I saw it in his eyes. Eyes that had witnessed more of life then most
ever do. I felt it in his hands, trembling now from age. The seasons of time had not left
him untouched. Saul was in his eighties. Once a tall, lanky man in his youth, he now
walked with the crook of an old oak tree. Bent and curved, but rich with wisdom and
dimension was he. Saul was my neighbor, my friend. A man whom I adored. It was fall when
we first met. The turn of the leaves had just begun, as much as they do here in
California. Being a native, I had grown to appreciate the subtleties. He stood at my door,
introduced himself with a rhyme and a bowl of persimmons. Then, with a warm and brilliant
laugh he extended his hand. From that moment on, we've never let go. He and his wife,
Esther, a woman he gazed upon with the eyes of a young boy deeply in love, lived just
across the street from me. She was a round, colorful, woman with long wisps of white hair
she wore entangled atop her head in an emerald encrusted hair pin. Esther's body was
twisted by arthritis, but she still owned a certain air of passion that made her
compelling and strikingly beautiful. Age can never take away the mark of being loved.
She'd often tell the story of when Saul gave her the hairpin "It was his
grandmother's. He gave it to me wrapped in a poem the day he asked me to marry him, the
happiest day of my life." She'd say with pride her eyes twinkling with girlhood
charm. "I was just a young thing with coal black hair and bright eyes. My mother
wanted me to marry Evan the doctor, but he was such a bore. Saul was from the other side
of town. He was working odd jobs to pay his way thru school. Not a dime to his name, but
he was the only man who ever made me feel alive and beautiful. All things were possible
when Saul held my hand. When your heart feels this way my dear there is only one path to
take. Happiest day of my life I tell you." In the nine months I knew them I came to
know this story well, but never tired of hearing it. Saul would sit across from her, reach
for her hand, and re-live the moment with every telling. Theirs was a love story that had
lasted over sixty years and was still in full bloom. Saul and Esther invited me over
almost daily. I was in my twenties back then and time afforded me the luxury. It became
our treasured afternoon ritual. They'd serve me fresh juice from their fruit trees, often
something unique Saul would concoct. "Taste the bitter and the sweet," he'd say,
"The bitter is life, the sweet is the love that makes it worth living." Saul
never said anything that didn't move me. I loved him for the way his mind wove poetry into
the fabric of life. They could never have children, so in a way Saul and Esther took me in
as their own. They would often thank me for the time I gave, but I knew it was I who was
blessed. They taught me more about love than any other couple I have ever met. They're
still teaching me. We'd sit in their backyard and take our turn sharing stories. Esther
was a sculptress and when her hands permitted, she'd still work the clay with a master's
vision. Their garden was lush, filled with Saul's fruit trees, the iris patch he adored,
and Esther's sculptures were everywhere. On tree stumps and benches, on boxes and crates,
Saul proudly displayed her work, every one the image of a child. "My dear heart,
she's such a talent. She could have been famous, But instead she made us a family of clay.
Luckiest man alive I am, luckiest in the world", he'd say then bend down to kiss her
clay covered hand. When Saul wasn't busy attending to her every need, bringing Esther
water to douse they drying clay she was struggling to form, or scurrying about making sure
she had her medication at the appropriate hour, he'd read me his poetry. Witty,
intelligent, romantic was he. I was in awe of his grasp of humanity, of love, and of the
stream of lucid, thought that belied his years. The first poem he ever read to me was the
very one he used to propose to Esther. Although written by a young Saul, innocent and
deeply in love, it was as true to life today as it was back then. Esther, Dear Heart In
the mist of a dream You come to me Is this earth or heaven Or the passage in between Tell
me with your eyes That forever you'll be mine Share my earth and heaven Beyond the end of
time In the mist of a dream and all the passages in between Your Saul October 10, 1925
Saul rarely left the house save for on Saturdays when he attended his poetry group. This
was the day he hired a nurse to some stay with Esther, for he never left her alone. The
retreat gave him something to look forward to and provided him storytelling material for
Esther and me in the week ahead. He's muse over the wrinkled crowd of ten who joined him.
Their offerings made him sad at times, and he'd say in a hushed tone "So much of life
to tell when you're old-so much lost, so much found. Sad to think that no one else listens
but your own kind. Tell your tale while you can child. Sing it to the world. And one day
maybe you can tell mine. I used to be a lawyer in Brooklyn. Now Im a romantic old poet who
picks persimmons. You think you can make a story out of that? "He'd chuckle, then
add, "If you do, don't forget my dear Esther. No story of mine would be complete
without her in it. She's my life, my reason for being here. Stay true to your heart and
one day you shall know the same." Saul took ill before summer arrived, and I watched
the ambulance carry him away. I drove Esther to the hospital and stayed until I knew it
was time for them to be alone. Saul was fading, we all knew it, and I wanted their ending
to be as close as it was in their beginning. Just the two of them, rapt in the waltz.
Before I left, I said my good-byes in private thought, fighting back the tears. I took his
hand and stroked his cheek, etching the memory in my heart. He looked up at me and in a
faint voice said "Taste the bitter and the sweet, child. And don't forget to pick the
persimmons." He left us that very night, and with in days Esther,too,was gone. They
departed this world together, a promise I am sure they made to one another. As it was
meant to be. Their nephew flew in from the East. Knowing little of his aunt and uncle, I
was pleased when he asked me my thoughts about their memorial service. I had only three
wishes to offer: fill the room with irises from Saul's garden; place Esther's favorite
sculptures, her children close to the podium; and lay Esther to rest wearing her beloved
hairpin. He obliged and somehow, I felt a certain peace. It was my small gift to two souls
who taught me the meaning of forever love. Scores of people attended their service. Little
did Saul and Esther know how many lives they had touched. I felt my heart saying
"Look Saul, they were listening!" Ten writers stood to read poems written for
Saul. How proud he would have been to hear their praise, as creations from Esther's own
hands looked on. Finally, I stood and shared the poem Saul had read to me some nine months
before, and to Esther over sixty years ago. The beginning of their dream on earth seemed a
fitting beginning to their next passage. In the mist of a dream You come to me Is this
earth or heaven Or the passage in between.......
Written by Lisa Weeden, from the book "Reflections of Gratitude
Across the porch from God"
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