October 28, 2003

Wow, Kellie has a new toy. Guess what I just bought myself? I bought a brand new spanking computer system from HP. It’s a HP media center and it’s a recordable dvd/tv player. It’s like a TV with a built in recordable DVD player and it has some kick ass klipsch speakers (Dobly 5.1). I think this computer is more than I can handle. I figured that this was the time to buy a new system because mine was getting older and it needed to be put out to pasture. I had it for 5 years and it gave me 5 good years but now it’s time to move on...new memories, etc. So I’ve been having too much fun tonight.

The weight is not budging. As month four, I’m still 160.50. That’s okay though. Though, I have to admit I’ve been getting a little worried about it. I’ve been eating about 25 points per day but I’m not losing. I’m honestly beginning to think it’s the birth control because I’ve haven’t lost a pound since going on it. I’ll keep on plugging though. Oh, I found the most fabulous product two weeks ago. The “La Tortilla” soft taco shell...it has 9 grams of fiber, 2 grams of fat, and 50 calories!!! I’ve been making some soft shell tacos with beans, meat, a sprinkle of cheese, lettuce, and some taco sauce. It’s definitely a tasty meal and it’s quite filling. The one thing that I am finding about increasing my fiber intake is the body by-product. I don’t think that I have ever been this gasey in my whole entire life. I’m beginning to think that I’m one of those old gasey people! The one thing I’ve noticed about the fiber though is that it actually doesn’t keep me “regular”. I’ve always heard that when you eat more fiber, it cleans out your system but it tends to have the opposite effect one me...I’m more constipated now. Okay, too much information but I’m just wondering if this is normal?

I’m back in Detroit next week for Trauma Training. To tell you the truth, I have mixed emotions about this because heck, this is where I lost my Jeep but I had such a good time. I’m ready to have a break from the office though and it worked out really good because we are having auditors in next week and Unfortunately, I’m going to miss them...shucks! Work has been stressful so any excuse to be out of the office is good. It’s just a strange time over there right now.

Chris and I are doing wonderful. I’m in love and it feels great. He’s such a cutie and a huge help to me. He even set my new computer up for me! We went out to Detroit last week and visited his sister. Had a nice time despite his sisters computer crashing. Then we went to the Detroit Zoo and we had a blast. Unfortunately, I’ve wasn’t able to see my sister then and now that is causing some troubles because she thinks that I’m standing her up. I’m not but it’s been impossible for me to get a hold of them when I am out there. So I’ve attempted to call Carrie 5 times since that weekend and she just hasn’t called me back. She’s being a little crapper. I hate little family psycho games.

Well, that’s what has been going on with me lately. Things are going well and I’m enjoying things in life. Things are falling into place and it feels damn good. Well, take care all-Kellie

October 15, 2003

Doing awesome this week. I’m so proud of myself. I’ve worked out 3 times at CURVES and I have been tracking everything that I have been putting into my mouth. It feels great to be back and be able to work out again. Things are definetely beginning to calm down a lot so I’m happy about that. I need to work out at CURVES at least three to four times a week. To tell you the truth, I can see a whole lot of difference in my body and weightloss when I don’t go. I simply do not lose as fast as I do (okay, so a pound a week is not fast but for me it is because if I did not workout I would not be losing anything).

As for WW, I’m finally hitting my 22 target points per day. To tell you the truth, I find this extremely challenging and now I totally admit to eating my exercise points. I used to bank those all up but that’s not the case anymore..I’m eating those puppies. I’m going to be optimistic about this flex point plan so we’ll see on Saturday if it shows me any positive results.

Finally got back pictures of Chris and I from the reunion. Don't we look cute? Going to Detroit this weekend with Chris. We’re going to hang out with his sister, her husband, and the nephew. I’m not too sure what we are going to do but I’m hoping it is something because I hate sitting around and doing nothing on a weekend. I’m also hoping that we are going to meet up with Carrie and Dennis. I would normally like to hit the thrift stores in Detroit but to tell you the truth, I, Kellie admit to owning way too many clothes. Yes, I’m addicted to clothes and resale shopping and have way too much crap in my closet. I can’t help it when I find a name brand item that I like for $2.00, I just have to buy it. I don’t even want to admit to you all how many Jackets I own...I think it’s somewhere around 10 or more. I could even go without doing my laundry for 6 weeks with no difficulties...no that is pathetic. Oh well, it makes me happy! My place is still disorganized. It’s my goal one day to get everything together and organized because I hate living in disarray. I tried tackling my second bedroom but it got too overwhelming. I’ve given myself until December 1st before I need to get everything in order. I know I can do it because that couch from IKEA is calling my name.

