Samantha - 12/28/00 22:10:56 My Email:poprock_princess@hotmail.com How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: ..*nods* Your favourite memory: my daddy

Comments: Well, im 17, and i guess i only realized i had a problem a few months ago. ive been severly depressed before, but the cutting just started about 3 months ago, and at some points it's very severe. it hurts that some people dont understand, or even want to. i have problems with eating, which go back a few years. flushing food down the toilet, or hiding it under other garbage in the trash, sometimes the thought of eating makes me feel sooo sick, that i cant bring myself to even eat a little..to humour my mother. i dont wanna be thinner, im 5'4 and only 86 lbs, which is bad, but i cant gain weight, ive tried, and i cant. i dont want to in a way. i dont get hungry. im on paxil, but it hasnt done much for my depression, but then again neither did venlafaxine effexor. i dont know if i have ocd, its possible. simple things tho..like having to rub the satin binding on my baby blanket untill i fall asleep, w/o it..i CANT fall asleep. or having to put my little alarm clock infront of my phone, not behind...im constantly fixing it if ppl put it in the wrong place. or having to have my phone sitting w/the mouth piece closest to my bed, and the ear piece facing the wall...everything on that damn desk has to be angled the same fucking way. i have to sleep w/my bear, i cant sleep w/o him, and i tap constantly...or shake my foot or leg. the depression is the worst tho. when u get numb, and ur so sad that u can't even bring urself to cry. i cut with razors too. i used to use my brothers becuz it has 3 blades, so 4 every one slash i do, i get 3 deep cuts,and id do about 8 or 9 which is like 27 cuts each 'session'. but when i came out about my cutting, he took it away. i got disposable ones for xmas in this care package from my principal (he knows whats goin on n is really concerned..i guess he didnt pack the pkg himself, cuz razors for a cutter was pretty fucked up) but my friend john took them away n broke the blades off. he gave me back the handles n said that i could keep those (it was twisted, but i hated him for taking them away) i feel like if i dont cut, i dont have a release. i know now that its gotten bad, because i managed to cut myself w/a guarded razor the day b4 yesterday. not deep enuff tho. i use scissors too. they dont work real well. not enough blood. knives either. when my mom saw the fresh cuts, i said "the rabbit did it, if i did it myself, u know they'd be deeper", in a way i wish they were. im starting to see a shirnk now, but im proud of u for fighting so hard. i hope that i can bring myself to well up half the courage that you have. im so proud of you. email me sometime...it would be nice to hear if u had a happy ending. hope exists, i guess we just have to believe. its kinda hard when nothing seems real, though. please take care. and for all of the rest of u out there, the ones like us... keep fighting, and dont give up. u can email me if ud like. id love to hear from some of you. *huggles n kisses* ~*Sammi xoxx xoxx

Caroline - 12/27/00 22:37:06 My URL:http://www.angelfire.com/pe/paradise1 My Email:perfect_paradise@yahoo.com How did you get here?: erm link from other site Do you self-injure?: erm not as much

Comments: erm, it's a kewl site... well done anna! err i kinda know what you're talking about... sadly. good luck with overcoming it! *sprinkles faerie dust* caroline

Jen - 12/23/00 03:31:28 My URL:http://stas.net/1/jeneliyan My Email:chilly_g@bolt.com How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: yeah Your favourite memory: getting a hug from mrs. hill (it's a long story, email me if you want)

Comments: I can identify with some of the things you went through. I started self-mutilating when I was fourteen, I am desperately trying to stop. My surgery (to remove the worst scars I have) is this Febuary. I now have hundreds of scars covering my body. I ha e it, but am learning to live with it. Email me sometime. All the best, -Jen *smiles*

Jennie Johnson - 12/19/00 00:44:46 How did you get here?: tellafriend@teen.com Do you self-injure?: no Your favourite memory: dreaming of the Olympics

Comments: i was learning about this stuff in school. i didn't really understand it until now. thanks for putting it on the web

Cristin - 12/13/00 03:53:24 My Email:hotsexywoman_69@hotmail.com How did you get here?: just going through sites Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: the day i found a reason to stop.

Comments: i love this site.it lets me know that there are others out there that have the exact same problems that i'm having.I have been a "cutter" since i was 9 and i'm almost 16 now.My reason for cutting,burning,overdosing,and otherthings where to get rid of the motional pain and replace it with physical pain that i thought i deserved. but then i met this guy named Devon (whom i'm in love with)and he was everything that made me realize i didn't need to hurt that i was better than that. i hope one day u'll realize that there's more to life than that. :-)

Lee - 12/12/00 22:17:50 My Email:whataloadofshit@hotmail.com How did you get here?: yahoo.com Do you self-injure?: yea... Your favourite memory: whats worth remembering in today's world?

Comments: hey... anna your site is so kool, i really thought it was good,i know that cutting is horrible but it is one of those things, you do it, it feels horrible... but then you just get used to it, i self injure since i was 14 now 16, only 2 years, but they are cruel, i hate it, i would like an email if you can be bothered? lol:) well cya later, peace \/ \/

- 12/12/00 08:26:40

Comments: NO ONE CAN EVER HURT ME WORSE THAN I CAN HURT MYSELF

Amanda - 12/12/00 05:43:37 My Email:frogman9@go.com How did you get here?: SI search Do you self-injure?: Yes Your favourite memory: I'm sure I have one but I can't think of it right now

Comments: I just cut myself about an hour ago. It just got to be too much. I'm so scared that I'll always be alone. I don't want to die, I want to be happy. I want to keep cutting. I started when I was 16 and now I'm 19. I want to tell my mom but I'm not sure why. Do I want sympathy? Do I want to make her feel bad for f*cking my up? I don't want help, I never want to see a psychiatrist again. I had to when I was 9 and it was the worst experience of my life. If I'm happy will the cutting go away or is that a whole s parate issue? I would appreciate it if you email me; I admire your bravery so much.

hannah - 12/05/00 00:46:36 My Email:hannahduffy@yahoo.com How did you get here?: through yahoo Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: of cutting?? or in general???

Comments: Anna, your story reached me and touched me...god you sound just like me, except i've never gotten help, and never been as serious. i admire your skills and would love to talk to you or email you some day.

joanna - 11/28/00 07:12:39 My Email:prettyblueyes17@hotmail.com How did you get here?: randomly Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: i want to forget them all.

