01Feb

February 25, 2001
Okay, I'm getting a little peeved here! Last night I get an email from my father (who's on a cruise for the first time with my mother). He had forgotten their passports and "despretaly needed me to go over to their house and find/fax copies" so they could get back into the country. I, the ever dutiful daughter rushed right over and searched high and low for them. I finally called my sister who arrived to tag team the search. i had to get home and empty my jugs , per say. As I was leaving the building, my ankle buckled from under me and I heard a loud pop. Pain shot up my leg and at 1205am I'm sitting on the front steps trying very hard not to let out a blood curdling scream. Needless to say I'm lame. My ankle is the size of a grapefruit and starting to bruise like Rocky's eyes after a fight. This sucks! I'm out of gym mode for a week and how in the hell am I suppose to take care of the kids?
So I'm listing some good things about this accident.
1. I got to take two naps today...(now I'm wide awake!)
2. My husband did all the laundry this weekend.
3. He also felt so bad he finally commited to the gateway computer I wanted. (EDA Mar 5)
4. Not able to run to the kitchen and eat junk as quickly.
5. Gonna totally milk the guilt scene when parents get home.
6. Have a really good excuse to sit on ass and watch TV all day long tomorrow.
7. Have a really good reason to order chinese food too!
8. Might get to paint my much neglected toes
9. Been whining all day and been getting away with it
And the top ten fabulous reason this swollen ankle rocks...
10. NO DISH PAN HANDS!
Tah~

February 23, 2001
Talk about bad luck. My first party on Wed. night was a huge bust! The woman whos house was used for the party, wasn't even her house. She was house sitting! Then she was so moody and cranky. When we walked in the first thing she said to me was "So what does this involve of me" all bitchy like. My friend, who I was doing the party for at this womans's house, hadn't arrived yet so i was all tounge tied and I never got my balance back. Then half way through my demo, she get's up and leaves the house with all of us in it! I stumbled over words and left out half of my presentation. I didn't sell a damn thing and I cried on the way home. It was an example of the worst case senario. I've done direct selling before, and am use to the usual hesitation, but I wasn't ready for the unforseen at my first CM party. THANK GOD my leader went with me. NO one would have believed it if I told them.
If I was smart I would get out now while I'm ahead! Actually, my mother-in-law is having a party next month and I know for a fact that three people want albums so at least after that party I'll have made my initial investment back. I'm also hosting a workshop in March and plan to have a mass mailing/phone a friend list for that.
It snowed like a bitch last night. We got about a7 inches and I'm dying to get outside and make my snowman in a kit. Tah~

February 20, 2001
I'm in the darkest of moods today. I actually made it to the gym and was on track for my new schedule when I realized as the door bell was ringing that I had called to update my cable to digital. No nap for me today. Then Kevin calls at 530pm to tell me he's just leaving the main office ...45 mins. away. It just happens to be the week and the first day I start the menu. So our dinner was over cooked, cold and way way way off schedule. I can just hear ya'll now. Well those who know me know that I'm about to kick some scheduling butt! Tomorrow at oh dark hundred...all hands will be on time! I did extremely well at the gym. 40 mins on the treadmill and 2 sets of 5 different weight moves for the arm. Tah~

February 19, 2001
I hate AOL log off due to inactivity. Here I am trying to update my journal and was almost done when I got kicked off. PISSED is only the tip of the iceberg.
Anyway, we are all healthy this week. Yahoo. I'm super busy with my scrapbooking business. I held my first crop this past Sunday. Did well. Booked a class for March.
I'm trying somethi9ng new this week. I'm keeping a loose schedule with the kids in order to begin the transition from our room to Nicky's new crib. He actually slept 2 and a half hours in his sisters crib today. I also wrote out a menu with points values and all. Then I made a list and only bought what was needed for the menu. Boy did that save on money. I was also good when I picked up BK for dinner. I got a BK broiler w/o cheese and mayo. I made a salad at home and drank water. So I wouldn't attack Kev's FF, I sucked on a Vit C drop and that actually over powered the smell. I didn't get to the gym today, but I'm hoping this schedule will help set me in motion. (I set aside time to get my butt there) I've got a new pair of walking sneaks and Nicky takes a bottle from just about anyone so I really have no more excuses. Tomorrow is playgroup. My best friend just found out she's pregnant. I'm so happy but those hormones were tugging at my sleve. I could feel myself wanting to be pregnant too. SEND DISCOURAGING EMAIL HERE!
Oh boy do I need to have my head looked at. By the way my IUD is FABULOUS! Especially for oh such moments of weakness. Wednsday is Nicky's "Welcome to Society" lunch-in. Kevin's mom will take any opportunity to have a party! Then I've got my first home class Wed night. I'm so excited because there are 15 people signed up. I'm guessing 9 will actally attend. Hopefully I'll get other's to book a class! I'll try to get a few moments to update before the weekend. If not expect a long one on Sat. Tah~ Have you seen the pictures of my KIDS?

