Tuesday...Huntington
There is somebody down the hall who wants to "DO IT HARDER"..should have known not to stay in a cheap motel, when I could have stayed at Campbell House. Suddenly realize the voice sounds familiar...its Doug, and...nameless female companion...and I am watching and taking notes and thinking about Mikey all of a sudden, deciding I should send him a copy of this lesson. Then I am flashing away from there....
Garden of the Gods, again...with Matt again....but he's angry and I can't catch him when he's in this form....he's everywhere around me, and I am so scared, but I refuse to cry....because he is trying to test me. And, if I cry, I am not strong enough and he will run away. So I bite my lip and pray. And Gabriel brushes my hair with a white hairbrush and tells me I am "prettier than angels".
I am crying for David when I wake up, and crying because the dreams are too full for me.