Why does my mind
Feel so inclined
To view so many people everyday
In so many different ways
And why do my eyes
Seem glazed hypnotized
As I view your smiling face
You send my heart into space
Then clouds of confusion
Block out the sun
I see the grey mist come
As another one comes along
Where is the voice of reason
When I am taken by emotion
Is she just another lie
Another face just passing by
God I’m hoping
Could I start praying
These merit badges weigh me down
And she’ just another pretty child
Why is this happening again
Why are my feelings bursting out of my head
God I wish I never knew love
I wish I never knew what sex was
A blessed union to never take part of
Frustrated with my actions
Frustrated because unloved
Sometimes...
It’s hard to believe
Someone like you and something like me
It’s like a paradox
Situation you don’t see everyday
Pray to God to help me
Pray when I’m okay
Pray to God to strike me
For another sinful day
Pray to God to love me
But I don’t know what it’s about
Pray to God to forgive me
When I leave Him far behind
Could you just reach inside me
Place your hand on my love
I fight and slay myself
To keep from boiling over
Because each step I take
Each day I wake
Each thought I make
Is haunted by your face
And everything I do
Can’t distract me from you
So I’m on my knees...
It seems so hard to believe now
Finally looking out of my own window
Just wish I could be alone now
And not be haunted by a memory of a girl
No one in particular
She’s stirred up my feelings
My heart is sitting heavy and bent
With a desire because I know
That she’s the one
Another the one
So I play it different
Keep the love that I would have spent
And I save it for someone who I barely know