Comments: i read you journal.. and i can relate.. in some aspecty.. and in others i can't... i'm just starting to realize that I have a problem and that i need to get help.. i'm scared. i'm proud of you for getting help though.. and i hope you get better.. i hope e all get better because it wants to eat away at us all... my razor wants me to pick it up.. I've started carrying one in my bag. so when I'm in class.. if i have an urge.. I can just go to the bathroom. i can't fight it anymore you know.. and I'm scared

molly - 11/27/00 17:51:55 My Email:dreams_of_anarchy@mailcity.com How did you get here?: friend Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: no memory of mine is worh embracing

Comments: I loved the site. i cried when i read it. it relates to me more than anything has ever had.the ocd, the mutilation, even the terrible daydreams. i am happy you are getting better. i was put on celexa for my depression, it has helped tremendously. i havn;t cut for almost 3 months. i'd love to hear from you. thnx

jess - 11/18/00 23:50:42 My URL:http://expage.com/balletnervosa My Email:balletnervosa@hotmail.com How did you get here?: found it Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: being thin

Comments: your site is excellent, and i cried reading some of it. i hope you "recover" and be the happy person you know we can all be, because you are a beautiful person and deserve all the happiness in the world.

Jen - 11/16/00 20:05:54 My Email:marleygirl236@hotmail.com How did you get here?: your site was on another site about cutting Do you self-injure?: yeah Your favourite memory: getting married

Comments: I like your site. It was a bit hard to read at first cuz its painful. If you want to email me, that would be great

Rhonda - 11/10/00 21:32:21 My Email:clutzforever@hotmail.com How did you get here?: looking for insight on what teens go through these days Do you self-injure?: no Your favourite memory: giving my life to Christ

Comments: Anna, your website opened my eyes. You are very brave, girl. Thank you for sharing so openly. I am a youth pastor to several young girls. Some from broken homes and painful backgrounds. Let me tell you, real love exists. Going to church is not an en in itself. The hope is in a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. He voluntarily endured the most horrific pain, mutilation, and rejection because he loved you, and me, and every broken person who ever gave up on life. Some say God is mean because e sees us all as sinners. There's so much more!!! God loves us all so much. He hates the awful, tragic things we face, but he won't do anything until we reach out to him. He's not a drag, letdown, or fairytale...He's the hope, life and reality you are dying for. Stop praying to die, sweetie. Start praying to live!!! With sincere love --Rhonda

PillsandNeedles - 11/09/00 02:05:50 My Email:trippers_tm@hotmail.com How did you get here?: i searched the web for an answer Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: when i listen to marilyn manson's reflecting god and started to cut my arms to the music

Comments: anna, this is a really brave thing you're doing here, admitting what you're doing. i'm still in denial. i cannot bring myself to do what you've done here. i'm interested in interviewing you for a zine i have. do you mind? please e-mail me. Pillsandneedles

Amber - 11/07/00 03:42:01 Do you self-injure?: yes

Comments: i have been cutting myself since i was 13, i am now 18. For the last year and a half I have kept a journal. Reading what you have written sometimes is exactly what I have written. I try to release my pain into my poetry, instead of picking up a razor b ade. I guess the hardest part for me is not understanding why I cut myself. I have never been abused in any way, i wish I could just see why. I read your guestbook along with your diary. It's so comforting to know we are not alone. Everyone is beauti ul who signed your guestbook. God bless to everyone who suffers.

Mark Syred - 11/03/00 14:47:48 My Email:markwsyred@hotmail.com How did you get here?: Through Yahoo! Do you self-injure?: No Your favourite memory: Surprising my ex-girlfriend on the day before her birthday, by turning up at her house, when I was supposed to be in Scotland.

Comments: I'm impressed by your honesty. Was it hard to relate your memories of sour friendships and self hating attitudes in this way? I am starting a series of appointments with a Clinical Psychologist soon, and am not looking forward to digging up the past: part y because, I can hardly remember what's there.

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Sunny Deceased - 11/01/00 15:37:48 My Email:sugarflux@hotmail.com How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: i have being SIing for about 3 yrs. Your favourite memory: being in the arms of the only person who has ever loved me for who i am and not what i try to be.

Comments: Self injury is an obsession that has allowed me to block out my pain. Every morning i wake realising my prayers to die have not been answered and i hope that one day i'll have the strength to rectify this. It is a release, a means of stability and contr l. It is the only thing that i can rely on. This website has shown me strength. Educated me to believe that i am not alone in this harsh place. Thank you for guiding me through troubled times. all my love sunny x

Sarah (again) - 10/28/00 10:25:41 My Email:tallsarah@wa.freei.net How did you get here?: hit "back" on the browser Do you self-injure?: still , yes Your favourite memory: (see my previous entry)

Comments: I forgot, and I wanted to add this, anyone can e-mail me if you feel inclined to do so

Sarah - 10/28/00 10:19:31 My Email:tallsarah@wa.freei.net How did you get here?: link from anothher site Do you self-injure?: yes and, yes Your favourite memory: When I was 4 and my teddy bear got lost moving from our old house and my dad taking me to a big department store to the place where they had stuffed animals in the toy department and he told me I could pick out any bear I wan ed.

Comments: this is a brave thing, to post your "secrets" on the www. I have been cutting since I was ten years old - I'm 30 now. I've lost count of how many hospitals I've been in and how many times. I HATE HATE HATE being in the hospital.Oh, I've burned myself too, not as often as I visit with the razor blades and scalpel blade refills. The last time I burned it put me in the burn trauma unit in the hosp. and I almost lost (by amputation) most of my left hand. Almost. So I haven't done that again. I still have 26 st tches from the last time I cut, but when I was in the ER I swiped some "supplies" for the next time I cut. Pretty friggin' sick, huh. The last time I cut it was an ACCIDENT, but I stitched myself up - it gave me the same feeling I get when I cut , I know I don't understand it either. I hope to never cut again, because I'm about to become a foster mom, I'm otherwise stable and I take my meds to stay okay, but I don't know what would happen if I did cut again and I had a child in my care.Which I am about t , just a few days now. I love kids and so want to be a mom, I just hope I never cut again. When I'm actively destructive I feel strangely calm but then sh%$@&$! once I quit. Quit. I am lured by that word. As in ,"I want to QUIT this". is there hope? I ne d to focus on what CAN happen, not what has already happened.So there it is - my secret grossly naked.

erin - 10/28/00 09:04:55 My URL:http://geocities.com/soybie My Email:soybie@aol.com How did you get here?: bonnie Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: eating cookies with becky/ picking vegitables with grammy

Comments: lovily page dear....write to me please...you seem so sweet

Constance - 10/27/00 05:51:53 My Email:earth_angel_6@hotmail.com How did you get here?: I dunno Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: When I cut my wrist.

Comments: Right now I am 16. I have been cutting for about 5 years and can't seem to stop. I don't burn,just always cut. I cut really bad one time I had to go and get stiches. I still cut,don't know if I can stop or if I will.

Janet - 10/24/00 17:23:35 My Email:kcsangelbaby@yahoo.com How did you get here?: just surfed in Do you self-injure?: no Your favourite memory: The look on my husband's face during our wedding

Comments: I have had the priviledge of knowing and working with some beautiful , sensitive, intelligent women that SI. I am working with some incarcerated young women who SI and I was searching for info for them. Take care of yourself ,find the beauty in you and g od luck (((hug)))

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SUPER DAVE - 10/16/00 02:33:17 My Email:WWW.DNM,AOL How did you get here?: MAGIC Do you self-injure?: NO

Comments: GROW UP KID, ONE DAY YOU WILL WAKE UP AND THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT

- 10/14/00 01:13:12

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Blanche - 10/13/00 18:51:56 My Email:avon.villas@virgin.net How did you get here?: Serching for self harm Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: Don't have one

Comments: your site was really helpfull , you sound exactly like me. It made me feel better to known there are other people as f***ed up as me.

