Oh man, what a night. I went to sleep after having my heart torn a little - not broken but there's definitely a little nick in there... and then I woke up two hours later to Steve calling me. He was in a car accident and all I wanted to do was fly to Boston and sit with him on the roadside and wait for a tow-truck. My heart hurts for so many reasons... I hate it that there's so much in my life that I can't do anything about. I've learned that even if you don't want to get emotionally involved in something, you always will and it hurts... even if someone says that it shouldn't go any further because they don't want to get hurt and they don't want to hurt you, damage has already been done. I don't think I've ever felt so lonely before in my life - just when you think you've figured everything out, life really throws you for a loop. Something comes in that you never expected or wanted and then all of a sudden you want it and it's a thirst because you know what you could have but you will never be able to have. I hate to be a sap but it's true - friends are what will get you through. I got an email from Saya today and no matter where we are, or what happens, I know that there are certain people I can always count on.
Sai, you will make the right decisions through life because you are a wonderful soul. I miss you.
Marianne, Mel, Nadia, Parsons, Chris, Dharshan, Claire - You are all my support network and am thankful that I am surrounded by so many good people. I cannot even begin to express how happy I am to have found such amazing friends. Take care of yourselves.
Selina, we will talk soon.
Cheah - you're my sis in every way. Love you.