Work is still going good for me. They are sending me back to another Trauma Training in Detroit during the first week in November so I will be gone then. All I know is that I will not be taking the Jeep this time. Those rat bastards are not going to get another vehicle out of me. I’m looking forward to that because I need another week off for a break. I really need to take a vacation soon but a conference will do. Well that’s it for me tonight, take care all-Kellie

October 10, 2003

Wow, I’m still the same. I’m not buging on the scale but i admit that I am not losing because I’m just trying to maintain right now. The past two months have been extremely busy in the fact that I’m not able to completely focus on my weight. I’m okay with this because this is life...at least I’m not gaining. If you track points, attend the meetings, workout, etc. You will loose but I’m putting in a 50 percent effort right now and what I’m getting back is complete maintance. I figure if I’m down to goal in the early summer, I will be happy...but I’m happy now.

I have to tell you that I am mixed about the new program. Not that it has changed but eating 22 points is difficult. I find that my average is about 25 points. I have to make more time for CURVES now. I thought I was going to be able to hit it consistantly since my parents went home but that hasn’t been the case. I took the week off from it this week because I was away for a couple of days at Mammoth Cave and I’m finally feeling back to normal....okay, all I have to say is that the “Wild Cave Tour” at Mammoth Cave kicked my ass. When they say you need to be in shape, they mean you HAVE TO BE IN SHAPE. None of this “I’m kind of in shape” crap. You need total upper and lower body strength. Something I lacked. I did make it through 3 crawls plus a .75 mile crawl on my hands and knees but instead of finishing out the tour, I just couldn’t. It kicked my butt. The first crawl is where I had to fit my body through two boulders with just enough room for my chest to get through. I then had to push myself up and make it over the boulders. The next crawl/hole is where I felt like I went through the birthing process. The whole was so tight that my body with both hands put forward would not go through. I had to play superman to get through the damn hole. I struggled for a few minutes but I made it. The last crawl was impossible. It was a belly crawl for 120 ft that winded through. The clearance was 15 inches so I tried but I got freaked out so I went to an easier crawl and then I met up with the “Grand Tour”. Chris had no problem with the Wild Cave tour because he’s in good shape and he’s been caving before. He wanted to jump on the other tour with me but I wanted him to finish up on his tour. He’s glad he finished it out and I couldn’t have been happier that I switched tours because I would have been miserable on the rest of the tour. Things are going extremely well with Chris. I couldn’t be happier and I’m enjoying having him in my life. It’s just awesome folks.

Things are going well at work. My caseload is decreasing and I’m not meeting direct service time but who cares. It’s beyond my control. When I was down in KY, we stayed with Teresa. She is moving into Chris’s house. The sad thing is how does one sit back and watch a train wreck. Teresa doesn’t have strong feelings for Chris (at least in my opinion) but she does have feelings for another man who has been in her life for a great deal of time. She talks about breaking up with Chris and being with this other guy but she says that she just can’t go through with it. Humm, it’s just really sad to see.

I’m still volunteering at the zoo. We began animal handling last week. I’m not too keen on handling snakes and spiders but I’m going to keep an open mind. The cool thing about volunteering at the zoo is that I got free membership into the zoo society and I basically can go to almost any zoo for free. Now, that is awesome.

Life is good for me right nw. I’m just having some difficult with adjusting to my fall schedule and working out. I guess what it’s going to come down to is that if I cannot make it to Curves after work, I’m going to need to go during my lunch hour. Exercising and tracking points is one of the most improtant thing that I am not doing at this time. I just need to get off my butt and do it!

Chris and I are going to my undergraduate school's homecoming. I haven't been to Central Michigan's Homecoming since 01 so it will be a nice weekend. While we are there we're going to stop off at a cider mill...Hot apple cider! Well, I hope you folks have a great weekend! Take care all-Kellie

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