But for the hands at my throat
It was a peaceful moment...
quiet even
But I remembered

I remembered the love
For a soul so distant from me
That told me it was wrong
and to muster the strength to fight

The scream caught in my throat
failed to catch the fear in my eyes
or the pain that fell
as the blood crawled down my skin
So I could remember

I remembered the words
that fell onto my screen
And the voice that floated
into my ears
That made me feel safe
amidst a whirlwind of rage

I raised my hands
as if to defend
the already ravaged
from being destroyed
So the body could live
even without the light
strangled by the darkness
Until I could remember

I remembered there was a light of hope
and more than a touch of faith
that I invested into more
than me

No more silent screams
Or expressions wrought with suffering
for such torture has an end
beyond death
A new beginning
I could discover...

A strength in remembering
I deserved more
than a veil of bruises
cold hands on my throat
and bloodied kisses

If I could only hold
on to my light
and push away the darkness
It would make it easy
For I can see you are all I want
That's all I need to remember...

~ Shae Leigh
20th-April-2001
Beyond fence sitting moments...

Sometimes blinded by our pain we reach for more torment and try and convince ourselves that we have grasped happiness...

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