More Poetry
entrapped
numb
numb to any feelings or emotions
numb to my own words
my own thoughts
my own voice
and i am alone
in the confinement
of this metal cage
in which this monster
is holding me
making me feel this way
feel numb
there is no way out
no escape
no door, no window
nothing
he holds me here
day and night
and he will for the rest of my life
for the rest of every
hour, minute, second
he terrorizes me
he teases me
he puts pictures into my head
the one i must listen
to for eternity
because there is no escaping
yourself.
By Kari Woiden
Normal Again
I am alone
Alone in the darkness of this room
My naked body in front of the mirror
Hoping
I flick the light on
I see myself staring back
But all I see is a distorted
image of the real thing
I see what I think of myself
I see what it wants me to see
And it has taken over now
This "thing" I can't shake
I can't control it anymore
I don't know if I ever did
I wish it would let go
To stop the suffer and pain
I wish I was normal again
I wish I was thin.
By Kari Woiden
There...
I am there
Lying helplessly in my bed
I watch myself breath slowly
I am not dead, I am not alive
I am between the roads of life
Then he comes
Dressed in white
He motions for me to follow
I stare, not moving
For I am too amazed at
what is happening
He comes closer
I fear for myself, for my life
I suddenly open my eyes
I see men in white jackets
with clipboards
I look at my surroundings
The walls are pink
I look down at my body
but it isn't visible.
By Kari Woiden