October Journal

Month at a glance
So far this month I've lost 0 lbs., for a total loss of 24 lbs.

October 15 -- Yeah, yeah, still 214
Although the scale is not down any this week, I feel good about how I have stuck to my program for eating, drinking water, and exercising. If I can keep it up I know I will move down eventually.

Zack has written down his assignments two nights in a row! He spent last night with his father, who told me this morning that Zack said he was really in a good mood. Of course, we agreed, it would make you lots more cheerful to not have to dread showing up in class without your homework.

I am thinking seriously about buying a new computer. I can't afford it, but what I am trying to use is just not adequate.

October 13
I had a great weekend food-wise. I'm planning on that being a good kick off for the week. I'm not down any this morning, but by my official weigh-in on Wednesday I should be. I also exercised twice with a friend, and I'm hoping that is the start of a regular routine as well.

No new developments on the Zack front. Pete is supposed to talk with a possible tutor this evening, so maybe we'll begin some forward motion soon.

October 10
Just to be fair I need to write a note that my son's chorus teacher told me last night she just loves having him in her class. She said he is very serious and works hard in class. Now if we could just bottle a little of that for his other classes.

I am feeling much better today. There was a lot going on yesterday besides just the problems with Zack. I hope I can begin to make some forward progress on several fronts. There is lots to do this weekend, and I have to focus on exercise, water, and sticking to the program. I have plans to go for a walk with a friend in the morning, so that's a good start. I haven't done too well during the week, and I usually do worse on the weekends. I'll just have to try harder this time.

October 9
I'm having terrible problems with my son. School related. He has just been diagnosed as ADHD and with a learning disability and we are in the process of setting up a program to deal with his difficulties. In the meantime, he is falling farther and farther behind in school. Last night I had my fifth phone call in less than two weeks from a teacher telling me he is failing because he doesn't bring materials to class, doesn't turn in homework, doesn't seem to care. He has lost two books since school started. Worse yet, he lies to me about what he is supposed to do.

So we had a big row last night, then I cried myself to sleep. Today my eyes are all puffy. I'm sitting here in my office thinking about it and my eyes are starting to tear up again. I just don't know what to do. We've already punished him for his grades (which backfired seriously). Right now he is in serious danger of having to forego a trip to England with the chorus. Not only will that be a missed opportunity that may never be repeated, but it will be a significant financial loss for me, as I am continuing to make non-refundable payments toward the trip that may never happen.

His father and I have decided to get him a tutor immediately to try to help him catch up. I can't imagine how expensive that will be, even if Pete agrees to pay part of the cost. I'm barely getting by now.

The only good news is that I haven't eaten in reaction to all this, but the day is still young.

October 8 -- Still 214 lbs.
I had Chinese food for lunch yesterday. Here's what my fortune said:
Behind an able man is another able man.
I showed it to everyone at work. I told them I chose to interpret it as a message that there are a whole bunch of men waiting in line for me. I just have to find the beginning of the line...

I have been doing pretty well on water and even exercise lately, but basically I'm eating whatever I want. The good news is that I haven't gone up any, but I haven't gone down either. October is nearly a third over and I've done nothing so far. I need a kick in the rear to get me going.

October 3
I had an upsetting experience after a work-related meeting on Wednesday. Just about everyone was purchasing an expensive "natural" appetite suppressant from one of the people there. It must work -- the woman who sells it has lost what almost looks like too much weight to me. But I wanted to lecture them about how that wasn't the best way to lose and keep it off. I guess after I'm a bit more successful I'll earn the right to lecture.

October 1 -- 214
My life is so hectic. This week I've been on the road, which makes it almost impossible for me to eat right, drink my water, or exercise. Well, to be honest it's not impossible. It's just that I don't make the effort to make it happen.

I've been assigned to a new team -- Team H. Team members seem to be really supportive. That may be the kick I need to really go at it this month. That is if my information can get to them. This week I emailed it but apparently it never showed up.

I think I'm ready for something really good to happen. Any ideas?

Email: rwelfare@mindspring.com

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