UPDATE ON ME AND MY PD AS OF APRIL 3, 1998


Well, as of 2 weeks now, there have been some MAJOR changes in my life. The person that I thought that I loved more than anything in this world, the person who was my "safe person" as far as PD was concerned is now out of the picture. This person was with me when the PD started, and was my support person throughout the ups and downs associated with PD.

When he was out of my life, I can tell you that I thought I was at the end of my rope. I saw no way of coping with my PD, and had no idea how I would be able to function in every day society without him. He is the one who drove me places, and the one who calmed me down when having a panic attack....so I thought now I am on my own, and have no idea how I am going to deal with this.

Let me just tell you though....one of those strange things in life that you can't see until you have been there. I think that my support person, was actually also my stressor person. It is funny how things can turn out that way...it is like we really can't see things for how they are sometimes. I thought all of this time that I really NEEDED this person, when in fact it was possibly he that was causing even more panic and chaos in my life.

So, now I guess I am living for Lana...and I am having a great time doing so. I am doing things that I havent done in years, and didnt feel I was able to do due to my PD. I am actually Happy, energetic, and for the time being without panic. I am not saying that I wont have a set back, but if I do, that is ok...I now have wonderful people in my life that will help to see me through that, and I am comfortable knowing that.

Anyway, just wanted to give a kind of an update here....I don't have alot of time to spend on my web page anymore...I hate staying inside now...it is the outdoors that I love, I think I am a born again person!

Thank you all for your continued support, and I hope to be able to spend at least a little time on here to continue to try to offer places to help others who are suffering with PD. Just one thing that I suggest is to look deep down and try to find whatever stressors you have in your life. They could be right in front of your face, and you not even realize it. I can tell you from experience that once you find these that you will feel 100% better once they are eliminated from your life.

Good luck to all of you, and keep on coping with PD. It is a battle that CAN be won, just take it one step at the time!

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