Confused

My father's illness baffles me.
Why him? Oh, God, why him?
Its hard to treat cancer
Especially his.
His only hope is an experimental treatment
His doctors are infuriating.
I know they probably won't cure him
It makes me sad and angry to think that its true.
How do I explain how I
Feel inside, the confusion I have,
The weight I bear, the heartache?
Why does he have to go this way?
When I try to think why its him and not someone
Else, I get angry. And I feel hurt to think that
God would ever let this happen
To a man as wonderful as my
Daddy.