Month at a glance
So far this month I've lost for a total loss of
August 27 -- Still 219 lbs.
This is getting REALLY boring. Since August 6 I have lost 1 lbs. Of course,
I know what the problem is -- I'm not following my eating plan, not drinking
my water, and not exercising. The only good thing I'm doing is
writing in my journal fairly regularly.
August 24 -- 219 lbs.
I am really worried about my son's weight. I saw him without a
shirt on this week for the first time in several weeks, and he
looks like he's gained 20 lbs. I don't want to nag him (I'm
living proof of the lack of effectiveness of that!), but I
certainly don't want to ignore it either. I know from my own
sad experience that it is miserable being a fat teenager and I
don't want him to have to go through it.
There has been a discussion on the diet list lately about whether parents can control their children's eating. I know part of his problems now are due to the bad example I've provided for him. But since I started my most recent diet June 25 we have had NO sweets around the house. There have been plenty of healthy snacks. Yet somehow he is getting the bad stuff. I could eliminate every temptation from our house, but I think it is important for him to learn to control himself. He is old enough (14) to be responsible for his decisions about eating.
On a more positive note, he and I talked tonight about joining the Y and we are very interested. I think I will try to arrange a tour in the next few days. I hate to commit myself to any additional expenses right now, but this is something there will always be an excuse for. I need to go ahead and bite the bullet.
August 19 -- 219 lbs. AT LAST!!!
Finally, I got moving again. It was only a tiny baby step, but
since it was in the right direction I'll take it!
My goals for the rest of August include the following:
August 13 -- still 220 lbs.
Well, looks like I managed to hold even. I don't think it's the
reunion that did me in as much as my overeating since I got back
home. I have been really tired, and trying to squeeze in some
car shopping on top of everyone else means I haven't had much time to
prepare to eat right. I haven't even been to the grocery store since
I got back. I know that makes a difference.
I did have several positive things happen today. I wore a dress to work that I haven't been able to get into since last summer. It was still a tad tight, but definitely wearable. Two people told me at the office they could tell how much weight I'd lost. Then this afternoon the man I carpool with told me he didn't recognize me until I got almost to his car because I had lost so much weight. Now I know 18 lbs. doesn't make that much difference, but I'll take the compliments where they come.
Here's to a big improvement tomorrow.
August 11 -- ??
I survived the family reunion, but I don't have enough nerve to weigh myself. I'll wait until my regular weigh-in
day Wednesday to see how I did. I ate pretty well most of the time, but I think it's all relative -- compared
to what I wanted to eat I did great!
The depressing part was that not a single person mentioned my weight. I didn't imagine the aunts and uncles would notice since I've only lost 18 lbs., but I did expect my mother to say something. I think my family's attitude can be summed up by one of my cousins, who was told at least twice that he looked just like his brother "Now that you've gained so much weight." It may be true, but not the sort of thing you should say to someone.
I think I'm going to be buying a new car this week. I hope it doesn't hurt my weight loss efforts. Besides the fact that it makes me depressed, it also means I have even less time to prepare healthy meals than usual (which is already almost no time) since I am pounding the car lots.
August 6 -- 220
Down 3 lbs. -- a very pleasant surprise today. I guess plugging away is paying off.
Other than my diet, things are not going too well. I had to buy new tires for my car last night because it failed inspection. The guy who put on the tires told me my CV joint was "busted." No explanation of what that means or what I should do about it. It was after his quitting time, so his major concern was getting out of there. I'm driving a 1989 Hyundai with nearly 130,000 miles on it. Also, the muffler sounds like a visit to the shop is in order, and some other little things are broken or breaking, too. I've thought all along that when it started falling apart I'd have to get a new one, but there could be a better time for that to happen. Right now I don't have the time or the money to shop for a new car. I don't even have the time to get the muffler worked on, which Midas should do for free!
I'm also involved in some homeowner problems (among other things, I still haven't been able to get the damage from Hurricane Fran repaired -- that's been hanging over my head since September 5, 1996), I had a bad report from a test that was done at my physical (and it will be hanging over my head for six months until they do a follow-up test), and it just seems like it's been a while since something good happened. Things will look up eventually, but for now I just have to focus on not using feeling down as an excuse for overeating.
August 3 -- 223
Well I survived Summer Conference without blowing the diet completely. Of course, it's mostly due to the fact that I was too busy to stop and eat rather than the fact I made good choices. I made a few good choices, but I blew it a time or two as well. I've learned that I need to take some low fat things that will satisfy me for meals. I had plenty of snacks, but nothing that was enough for a meal. I also drank too much soda and not enough water. Next time I need to take some bottled water. Occasionally it was available for breaks, but usually it was not.
Next weekend I have a family reunion to go to -- out of the frying pan and into the fire!
I had an interesting discussion with my son about diet products last night. He is about 5'10" and weighs around 200 lbs. That could be ok if it were 200 fit lbs., but he is pretty flabby. Rather than work out and limit his food intake, he has been looking at fad products. He seems to think there is some magic pill he can take that will solve his problem. I assured him that if there were a magic pill I would have found it, but he doesn't seem convinced. I feel guilty because I know where he got his bad eating and exercise habits. I hope I can come up with more convincing arguments. I would definitely like him to do something about his size now, because I also know it gets harder and harder as you get older.
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