Month at a glance
In July I lost bringing my total loss to
July 31 -- ??
I am writing this from the Workforce Development Summer Conference in Greensboro, where everything except my diet has gone pretty well. It is hard to understand how little time people on the workshop staff have for basics like eating and sleeping. I have had to grab something when I could. Sometimes I've done really well (passed on dessert, only drank water at a reception) but other times I did really awful (ice cream last night -- my first ice cream in a month!). Anyway, I have no idea how I've done. I'll have to wait until I get home tomorrow and extrapolate what my end-of-the-month total was.
On a more positive note, several people have mentioned that it looks like I've lost weight. I'm not sure how much credibility to give it (I've had people tell me I'd lost weight in the past when I'd actually gained), but it still makes me feel good.
July 27 -- 224
Well, I'm not down any since Wednesday. I had pizza this week. I'm sure that has something to do with it. I've had a very hectic week getting ready for the Workforce Development Conference, which starts tomorrow. I bought some snacks to take with me to Greensboro. Hopefully I'll be able to keep from going too far off the deep end. I expect to mess up at least a little, but I hope to be able to keep it under control.
July 23 -- 224
I haven't had enough nerve to try on anything that's been too tight, but my biggest shorts feel a little loose. It's probably all in my head. I'm not sure losing 14 pounds is enough to make much of a difference in how things fit, but I can always hope.
I'm excited to have finally got this journal posted this week. I've really enjoyed reading other people's journals and I think it will help me to get mine online as well.
I'm starting to get nervous about the conference I am working with next week. I know from sad experience that there is no time to sleep, no time to eat, and no time to exercise. I guess I'd better start now planning how I'm going to keep things under control.
July 20 -- 225
I'm not sure what was going on at my physical, but the doctor didn't say a word to me about my weight. Her scales weighed heavier than mine at home, so my weight was the most it's ever been at the doctor's office. I was too embarrassed to tell her that was down 11 lbs from where it had been three weeks earlier. She didn't talk to me about exercise either. That was the lecture she gave me last year. I hope she hasn't given up on me.
There was an interesting report on stomach stapling (or whatever they call it now) on 48 Hours Thursday night. It made it seem pretty miraculous and risk free. But I saw something on another one of those news shows about it a week or so ago that was talking about problems that can result. One woman was being treated for malnutrition and was going to have to undergo corrective surgery. I guess I still need to try to lose weight the old-fashioned way before I resort to medical intervention.
I managed to eat pretty well this week but I made a lot of adjustments on the food plan I'm supposed to be using. I was Tournament Director for the District 6 Little League tournament, which meant baseball every night. Although I only ate one hotdog at the ballfield, I ate supper very late every night. That is bad. Maybe I'll get back in gear this week. I'm still going down s-l-o-w-l-y but surely.
July 16 -- 227
Things went really well this week although I had my worst day yesterday. I went out to Chinese for lunch with a friend from work. I thought I'd just make some adjustments the rest of the day, but I guess once you get out of balance it is hard to get back. I ended up eating about half a box of dry cereal, which isn't bad as binges go but still is not good. I think I would have been down more today without the slipups. I guess I need to save my slipups for the day after weigh-in, not the day before.
I'm still not exercising. I wish I could come up with some good motivation.
Weight loss has really been in the news this week. Apparently there are some preliminary results that indicate fen-phen, which is a combination of two drugs, can cause very serious heart problems. Of course, obesity can cause very serious heart problems, too. I guess it's a matter of deciding which is the most dangerous. I was tempted to talk to my doctor about drugs when I have my physical this week. But its pretty apparent that I should try sticking to an eating plan for more than a couple of months before I resort to anything more drastic.
July 13 -- 228
Zack gets back tonight. He's only called me once (but that's once more than last year!), but it sounds like they are having a lot of fun. I've done pretty well while he was gone, both emotionally (my baby is in NY!) and physically. It seems like the weight loss has slowed, which I guess is good. The "experts" all say you are better able to keep it off if you lose slowly. Like everyone on a diet, I just want to wake up tomorrow THIN!
July 9 -- 229
After two weeks, I've lost 9 pounds. I went a little overboard on popcorn tonight, but overall I think I've done really well. I downloaded some exercise notes from a great site: The Hacker's Diet. Maybe I'll get motivated to start tomorrow.
Things are going fine, I think, but eating well sure is expensive. I'm going to run out of money before I run out of month.
July 6 -- 231
I had a successful day yesterday. I went to the Festival for the Eno and passed up all the goodies. I took a big water bottle and drank and drank and drank. I ate an apple and part of a banana (it got a little mushy). The only thing I bought to eat was a vegetarian sandwich in a pita. It had low calorie Italian dressing on it, so I think I was ok. I walked about a thousand miles, too.
I had my first failure today, though. I ate four slices of lunch meat. I wouldn't exactly call it a binge, but it means I can't keep saying I've been perfect.
July 2 -- 232
For three days I've stuck to the diet great. I'm not sure writing down my weight every day is such a good idea, though. Right now it is really motivating because I'm losing quickly. But as I go on and it gets more difficult I'm afraid it may be kind of depressing. One thing I have absolutely decided about myself -- I cannot have tempting goodies around the house. I have no willpower whatsoever around them. I had a moment when I opened the freezer tonight and if there had been something there, I would have eaten it. When it isn't available I pass. Zack will probably benefit from having nothing really fattening to snack on, too.
I continue to be very excited about how well I am sticking to the food plan. I told Zack this afternoon I thought it might be the longest I'd ever been without cheating. He was pretty impressed until I mentioned it had only been four days. He leaves to go on a youth mission trip Friday. While he is gone things could go either way. I could do really well because I don't have any bad stuff around, or I could slip off the wagon because he isn't here keeping on eye on me. So far he has been very supportive. He even ate some questionable "Practical Turkey Stew" the other night without any complaints. He hasn't complained that there isn't anything sweet around, and God knows he loves sweets as much as I do.
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