Well, life lately has been really hectic. I had a lot of problems with school, and for a while I wasn't even sure if I would get into classes. Then I did get classes but the schedule was dropped. Talk about going nuts!!! Needless to say a very wonderful person came to my rescue, and I got the money I needed as well as a full class schedule. The down side to school is that I am going to absolutly burn myself out this semester. Between the sorority, FLUSH!, classes, homework, Chorus, and 3 nights of work, I'm hardly going to have time to breath. You know it's amazing how easily you slip back into habit though. I thought going back to school after taking a year off would be really difficult, but I am really excited and ready to go.
The other really great thing, or person I should say that has happened lately is this really wonderful guy named Jim. He lives in Missouri, and we talk on the internet all the time. He is really sweet, honest, and we really seem to have a lot in common. I have made it my mission to meet him because he is one of the most amazing people I have met in a really long time. Yeah I know it sounds crazy to most people because I met him over the net, but I'm a really smart girl, and I would never go into anything without being sure. And I am really sure about Jim. He is someone definately worth the effort of a really long road trip.
Well it has been a little over a year since my friend Barb died. I've been thinking about her all week. You never know how much you'll miss someone. My friend Maggie is getting married in December!!! And I am in the wedding. I am so excited for her. (And because I get to dress up all pretty) Jim and I have progressed to talking on the phone. He has the sweetest most gentle voice. I dunno where any of this is going to go, but I like where it is right now. So call me crazy guys, I don't care. I deserve to be happy for once, and talking to Jim makes me really happy. I will meet him. I have sat around and watched all of my friends be happy in their relationships for so long, and finally I have met a wonderful guy who is interested in me. It's about time. The distance just really sucks. And I can only imagine the lecture I will get from some people when they read this. But I'm a big girl folks...I can take care of myself. On the school front....sometimes I wonder why I am changing my major to music, and then I wonder if I'll ever graduate. All in all I like the music department. I finally feel like I belong in the masses. I have a sense of belonging that was lacking in the theatre department. I think everything is going to work out ok.
Well it is safe to say that being a music major is insane!! But I am loving it. Other than not having any time to do ANYTHING...it's cool. My roommate moved out in the middle of February, and from that point on life has become insane. School, FLUSH, and work, have become my life. And then just this past weekend life got even more complicated. Brian told me he wanted me back. And then there is Jim, who I really really like, but he is so far away, and lately we just don't talk as much, because he is busy. But that doesn't make me like him any less. I just don't know what to do here. I went from having one really great guy in St. Louis, to one too many in one weekend!! All I know is that no matter what I refuse to get into a serious relationship right now with anyone. I have been hurt too many times and I don't want to miss any opportunities. The coolest thing is that Brian is totally patient, he said to do what I had to. And Jim said to do what was best for me. Maybe all guys aren't jerks after all. A select few may very well redeem the entire group. Maybe there is hope.
Sunday I go to Columbus to visit my Bethie and Sean Sean. I am so excited!!
I miss them so much. Spring Break here I come!!!
Wow...it's been a long time since I wrote in here. I'm starting to neglect this as much as I neglect my stupid diary.
Life is about the same around here. My trip to Columbus was awesome, but then again, did I expect anything else? School is as hectic as ever. It seems I never find the time to get online and talk to my friends, especially Jim lately. I miss him...sucks...oh well. I have some odd ilness lately in my throat. They aren't 100% sure what it is, but they think it might be tonsilitis. If it doesn't go away I go take the dreaded mono test.
I can't wait until the summer. Only a few weeks left of classes. I'll have to work full time, but even full time woin't be as insane as it has been working going to school, being in FLUSH, being in the sorority, and being in chorus. I am burnt out to the max and I just need a break. I'm hoping to head to Florida really soon, but then again, that all depends on whether or not my stupid tax refund comes back so I can fix the darn car. Time will tell I guess. Oh well...until next time...buh bye...
It seems that I have less and less time to edit my homepage.
Things are crazy in my life, but a good kinda crazy. I have an absolutely wonderful man who I love to pieces. School is going great, and for the first time in my life stress seems to have flown out the window.
I think I finally met the right guy. Time will tell, but right now I can't imagine being with anyone else in the world. We have been together for eight months. I finally got past the dreaded 5 1/2 month mark. Hooray!
I hope that he's the one. I'm so tired of getting hurt. Keep your fingers crossed for me folks!!