Lyndsea - 10/10/00 04:16:53 My URL:http://internettrash.com/users/0linzy0/ My Email:a_single_second@excite.com How did you get here?: about.com Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: hmmm...the Strung Out concert last month, i guess

Comments: i've just read some parts of your page, i think i've been here before tho. it's really creative a nice.

Janel - 10/09/00 17:05:38 My Email:jprincess33@hotmail.com How did you get here?: yahoo.com Do you self-injure?: sometimes Your favourite memory: ???????

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Sarah - 09/07/00 21:13:22 My Email:gothic_ice13@yahoo.com How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: yes

Comments: I admire your honesty. I generally hide what I do.

Holly Anne - 09/01/00 02:59:11 My URL:http://centralag.org My Email:gup_pup@yahoo.com How did you get here?: Yahoo! Do you self-injure?: I used to. Your favourite memory: The scars.

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Nikol - 08/23/00 05:15:21 My URL:http://mary_jane17.homestead.com My Email:nlm420@hotmail.com How did you get here?: some link Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: The first time I heard "Don't cry" by Guns N' Roses.

Comments: this is a really nice page, visit mine sometime.

jade - 08/23/00 00:11:38 My Email:perfectsinfulslut@thespark.com How did you get here?: searching for si sites Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: lying with in bed with my boyfriend, his arms around me

Comments: i dont know what to say that hasnt been said before, i really hope you get better. I hope we all do. I keep changing, i guess everything keeps changing so one day i hope we stop hurting ourselves...i mean, i'm feeling so emotional right now, just from rea ing your site, but i hope it all gets better... love always.

- 08/07/00 06:52:01 How did you get here?: looking up si Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: when i meet my brother for the first time

Comments: I just wana say i think you have a nice site

- 08/04/00 23:51:26

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Sue - 07/23/00 07:23:59 My Email:eleemosynary2000@yahoo.com How did you get here?: search engine Do you self-injure?: not anymore Your favourite memory: Taking my bow at the end of the best play in the world, in which i had a lead.

Comments: Anna, it is wonderful that you can share so much of yourself online. There are so many reasons for self-injury, and I've known quite a few. I truly hope that you come through this and find the strength to quit. Believe me, it is so much better once you' e stopped. Cutting can be very addictive and it took me awhile to stop. Give it a try and keep at it.

Jennifer - 07/23/00 04:15:33 My Email:dancingirl13_02@yahoo.com How did you get here?: SI Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: kissing my little sister when she's asleep

Comments: You're site is great. I don't recommend any form of self-injury to anyone. It may make you feel better when you're doing it, but it doesn't make everything go away. It's very addictive. Hopefully, who ever goes through this awful way of coping with a roblem can get help. Sometimes "help" does not work, I know from personal experience, but you have to try and be strong. I'm still trying to be strong.

Inna - 07/18/00 19:24:32 My URL:http://come.to/Chloee My Email:Iraandco@aol.com How did you get here?: geocities search for "Paxil" Do you self-injure?: regretfully Your favourite memory: running through the flowers at age 4

Comments: Anna, you are an intelligent and creative person. I know that self-injury can become addictive. And I have no right telling you to stop, because I can't stop either. The reason why I think we can't stop, is because subconsciously or even consciously, we d not want to stop.

sara - 07/07/00 23:28:30 How did you get here?: looking up info on si Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: being outdoors

Comments: i liked the site a lot. i have self injured for about a year. i have reached low points i didn't think i could - like overdosing on painkillers. i have many friends and support systems that i am truly grateful for. even though my parents refuse to ad it i have a problem i know i do. i am trying to stop without professional help, even though my friends think i need it. i am approaching 2 weeks without cutting myself. i know it may not seem like a big deal, but it is for me. there are people out the e are willing to listen and help - you just have to ask for it. The thing that works the best for me is prayer - you can do anything through the strength of God!!!

Skid - 07/04/00 01:21:56 My Email:skid_addle@yahoo.co.uk How did you get here?: looking around Do you self-injure?: no but a friend did Your favourite memory: watching golden lion tamarins at jersey zoo, UK

Comments: you look after yourself and try and forgive people my friend got through it with help from his friends and i'm sure you'll be fine just remember there is a caring person in there i can tell from reading what you have said. i was looking around for material to help me write songs for my band, self mutilation is one i want to write about because it has been part of my life because it was part of my friends take care chicken love Skid

Skid - 07/04/00 01:15:50 My Email:skid_addle@yahoo.co.uk How did you get here?: looking around Do you self-injure?: no

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Stephanie - 07/01/00 19:30:50 My URL:http://embark.to/thatgrrl My Email:radhapria@aol.com How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: how good i felt when i bought my first new car all by myself

Comments: Anna, this page is incredible. I am thinking about things I haven't thought of in a long time, about how no one ever saw the things I did to myself... Thank you for sharing this with me...

Lindsey - 07/01/00 00:55:21 My URL:http://www.gurlpages.com/nolabel/mythoughts1/index.html How did you get here?: Through Yahoo!. Do you self-injure?: I hit myself. Your favourite memory: I can't think of one.

Comments: Wow, is all I can say about your site. I tried to get to your other one but my stupid browser keeps saying it can't find it. So whatever. Anyways, your site really touched me... I was looking for a place where I could feel like someone understood me, beca se tonight I'm feeling sad and lonely and angry and I HATE MYSELF. I hate myself more than I hate anyone else. I hate the way I look, the way I am, the way I write, the way I try to hide things about myself... It's this rage inside of me... just this self hatred that I can't even put into words because I'm so fucking stupid. I've hit myself before. Sometimes with hairbrushes, belts, whatever. I once hit my head with this heavy keychain thing and this big bump formed. I have been good about not hitting myself lately, though. I think the reason i've done it is because the rage feel for myself builds up and builds up and I have no idea how to get rid of it. This is the most I've told anyone.

Ashley - 06/28/00 23:51:22 Do you self-injure?: yes

Comments: nice to know there are others....thanks for this site.

Glorious - 06/26/00 08:30:16 My Email:glorious@websurfer.co.za How did you get here?: looked up info Do you self-injure?: yeah Your favourite memory: Spending 4 hours carving my feet.

Comments: nice site you have here. There should be more like this. Good Luck to you!

