My body Is My Own, 1998
Technical: Canon AE1-prog, Fuji Neopan 100, 30/, Tyco Kid Cam, VHS tape, desk lamp, Matsui Televison, Matsui VHS player, Fuji Neopan 100, 30/, Jessops Matte RC paper
Location: Parkvillage, East London, UK
Hmm wondering why the body is chop off? and theres some crazy lines in every pic? and why its in boxes?
well well than i have to explain the :
Technical bits
How i did this was first i took a 1 hour length of video of myself moving infront of the camera(yep that body u seeing is mine ). wiht a tripod and again a desk lamp my favorite item. This was taken wiht a Tyco camera for kid
i got for 20 quid(Brit Pound) from sale in debenham. a pleasing little act. only recorded in black and white and attached cable straight to VHS. a bit of a shitty lens really, i had to attach my 50mm 4x magnifayer from my Canon camera and then voila! it works jsut fine. i moved along in front of the camera while in one hand holding a lamp desk to discover exciting lighting effect. after that I sat down and watch the video making myself familiar with it. the tape itself was fascinating for animation, i did add wicked tunes to get along with it. sadly i cant edit it or anything cuz i aint got the technology. then i took pictures of it in 30/ a second. i forgot what the aperture was.
i been doing some reading first before my first attempt of taking shots from tv. so i know if i did not time it right i would get that lines from tv even sharper, where as on my pictures you can only see it a slight bit. it also add to the pic thankfully. so there u go the technical bits
The research and thoughts behind it
This work as continuation of my research in my figure project with Maiko's nudes. my tutor told me theres somekind of boundary from me to the pictures i did where i probably wanted to communicate further. so i extend and look for the missing link. and the missing link was me!
i feel the need of explaining on my own shape really. born as chubby child, the hard time through out highschool for feeling diffrent and not quite as preety as others.
mind you i was in indonesia that time where everyone is tiny. and me being overweight really stands out right in the crowd. where men are still superficallly like only the slim girls. the reason why i never had any boyfriend that time . now that im more grown up (and seeing men) and had lost weight and saying a warm welcome to a stabil metabolism i feel the need to express it .
even untill now i still think myself as quite a big girl, thanks for mum genes to have big bones (no she is not mrs cartman!). i used to hated the way i look, but now i feel quite fantabulous with my size 12 and loving all the bits of myself.
Somehow i always think that girls are created big naturally. i simply love the look of those women in the old days.
curvious looks healthy, and fertile. well the main assets for that time. dont you think women shapes really being corupted by fashions, porn, and all. i do recognize some changes from the slim women look mainstream where big girls are not accepted. what a bunch of chauvanist!? thanks to the like of Nick Knight and vivienne westwood for using the glorius fantabulous size 18 (now down to 14) Sophie Dahl. Although she had shed some weight, i still think that she really had her time to proove that big and curvaceos babes are beautiful.
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*special thanks for mael fauvel and stephen tate
' The beauty of their woman they place in their fatness. "God make me fat and I'll make myself beautiful."
A lean woman they count unwholesome,
Therefore they who are inclines to leaness give themself over to all manners of epucurism, on purpouse to fatten themself. And lie a bed all day long drinking Russian Brandy (which will fatten extreme- ly). then they sleep afterwards and drink again.
Like swine designed to make bacon.'
Samuel Collins,
Physcician of Tsar Alexis Mikhailovitch,1671
