, it states, "Therefore, the main problem of the alcoholic centers in his mind, rather than in his body." Yes, I see this as true for me.

I close with these thoughts, found on pages 58-59 of the Big Book, "Remember that we deal with alcohol--cunning, baffling, powerful! Without help it is too much for us. But there is One who has all power--that One is God. May you find Him now!" There are no distinctions as to who or what each of us call Higher Power...the point is that we are not alone anymore.

Love in recovery,