Jamie - 06/26/00 05:08:35 How did you get here?: Show Our Scars Do you self-injure?: Yes Your favourite memory: n/a

Comments: I like your site. It promotes awareness. I've been a self-injurer for almost 2 years now, and i can't stop. it's an addiction for me. and i'm glad to know that other people feel the same way.

shellie - 06/22/00 18:31:07 My URL:http://egroups.com/groups/bigred0 My Email:reshellie@hotmail.com How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: sounds weird - but watching my mum and the two dogs in the garden one summer sunday morning when i was 15

Comments: ive started an email group for young depressives/selfharmers, which can be got onto at the address above or email me at the address above. im a 17 yo, witth experience of both conditions.

cinthya - 06/19/00 11:43:22 My Email:rippercin@hotmail.com How did you get here?: looking 4 SI sites Do you self-injure?: yeah Your favourite memory: when i was 4 and thought "how can people cut their veins?"

Comments: after looking at this site i finally realised that i do have a problem. when i first started cutting i never thought it was a problem and now i see it is. it is so good to hear form other people who understand this.just last week i told someone about it,m teacher, because i trust him and it turns out she used to SI too. i felt so much better. it really does help to talk to people who do it.

Brooke - 06/15/00 23:00:28 My Email:lil_angell69@hotmail.com How did you get here?: looking for info Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: telling my boyfriend

Comments: After reading this page, I cried my eyes out, it brought back all the memories of what i've done. I have permanent scars all over my arms from burning and cutting, and i've had to deal with people wondering how i got them, but I learned not to be ashamed of my mistakes, and let it all out! It's good to know that there are other people like me out there, becasue for a moment I thought I was alone.

Jacqueline - 06/14/00 15:38:30 My URL:http://geocities.com/goth_talk_2000 My Email:jiaqi24@hotmail.com How did you get here?: by accident Do you self-injure?: not anymore Your favourite memory: Nadine....not a memory though.

Comments: I have chronic depression and used to cut, but Zoloft is a wonder. Have been on it for a few years now and has opened a lot of doors for me. If you are depressed...SEEK HELP. Life looks a whole lot brighter once you are out of the fog.

serena - 06/10/00 15:31:31 My Email:serenizia17@hotmail.com How did you get here?: looking for SI stuff Do you self-injure?: yes

Comments: i cant describe how much better i feel after finding your site. i seriously thought i would never find someone else who knows how i feel. i have been SI ing on and off for about 3 years, and also had probs with anorexia and bulimia, ive only told 3 people about it but got such a bad reaction ive been too scared to tell anyone else. thats why this has meant so much to me. id love to talk to anyone who understands, if anyone wants to mail me id love it. lots of love to everyone who needs it, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Megan - 06/06/00 04:19:26 My Email:Snowy90858@aol.com How did you get here?: Looking for Self Injury Sites. Do you self-injure?: Yes Your favourite memory: None

Comments: (This may or may not be long) How do I start off?!? I swear I cried the whole time I was reading this!!! It's like reading a book on my whole life in the words I could never put. I'm 14 years old, and I'm the most messed up person I've ever seen! I tarted cutting when I was 12. I've been inspired to make a web page/site like this one. Maybe some of you can relate to me, just as I related to Anna.

gianna - 06/05/00 23:42:44 My Email:auntchrisfun@yahoo.com How did you get here?: Looking for Si articles Do you self-injure?: yes

Comments: HI, i really need someoneto talk with I just SIed 2times in aroow and am very angery with myself. T he last couple of wks. have been trying. Please write me. Gianna

gianna - 06/05/00 23:42:21 My Email:auntchrisfun@yahoo.com How did you get here?: Looking for Si articles Do you self-injure?: yes

Comments: HI, i really need someoneto talk with I just SIed 2times in aroow and am very angery with myself. T he last couple of wks. have been trying. Please write me. Gianna

Julie - 05/22/00 01:06:03 How did you get here?: Surfing for SI info Do you self-injure?: Yes Your favourite memory: Taking long walks in the woods by myself.

Comments: Thank-you for your page. It helped me to see that im not alone in a world that is so figgin cruel. Take care of yourself, and my thoughts are with you and everyone else who sufferes from SI. Cheers!

bernice - 05/14/00 23:32:36 How did you get here?: self-mutilation search Do you self-injure?: no Your favourite memory: cuddling

Comments: i'm writing a theartre show which involves a character who has a horrible body image, she is a lounge singer. she a little obsessive around, wrapping everying in seran wrap. then she decides to wrap herself aned eventually her mouth. our show is about sel -acceptance, all the many sides of ourselves, the beautiful and grotesque. we all struggle to do this, keep up the faith, be compassionate with ourselves and loving. thanks for your honesty. be gentle and loving, if not you who? if not now, when? be stron sister.

rachel - 05/12/00 18:12:02 My URL:http://destry99.nav.to How did you get here?: i found it through a search on SI Do you self-injure?: yeah Your favourite memory: I don't remember being happy anymore...sorry...

Comments: your site was really cool I loved it!! pretty pink razors...

Angel - 05/10/00 01:58:48 How did you get here?: Surfed in through si links Do you self-injure?: yep i do Your favourite memory: ...staying up till 5:30 with my best friend while he listened to me pour my heart out to him...

Comments: this is a great site...it makes me feel like i'm not alone when i think i am. i've been cutting for 5 months and just got the strength to tell a few of my closest friends who are helping me through it along with other things i'm going through.

Kait - 05/05/00 01:51:14 My URL:http://www.bigfoot.com/~saintkait My Email:saintkait@bigfoot.com How did you get here?: Search Engine Do you self-injure?: Yes

Comments: really kool site. love the openness and honesty. -From one self-injurer and anorexic to another =)

jan - 04/30/00 19:29:58 My Email:j.burriss1@juno.com How did you get here?: surfing Do you self-injure?: yes

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the_spiderman_76 - 04/18/00 22:09:08 My URL:http://www.angelfire.com/ms/themanbehindthemask My Email:the_spiderman_76@yahoo.com How did you get here?: Yahoo Do you self-injure?: Yes Your favourite memory: I went to a play when I was younger. So nice.

Comments: I'm amazed at what I see here. You've been through so much and you've come so far. Depression is pure Hell. Please stay strong and be safe. Take care of yourself. I'm thinking of you and I'm hoping that you make it through. Bye 4 now. *~spidey swings away *

Charlene Ryan - 04/10/00 16:25:33 My Email:ProfRyan@mediaone.net How did you get here?: Browsing Do you self-injure?: no

Comments: My daughter is suffering from PTSD/child abuse. She is still working hard to overcome nightmares, scary thoughts, anxiety, suicide, depression, etc.....She began having flashbacks at 12 and she is 19 today. She is writing a Pschology paper on "Cutters" nd she enjoyed your personal insights. How brave you are! Thanks for your helping us thru these hard times. God bless you and good luck.

