I Doubted

For three consecutive long days
I've lead myself to believe
That what we've shared was gone.___
Slowly tormenting myself
In my damn insecure world,
___I doubted...

Not knowing which was subjective and objective
I endlessly walked,
Wondering aimlessly into nothingness
Both ends clashing in within me.___

My heart is telling me that; it is still there___

it has always been there, it will never let go!!!

But my mind keeps on asking

am I sure? Or am I just thinking that

because of what I feel for you,

because I refuse to accept that you're gone,

because I'm trying to hold on to a dream.___

___I doubted...

A world of clashing sides,
A world full of inquiries.
That's what my damn insecurity is___
A world where in, my mind questions the credibility

of my emotions.

A world where in I've never had complete control of,
A world where in I've hurt someone

I've never wanted to hurt.

___I doubted...

And now as I sit and think of what

cannot be undone___

I recall a poem I once wrote.
But it lacked something, something important___
One I've never learned, not until now.
___I doubted...