February 15, 2001
I took a mini vacation because yesterday was my 2nd Anniversary. Yup, I've been married for two years and have two kids. All before I'm thirty. Pretty damn good if you ask me.
For those of you who've been reading me for awhile, I often mention/link to Fred's site ONEFATMAN.COM
He has an incredible story to tell and a mountain of good solid no B-S advice to dish out. His style or philosophy revolves around finding your pain. I think Ophrahs' Dr. Phil and Fred are twins seperated at birth because they think along the same lines.
So I mention him (Fred) because lately I've been so NOT motivated to get back on track with my weight loss. I've got plenty of motivation...Kev's reunionn, my trip to Reno in July, my children, my healthy the list is long. I just can't seem to stop making excuses and just do it. So I'm digging and I'm digging and I searching for so pain. and boy have I gotten good at dissassociating myself from myself. Tomorrow I'm going to stand butt naked in front of a mirror and really take a good look at myself. I'm not going to move until I feel something. Anything,   Disgust, anger, fear...just something other then "Oh look...I'm fat...gee...how'd that happen." Then I'm going to get my butt to the gym. My WW partner just discovered she's pregnant so I'm not sure what I'm going to do about that. I think I'm going to focus on getting to the gym. I've pretty much cleaned out the house of crap... Speaking of which. Can you bleive my husband? He bought me three bags of candy...He's responce to my "I'm trying to loose weight...why'd ya do that?"   was   "IT'S VALENTINE'S DAY FOR GOD"S SAKE" Got some issues to work out? I'd say!
Trying to set good examples, I bought the kids non-food items for V-Day. I bought Nicky a cute toy to attach to his bouncy seat. Maddie, well she got the grandaddy jungle gym of them all. Click HERE To see the picture Tah~

February 9, 2001
Things seem to be getting better here. The meds are kicking in and Nicky is sleeping like a baby. He feel asleep at 930pm woke up at 1230, fed, fell back asleep at 100am then was out until 630 am. He rewoke, fed then slept until 900am. The great thing about that schedule is Maddie didn't wake up so I was able to get some sleep too! I hung around the house today. i actuall ironed Kevin's shirts and put away most of the laundry. Friday nights I usually head to Crops, but there is a regional conference in Boston that all the other consultants are attending. Since it's a two day dealie I decided not to go. I'm not ready to leave Nicky. Especially with his ear aches. I was going to head to Wal-mart to pick up some prints and snackies, then hid out in the office and scrap on my own, but I would rather update here instead.
My father came over today to see the kids. We got to talking about houses and all the reasons we should be buying one now. Kevin came home in the middle of the disscusion. He is not ready to take on the responciblity. I can do nothing but dream up floor plans. I want a huge common/living room with 20-25 foot ceilings. when I say huge I mean HUGE. I want to seat 20 or more. I want my house to be the kids cool house. I also want a huge dining room. I'm so tired of feeling like I'm sitting in my neighbors lap because we are all crammed around a table. Then there's the three car garage...oh don't get me started.
I can't believe they voted Mad dog off last night. We taped Friends, etc. last night so I was able to watch sans commercials today. LOVE the hippity hop! WANT ONE! The show hit home because I'll be 30 in May...plenty of time!
I'm going to re-join WW tomorrow. I actually have been making a list of all the right things to buy at the store. Plus I'm creating a week to week menu so I'm only going once to the store. More on the weight in tommorow. Tah~

February 7, 2001
I swear I'm not making this up...Nicky has ear infections in both ears. He's not even three months the poor baby. He just didn't seem right so I called the doctor and scheduled an apointment. Let me stop for a few sec and add this tidbit. It's nice to live in a small town. The Nurse assistant is an old drinking buddy of ours. Her father owns the bar Kevin and I met in. She loves kids and so is right were she should be. Anyway, she hooks me up everytime I go in. Last visit I scored two cans of formula...that off set the 20 copay I had to fork over for the two kids! This time she stocked me full of sample drugs for the cold and flu season. Gotta love small towns! So I scheduled an apointment and yes he was sick. No fever and not overly fussy. He was eating less, but still all smiles and giggles. I'm going to make this short since I've got to feed him and give him his bubble gum flavored amox. Tah~

February 6, 2001
I finally got February's journal up and running. Took me long enough. Again with the long list of excuses! Sickness, computer problems, snow snow snow, and my Creative Memories boxes finally arriving. YAHOO I"m official. I haven't had much time to sit down and go through all of my new stuff yet. Kevin is at AA, Maddie is in bed and Nicky is in his bouncy seat playing with some toys. I finally got geocities to upload this background because I love it so much!
This month is just flying by for me. I will be celebrating my 2nd anniversary on the 14th.( Yes we are one of the sappy icky folks that choose Valentines day as our wedding day) It is also the month I'm starting my Scrapbooking business. I've got one party and one Workshop scheduled. I've got two parties and one workshop for next month already. I'm hoping to make enough to pay for my habit. Even if I just sell the stuff they gave me in my kit I'll more then brake even.
Okay I can't stand it anymore. It's suppose to be a surprise and not announced until the end of this month, but I just can't wait anymore. KEVIN GOT PROMOTED!!!!!! This is big time promotion too! We;ve doubled our salary plus Kevin got a gas card, a $350/mo car stipend, laptop, cell phone and they've increased his percentage for quartarly bonuses. I get to pick out any new car I want! We also are going to build a new house next year! I'm so proud of him! We can now afford to put the kids in day care twice a week while I go to school part time. We are also planning a European vacation this year. Since my brother in in Germany I'm hoping to fly over for a visit! No more living paycheck to paycheck. His new title is Territory Manager. He is now in charge of 6 branches (all of RI + two MA. stores) The respect he feels for himself and he feels the company is bestowing upon him is more then he could have ever hoped for himself. He's so cute...this morning he wakes me up and asks me where the good ties are. (I use to wear his ties when I waited tables....YAHOOO NOT ANY MORE!) Anyway, he wakes me and once I understand what he wants, I ask him why because he usually doesn't wear them. He say..."Well I'd better start looking the part!" He even ironed his shirt...something he's never done.   Secretly I've always wanted to be Carmella Soprano. Now I get to stay at home and be a spoiled rotton housewife! Life is so hard! Tah~