DAN LEE ROSS - 04/04/00 16:25:55 My Email:merlin_odin_2000@yahoo.co.uk How did you get here?: a need in me to ID Do you self-injure?: yes for 9 years Your favourite memory: my mum

Comments: AT THIS TIME IN MY LIFE [I AM 28] IT IS SO NICE TO SEE SOMTHING LIKE THIS...I HOPE THIS WILL HELP PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND A BIT MORE ABOUT US..THANKYOU LOVE {DAN}

Sick Divinity - 03/25/00 19:31:22 My Email:asphyxious_delirium@stoned.com How did you get here?: looking for SI information for an ISU Do you self-injure?: not anymore Your favourite memory: I have one memory of being a baby and rejecting my bottle. Sounds like a lie, I know. Believe what you will.

Comments: Reading your diary was like going over something I'd written myself. There are so many similarities it literally made my heart race. What shocked me the most was what you wrote about the fantasies you'd had when going to bed as early as the age of seven; 'd had the same bedtime fantasies. I've never admitted that before, b/c I thought I was deranged or something. As far as cutting, I started doing it regularly at 14 in grade nine. I am now turning 20 in June and have, for the most part, stopped. But the t mptation has never gone away.

catherine leighton - 03/20/00 12:30:39 My Email:party_at_mine@hotmail.com How did you get here?: just brousing Do you self-injure?: yep Your favourite memory: dont have any good memory

Comments: this site is really good.i give it 10 out of 10.i have been a si for about 10 months and i have no one to talk to about it,i hope there is someone out there who i cant chat to about this

Lisa - 03/17/00 19:45:27 My Email:rockylips@yahoo.co.uk How did you get here?: Looking fo sites on SI Do you self-injure?: Yes, I cut and have done for five years Your favourite memory: My 20th birthday party

Comments: This is a fantastic site. I'm kinda doing a tour of all the SI related sites I can find. I want to get in touch with other self-harmers, because although my friends who know about my 'problem' are wonderfully supportive, there's no way they can underst nd. You out there, you can understand me. Please mail me. Stay safe.

becki - 03/14/00 11:40:50 My Email:s0307njm@solent.ac.uk How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: ripping one leg off frogs, so that they can only swim in circles

Comments: your web site is an inspiration to all.Some very interesting ideas.

Jen - 03/13/00 04:27:24 My Email:honey91267@aol.com How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: used to 9 months clean i'm just going through withdrawals now... Your favourite memory: ha..the last time i was truly happy..which by the way i can't remember when

Comments: Your site it amazing. I have a pretty fucked up life. About a year ago I was on the verge of suicide. As a matter of fact, I almost did kill myself. I haven't cut myself in almost 10 months but i'm going through i guess what you can call "withdrawals" now. Because self-mutilation is just like drugs. I was very, very addicted to slicing my body up. I couldn't stop, but finally I became strong enough. I'm starting to doubt my strength now, though, b/c of these withdrawals. It's like I want to cut my elf again so badly. I shake all the time, I've fainted before, and it's just fucked me up so badly. I have insomnia b/c of my past and nightmares also. I sometimes think that my life will never be the same. I'm 15 years old. I shouldn't have to deal ith this. I guess this is just the consequence for growing up too fast... But I absolutely love your page at least I know i'm not totally alone. Thanks.

Meg - 03/08/00 06:04:49 My Email:megs24@ivillage.com How did you get here?: fumbling through life Do you self-injure?: have I ever not? Your favourite memory: um...damn medication...I can't think....oceans

Comments: This is a great site, it helps to know that there are other that differ from the socially accepted norms of todays wayward culture. "I'm only 14, what the hell happened, I'm not soposed to be here, I'm sopose to be getting ready for high school?"

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TORI - 03/03/00 06:46:24 Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: Tori Amos concert with my best friend

Comments: I am a dork and hit enter before I was done... I wanted to say that I am the one who sent you a really long E-mail... and man this page is awsome... my link is just a page with my new nephew on it!:) - Tori

Tori - 03/03/00 06:43:06 My URL:http://www.oe-pages.com/FAMILY/Homepages1/mybestfriend/ My Email:heidinoelleb@yahoo.com How did you get here?: si link Do you self-injure?: yes

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******* - 02/26/00 18:53:12 My Email:moon28@hotmail.com How did you get here?: Yahoo Do you self-injure?: Yes

Comments: Your page is amazing, I never knew someone who had the same feelings as I did, I was daignosed with Bulemia, Depression, and OCD. I was sent to the ED part of the hospital in the middle of 10th grade. I'm still on prozac, it's not helping my depression an i'm fucking slipping away. I've been cutting myself on and off for a year now, and a little while ago I started burning myself with car ciggarette lighters. and every night before i go to bed i wish i'd die, so i can't bother or hurt the people in my lif with my problems anymore, ok, well this is probably too much, anyway i just wanted you to know that your page made me feel somewhat less alone and confused

Connie - 02/24/00 09:38:37 My Email:connies@usc.edu

Comments: your story mirrors my life perfectly ... didn't think there was anyone else out there and believed my actions, thoughts and consistent desires to fuck myself up physically and mentally were only my own. still can't come to terms with it but am reading mo e about it, trying to understand. like you, i don't seem to fall into a specific category ... have been through bouts of anorexia, ocd, cutting, drugs, depression ... i don't know how severe they have to be to be considered a 'real problem,' haven't been hospitalized or on therapy or anything. am currently on prozac (would like to know why you refuse to go on it) but feel abnormally normal and thinking about getting of it. would love to hear from you, how you're doing.

Wendy - 02/19/00 20:56:42 My Email:swendles@hotmail.com How did you get here?: looking for self injury pages Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: Dad bringing me pancakes when I was three.

Comments: I really really like your honest page. I have been trying to tell somebody about my cutting but I am too scared and don't really trust anyone (I am at college and haven't made any friends). Looking for these sites is the only way I have found to deal wi h it. Thank you for letting me read your story.

Marisa - 02/19/00 00:08:58 My Email:lilrisa@aol.com How did you get here?: Thru Yahoo Do you self-injure?: yes... cuts Your favourite memory: Pretending I was a tornado when I was 7 and spinning until everything disapeared

Comments: Wow. I have to say this was the most amazing page I have ever seen. I understand all of and it made me smile to see someone who thought like I do. Thank you.

Diane - 02/16/00 02:09:32 My Email:eitanh@bezeqint.net

Comments: "Can't shout, can't scream, hurt myself to get pain out.." You just get to a point where if you don't do it to yourself, you get a feeling that something really terrible is going to happen, and when that moment comes, it's the logical thing to do. It doesn't hurt. You're not screaming and shouting. A couple of da s later you feel like a sad fuck, but that's part of the healing process: after that you feel really good. People that harm themselves, be it through anorexia or razors, know what they're doing. *Stay Beautiful*

Kirsten - 02/13/00 01:26:22 My Email:BabyGirl21_44@yahoo.com How did you get here?: yahoo Do you self-injure?: yes-cut Your favourite memory: filling the bottom of my dress with dounuts at church running into the showers with my best friend and eating them all

Comments: Your site was a lot of help for me. I have been depressed and masochistic for the past 5 years. It's a horrible long journey and I wish you well I really do. I know what it feels like to need to do that and god save us all.

