Friday...culminaton of a week of horrors
THE NIGHTMARE!! GODS, IT WAS AWFUL. This time though, I wasn't totally alone. Cindy was there, and Shaun...but, thing is, they were refusing to speak to me. So, in a sense, it was WORSE than normal.
Woke up crying, and went online again. Whined at Doug then fell asleep again thinking about the fact that I'll never have cybersex with him.
~second round of dreams~
I'm in a computer lab. Shaun is across from me. We cant TALK to each other though....some sort of silence rule. We're typing back and forth to each other, and trying to keep eye contact. Some girl with green eyes and black hair keeps touching him, and I want to break her fingers. Shaun types a post to me that says he's sorry about her, but she RENTED him for the weekend. I think I'd like to rent him, and then he gets mad and tells me I'm being a bitch about the whole thing.
((WEIRDO DREAM ALERT))...I am typing as hard as I can to him, and can't get anything to go through...big lights and sirens start flashing in the lab ...PROFANITY FILTER!!!!!!!
Finally, I take my hands off the keyboard and reach over the computer to touch his face. He's so cold, I run my hands over his skin and he shivers. He tells me he is moving to Las Vegas, Nevada. I tell him I'll move there too, but he says I have to wait till I sell the book. I start writing very quickly then, and he kisses me before leaving with the rental-girl.
~Thats when I wake up again......2:00 am....lying in bed deciding whether or not to attempt MORE sleep.....NOPE, rather put up pages.....reading Anne Rice to get my mind off Scotland~