Denial
Day after day,
Night after night,
I lie awake;
Thinking of you
Hoping against hope
That a miracle;
A miracle of all miracles might
Just happen
(But I know it won’t).
I smile, dreaming of your face
Dreaming of how you will take me in your arms;
Dreaming of how you’ll hold me
So close
So tight
So lovingly that the aching past,
The tired tears,
Will vanish from my memory
And yours
(But I know it won’t).
I close my eyes blissfully
Recalling in my mind
How you promised me that this love,
Our love,
Was unbreakable,
Imperishable;
Forever to keep and treasure for the rest of our lives together.
I remember this and more
And blindly tell myself
That it will last.
(But I know it won’t).
That you will come back to me
That you will hold me again
That you will love me again
That you will whisper those sweet
(Empty)
Promises into my ear
Till I am satisfied
And content.
But I know it won’t.
It won’t happen.
Ó Copyright 1998 by Tiff