Thia - 02/03/00 01:25:33 My Email:anaesthesia999@angelfire.com How did you get here?: from grrrlyzine/cut Do you self-injure?: Yes, too often at the moment unfortunately Your favourite memory: Not sure, I'll get back to u on that one....

Comments: I luv the page. I too have lots of reasons for cutting, they differ depending on whether I'm having a depressive episode or a manic/hypomanic episode (yes, I suffer from Bipolar disorder. And suffering is definitely the right word). I'm on some good meds though, Effexor and Melleril to name the 'best' two. Not too sure about the mood-stabilisers I'm on, and the sleepers, yeah I suppose they work. Usually. Why am I blethering on to u about my meds? Oh I dunno, it's 1.25am here and tonite is one of those nights when my Chloral Hydrate decides to let me down. So I gotta talk to someone. God, anyway, how r u? Hope ur OK. Yeah, great page, I will return sometime. Goodnight and take care, love Thia xxx

brittanie - 01/23/00 06:40:57 My Email:raspberryswirlz@aol.com How did you get here?: surfing Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: being happy

Comments: hi, i enjoyed ur page i also have ocd and im on luvox effexor and anafranil ( of which i know i spelled wrong but im to tired to try and find the correct way ) along with ocd i self injure too, and yes im suicidal my whole goal in life is to jump off a bu lding, i noticed you have quotes from tori i love her music her and ani difranco and rasputina anyhow if u ever wanna contact me feel free, brit love peace and tori amos

Kris - 01/22/00 21:49:43 My Email:kn53@cornell.edu How did you get here?: search for self injury Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: kissing her stomach for the first time

Comments: Your site has helped me with research for a poetry series. I was looking for experiences of self-injurers to build a profile of the character I am creating and wanted to draw on more than my own experiences. I was particularly interested in the abusive riedship you endured. I had never heard of abuse in relationships outside romantic ones. Good luck.

megan - 01/20/00 03:55:23 How did you get here?: I don't really know Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: God I have no idea. There hasn't really been anything to remember that's great over the last few years.

Comments: Very cool page! I was quite impressed. Keep up the good work and stay safe (I know how very difficult that is).

Nicole - 01/16/00 05:23:13 My Email:Klumsygrrl@hotmail.com How did you get here?: Yahoo Do you self-injure?: Yes Your favourite memory: All the lovely stories

Comments: Well finally a page thet tells it like it is. Thank you so much for this great site, you are one brave son-of-a-bitch to say whats happened to you in your life. I like the quotes too. From one self-mutilator to another, Thanx

Brenda Koch - 01/12/00 18:44:59 My Email:Brenda_K_75@yahoo.com How did you get here?: from my personal page at yahoo Do you self-injure?: In a sense I do, but not to the degree I leave scars outward...just inward. Your favourite memory: A warm summer evening when my kids were both still very, very young. We were in the backyard swinging & playing with our new puppy, just us three!

Comments: I am happy that you are trying to get this under control and to understand what is going on with you. Your mom and dad are very fortunate that you had the strength to hang in there and look for the answers. I know I'd be very thankful! You are great kiddo ..do not ever give up! You have come a long way and have a long way to go yet. You too have a lot to offer others...kindness, gentleness, sincerity, honesty, friendship, guidance, understanding, compassion,love, hope, trust and so much more. Keep up the good work! I have been depressed on and off during my life...also taken Paxil, it helped. And there is nothing greater than the gift of life...keep up the good work sweetie. Thinking of you often. And feel free to email if you wish. Brenda

Carmatha - 11/04/99 08:36:18 My URL:http://carmatha.tripod.com/ My Email:cmat@mail.com How did you get here?: I followed Cymro, my newly adopted guru Do you self-injure?: every other day it seems Your favourite memory: the day I met the special man whom I loved but lost

Comments: I'm trying to recover from a recent suicide attempt, spent time in the hospital, am still depressed despite my meds and therapy, and I still feel the need to cut myself. I try to tell myself I'm not alone, and there are many others out here in cyberspace ho are like me, but I still feel very alone. Anyhow, thanks for sharing your thoughts with the rest of us. It takes a brave heart to be so honest. Thank you. Blessings and warm hugs from Carmatha

frances - 10/30/99 11:16:49 My Email:griswalde@aol.com How did you get here?: search web Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: none

Comments: i don't understand why i cut, i am angry and hurting, i want to hurt my husband for hurting me and others who have hurt me. i am a christian who loves and prays to god, so i can't understand. i am cutting drinking and limiting what i deserve to eat.

chris - 10/21/99 00:29:46 My URL:http://www.angelfire.com/ak2/selfharm/ My Email:i_want_to_die21@hotmail.com Do you self-injure?: erm!

Comments: Hello Anna, hope you are well, i'm still alive, just about, your page rocks, thanks for the help you give people, all you people out there, please take care, *hugs* Chris xxc

pattysmith - 09/19/99 00:15:17 My Email:Participation@Msn.com How did you get here?: exploring Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: waves hitting shoreline

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Francine Price - 09/03/99 18:09:37 My Email:Frantp3@yahoo.com How did you get here?: winds of change Do you self-injure?: yeah Your favourite memory: they are all of Phil DiOrio

Comments: Great site. Yes I self injure, probally now that I think about I've been doing it since I was kid, but was too dumb to realize it. Fran

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Roelof - 08/22/99 00:08:04 My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/SouthBeach/Cabana/8048 My Email:194128rs@student.eur.nl How did you get here?: Link in "Out of the Shadows" guestbook Do you self-injure?: No, but I feel like it sometimes. I think that if I do it once, I will always keep doing it. So I hope I won't start it. Your favourite memory: World Cup soccer 98, semi-final, Netherlands-Brazil, when Patrick Kluivert scored 1-1. I kept jumping around the house :-)

Comments: Hi I love your page! I really feel sorry for you, for all that you have been through. I can relate to some things you wrote, although I wouldn't admit most of them. I really hope things get better for you. Oh, and there's nothing wrong about Prozac... there re some stories, yes, but I'm also taking it and the only thing it does to me is give me a dry mouth (it also doesn't help against my depression (yet)). Take care ~ Roelof

hanny princess - 08/16/99 05:25:48

Comments: AH!!! Geocities ate all your entries??? *STARTS SCREAMING* oh nooo...how evil...*hugs my Anna bear tight* =( i'm so sorry!! GRRR!!! well, glad you are moving, Anny...*sigh* bad geocities *beats it* =P

Shadow - 08/15/99 02:20:40 My URL:http://www.gurlpages.com/spirit/shadowess.e/darkness.html My Email:JRShadow@hotmail.com How did you get here?: Link in my Guestbook Do you self-injure?: Yes Your favourite memory: I'll get back to you on that one.

