March/April Journal

Month at a glance
So far this month I've lost 0 lbs., for a total loss of 13 lbs.

April 7
What a crazy life I have! Things are chaotic at home, chaotic at work, chaotic everywhere I turn. And of course you know my reaction -- eat, eat, eat.

Right now we are getting my son ready to go to England for 10 days with the chorale from his school. They will be touring and performing in London and Durham. We had to buy all kinds of clothes for him. His general appearance is way too scuzzy for this type of trip. He is getting pretty excited. It should be a good trip. I will spend most of the time he is gone worrying about him I am sure.

At work we are in the midst of moving our offices. I will have about three weeks of living out of boxes until the new setup is configured and we are able to move in. It is really frustrating. I can't find anything I need. Fortunately I will be out of the office quite a bit during April.

On the diet front, I continue to be very frustrated as well. I have gained nearly half of the 23 lbs back that I lost last year. I keep waiting for a miracle...

March 13
I must be a lot more inspiring than I feel. I have gotten several messages this week from people who have seen my journal, writing to tell me how meaningful it has been to them. I'm glad if I can help someone else out -- I just wish I could heal myself!

If there is anyone reading this who is not subscribed to the Diet List, I strongly encourage you to do so. You can get continuous support (from people a lot more reliable than I am about writing back) and answers to all kinds of diet questions. You subscribe by sending an email message to healthy-mgr@onlinemac.com that says
join ntmail-discuss your-email-address
where you substitute your own address for your-email-address in the instructions. (I hope this is right. I can't find the directions anywhere so I'm doing it from memory.)

I still haven't weighed myself. I think I'm holding my own, but I don't think I'm going down. I have got to start walking again to try to get ready for the CROP walk on March 29. (The CROP walk is an effort by the religious community to raise money for hunger relief.) I am the chair for our church and I hadn't planned to walk, but it is hard to convince other people to do something you are not willing to do yourself. I hope I can find time tomorrow to visit my favorite shoe store and see about some inserts for my shoes. Several people have written me saying that really helped when they were having foot trouble.

Personally, it was a bad week. Please remember my family in your thoughts and prayers.

March 7
Well, I'm back! I forgot to weigh myself this morning, so I don't know how I'm doing. Let's just say I'm starting from ZERO here.

Lots of things have happened in the weeks since I last wrote. The statewide education conference for which I am responsible came off very well. I can't say "without a hitch" because there were definitely a few hitches. Overall, however, things went very well. I am pleased with the results and particularly pleased that it is over and I can relax for a while.

On a less positive note, my relationship with my son has really deteriorated. I don't know how much of it is due just to the natural consequences being 14 and how much is due to my inadequacies as a parent. If we were married we'd definitely be looking into a divorce. I am really worried about him. He seems so unhappy with himself. Any advice on parenting a teenager would be greatly appreciated.

Finally, I've gotten a new computer. I am so excited. This should make it possible for me to write in my journal more faithfully. I hope I can install DietWatch as well. I really liked that program, but I didn't have space for it on my computer at home and I didn't have time to use it at work. It should keep me from snacking, too -- it is a lot way to the kitchen from the computer. My previous workspace was at the dining room table.

I'll try to keep in better touch now that my life has settled down a bit.

Email: rwelfare@mindspring.com

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