Comments: Sorry that it took me so long to make it here, but I finally got a chunk of time and read through your site. It's very well written. Please Stay Strong and Take Care of yourself. I can see through your words what a wonderful person you are. ~Shadow

hanny - 08/13/99 11:07:27 My URL:http://manifest-angel.com/trinity

Comments: Anny banany!! oh my gosh..I just read all your entries and you read catcher in the rye! hehe...i couldnt fid anyone else online who did. =D you must be my soul sister!!! xxxxx, hanny ;)

Jennifer - 08/11/99 07:16:52 My Email:dulcineah1@hotmail.com How did you get here?: link from another page Do you self-injure?: once in awhile Your favourite memory: Reading "Waiting for Godot" out loud with a friend at a Speech and Debate meet

Comments: beautiful page! i SI off and on, and it's comforting to know i'm not the only one. please take care of yourself, and feel free to email me anytime. Always, Jennifer

Morion - 08/09/99 22:09:15 My URL:http://www.morion.com/morion/ How did you get here?: You signed my GB Do you self-injure?: No Your favourite memory: ehh.. that's a secret! ;-)

Comments: Hi, Your page is so very touching... It was intereresting to read your diary - and I do hope you will feel a lot better soon! *smile* And oh, Thanks a lot for stopping by my site! Welcome back anytime! Over 180 original ~* FREE *~ Borderbackground Sets! Fantasy, Celtic, Flowers, Animals and a LOT more!

Tara - 08/09/99 03:26:29 My URL:http://www.angelfire.com/ab/journal My Email:journal88@hotmail.com Do you self-injure?: yes

Comments: hey anna, just letting you know i have changed the name of my web site and ive done a total remoddeling of it, so you can change the name on the links page from "the darkness of the night" to "out of the shadows". and keep up the wonderful work with this age :-)

bridget - 08/07/99 05:12:04 How did you get here?: i crawled through a rabbit hole Do you self-injure?: nope Your favourite memory: i don't remember. i'm sure it's when i bit you when i was 4

Comments: hey hey cool cats! anna, 1st time i visited your page. you know i hate computers! i think it's a good website. as far as websiites go. not that i've seen that many. keep it clean. in more ways than one.

hanny :) - 08/05/99 23:22:33 My URL:http://manifest-angel.com/trinity Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: here is one: dancing on the beach at night with my dad singing songs in hebrew :)

Comments: aw my poor banana!! i'm soo sorry you lost all your SI links *hugs you tight* That sucks! geocities is evil! maybe you should move to angelfire, I stayed there for a while and I liked it *shrugs* anyways, thanks for coming to me, i feel so loved *smile* l ve you!!

Anna - 08/05/99 04:19:27

Comments: either i am going crazy or else GeoCities is being a big fucking pain in the ass. it fucking took everything in cutting.html and moved it to the SI links page. so i JUST FUCKING LOST ALL OF MY SELF INJURY LINKS. i'm going to go cry now. i can't remember ver feeling so shaken and defeated by a goddamn computer.

Tara - 08/04/99 23:39:25 My URL:http://www.angelfire.com/ab/journal My Email:journal88@hotmail.com Do you self-injure?: Yes

Comments: i just want to say that i love your page, and i wish you all the best for the future. bye!

grace - 08/04/99 22:45:56 My Email:SMTP:vickergm@bp.com How did you get here?: lycos Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: can't think of any right now

Comments: Thanks, It helps to know that there is someone out there like me.

Amethyste - 07/31/99 18:59:46 My URL:http://www.DHearts.org/Members/Committee.html My Email:Folle@mentalhelp.net How did you get here?: I don't remember. Do you self-injure?: Yes. Your favourite memory: I don't know because I forgot.

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j u d y - 07/31/99 17:34:36 My URL:http://fly.to/ginga My Email:XgingaX@erols.com How did you get here?: another guestbook Do you self-injure?: OH y e s Your favourite memory: the ones that lie forgotten

Comments: Hello cool page. . .I am a self injurer as well, it is nice knowing that there are others here on the net, as it is often dificult to talk about in person ((thankyouforthejournal)). You have done a brave thing by writing about it. ^_^

Anna Ida - 07/29/99 09:25:59 My URL:http://ultramarine.cjb.net My Email:ultramarine@hushmail.com How did you get here?: You signed my guestbook Do you self-injure?: Yes. I try not to. I am strong. Your favourite memory: Seeing the Manics twice this year.

Comments: Hey dear... Boy, haven't they messed you up? I know.. I've lost all my faith in doctors, and it's no surprise, I'd say. Anyway, did you like my site? I really, really, really hope that you read the stuff about Richey Edwards... He's amazing.. I do think you could relate to his opinions, actions... I can't describe it. Oh well. I think my Manics-obsession (so much for washi g hands - I've been there!) has led me into turning everyone to that band. Sigh. I go from door to door and hope that someone will discover the beauty in it... (ahem, who was it that was 100% anti-religion...) Well, we all have flaws, don't we? Anyway, si ce I'm terrible at coming so far as actually writing emails, could you write me? I'm useless... Oh well. I apologize for the above text. Can't help it. Stay Beautiful, Anna Ida xxx

Marian - 07/29/99 02:16:25 My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/Athens/Aegean/7759/index.html My Email:ophelia__rising@hotmail.com How did you get here?: My guestbook =) Do you self-injure?: i'm fighting for what's left of my grace...

Comments: Your site is absolutely gorgeous. As a self injurer and survivor I want to wish you all the best in the world. Thank you for the kind words you left in my guestbook. It means so much to me. *peace in the struggle to find peace comfort on the way to comfort* *~*~*marian*~*~*

chris the timid - 07/28/99 22:19:32

Comments: by the way thanx for linking me to your page! i'm not worthy *bowing humble down* sorry if spelling mistakes appear, shit this prozac is making me hi!

- 07/28/99 22:15:17

Comments: what do you mean, that i had to sign you guestbook last?

Josie - 07/28/99 13:16:27 My URL:http://www.windsofchange.com My Email:jhurt@ka.net How did you get here?: Link left in our guestbook Do you self-injure?: no

Comments: Thank you for stopping in our home, and for allowing me a glimpse of your life. We can learn from each other, I'm sure. God bless you.

brian - 07/28/99 03:14:59 My Email:forsaken_one@anti-social.com How did you get here?: just followed a link Do you self-injure?: yes, almost every day Your favourite memory: when my friend held me when i was really sad

Comments: good page. interesting. i wish there were more like it. i'd make one but there's nothing interesting about me...damn i suck...oh well

Chris - 07/27/99 20:15:07 My URL:http://www.angelfire.com/ak2/selfharm/Selfharm.html How did you get here?: followed my nose! Do you self-injure?: well yes again, again, again, etc.

Comments: hi Anna, return trip to sign your guestbook, jest :) like to say thanx for your site and for visiting mine! together we can show the world that we and you and i and everyone is not alone or something!!!! *Beavis and Butthead noises* or something, take car !

chris - 07/25/99 18:54:31 My URL:http://www.angelfire.com/ak2/selfharm/Selfharm.html My Email:chrispalmer666@yahoo.com How did you get here?: God brought me here! Do you self-injure?: yes, i think, most of the time, yes, yes, yes! Your favourite memory: Can't remember!

Comments: just dropped in to say hello, or something, take care, chris :)

Jane - 07/23/99 23:55:11 My Email:janedory@aol.com How did you get here?: The Webring Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: Indian Summer, 1985 ~12 noon in the parking lot of an old job where I worked and was very happy & safe in a room with no windows. I went outside on my lunch break to my truck and the sun & world was smiling at me and I smile back. Everything was perfect - I was never so happy. It was right before I married Billy. I want to go back there or at least have my life back and go forward.

Comments: Anna - I love your site - especially your new revisions!! Doll Parts and Hotel California, ALL of is so great and I can relate to so much. Hmm...pretty pink razors...how tempting, but I've been a good girl so you promise me you will hang in there too. Don't e getting suicidal on me now cuz I have a survivors award at the Cutting World you may end up with one day so BEHAVE!! Much love, light and awesome vibes to you new ring member!! (Thank you for being so patient with the Webring - I really didn't expect all these new changes!!)

Anna Banana - 07/20/99 08:49:25 My URL:http://fly.to/empty_cage_girl My Email:oh_so_cold@yahoo.com Do you self-injure?: yeah Your favourite memory: when i was able to update this stupid page

Comments: ARGH!!! *&@%*(@*&^#(@*#^$%#(*@ (insert swear words of your choice!!!) i'm signing my own guestbook because GEOCITIES IS NOT SAVING MY DIARY ENTRIES!!! i'm going out of my mind here . . . . . this is my way of killing two birds with one stone (both ranting and letting everyone know why i haven't updated in so long). i'm going to scream a bit more - i love you all.

damaged (formerly kara) - 07/20/99 02:05:40 My URL:http://emote.org/damaged My Email:damaged@emote.org How did you get here?: a fairy told me the URL Do you self-injure?: *nods* Your favourite memory: meeting anna! (i'm such a kiss-up)

Comments: hello annabanana! i made you a sibling site on my page :o) yay! your tori site is gorgeous, chickie! thanks for giving me the addy :o) talk later :oÞ ~kara/damaged

Catherine - 07/18/99 18:29:54 My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/Hotsprings/Villa/4856 My Email:zoo@cableinet.co.uk How did you get here?: you signed my guestbook Do you self-injure?: yes Your favourite memory: meeting my husband

Comments: Thankyou so much for signing my guestbook ;-) you have a lovely site here, and I sense you have gone through and are going through so much right now. Please keep safe and try and look after yourself. ((((hugs)))) Catherine

anna - 07/16/99 01:45:10 My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/Soho/Coffeehouse/6417/annaspoetry.html My Email:vonmulch@csj.net How did you get here?: monicas home page Do you self-injure?: sometimes Your favourite memory: my first cat, and giving birth to larissa

Comments: i loved your webpages and saw so much of myself in your writing. you have a strength that very few shar with the world and if you ever need anyone, im here.

Monica - 07/15/99 01:03:20 My URL:http://www.angelfire.com/on2/shadows/index.html My Email:dreamer237@hotmail.com How did you get here?: you signed my guestbook Do you self-injure?: no Your favourite memory: eze - a tiny place in france

Comments: Hi Anna, your page is absolutely gorgeous! You have such a great amount of strength, to share this part of yourself with all of us. I do not self injure, but you are helping others who do to know that they are not alone. And that is so important. Please t ke care of yourself. Love, Monica

Sarah - 07/14/99 23:44:03 My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/HotSprings/Bath/6334 My Email:januarygirl77@hotmail.com Do you self-injure?: Yes.

Comments: I just can't get over how great your page is. I fixed my broken links and am obsessively signing your guestbook. Know what's weird? I just read all the lyrics to Hotel California yesterday, and then I read them on your page. Weird. I didn't know you cut ords, too. The last word I cut was ANGEL. Odd, huh? I wanted to cut something beautiful.

Miss Listerine - 07/14/99 10:51:00 My URL:http://www.fly.to/eurodisco My Email:elisabeth@sadistic.co.uk How did you get here?: A link via the stronger website Do you self-injure?: Yes Your favourite memory: I have many

Comments: I love the page anna, please keep it up. Stay beautiful. Elisabeth xxxx

Sarah - 07/11/99 17:26:35 My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/HotSprings/Bath/6334 My Email:januarygirl77@hotmail.com How did you get here?: You told me. Do you self-injure?: Yes. Your favourite memory: ????????

Comments: The new page is up, and my brother *really* wants to use the phone, so I guess I'll have to write you later.

LiLi - 07/08/99 14:34:20 My URL:http://www.gurlpages.com/me/numbrazor/index.html My Email:numbrazor@gurlmail.com How did you get here?: guest book Do you self-injure?: uh huh... Your favourite memory: playing in the snow with justin

Comments: you're page is beautiful! sometimes things get really hard and it's comforting to know that someone out there knows how i fee. all too often it's so threatening to be surronded by non-cutters. they threaten to tell, not to be our friends any more. and the do this at the time when they need it most. it's just a blessed feeling of solace knowing that someone else knows how i feel. Painfully Yours, LiLi.

Alice Summers - 07/07/99 05:50:58 My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/Southbeach/Channel/6743 My Email:alice_summers@yahoo.com How did you get here?: i have my ways . . . . . Do you self-injure?: no. Your favourite memory: my first popsicle. it was rainbow :)

Comments: Anna, your page is hauntingly beautiful. Your page, plus all the links, really helped me understand more about self-injury. Take care and "stay safe", Alice.

Kara - 07/06/99 02:36:06 My URL:http://fly.to/little_earthquakes My Email:magen@chickmail.com How did you get here?: Um...I can't remember. Sowwie... Do you self-injure?: Yuh-huh... Your favourite memory: Can't think of one right now...

Comments: Beautiful page...I will be back...you're bookmarked sweetie...and hey...may I link you?

Sarah - 07/03/99 13:42:31 My URL:http://i'mworkingonanewone My Email:holegirl77@hotmail.com How did you get here?: You told me about it. Do you self-injure?: Yes. Your favourite memory: I don't remember.

Comments: Awesome award, Anna. I tried to sign the guestbook before, but it didn't show up. My e-mail's been kind of screwed up lately, too. Another webring you might be interested in is Bodies Under Siege. It's one of my favourites.

Foxy & Others - 06/28/99 22:38:24 My URL:http://www.cymax.com My Email:foxy@cymax.com How did you get here?: Link submission on my site Do you self-injure?: Yes, I cut and burn. Your favourite memory: Ha! Are you kidding? Okee, when I met TM the first time iRL.

Comments: You have a grrreat site! Keep it up, girl! I'll be coming back for more. :o)