i am lost
                      like a child born without a mother's warmth
                             when the thoughts trap me
                                        to a possibility
                            of being alone

                                                      i turn back
                                         the pages of memories
                                    and find moments
                           where i felt i could survive
                        without you
                                         and i did

                                  but the memories haunt
                   
                                             for i am only half
                                  without you
                                              and i have been

                                       i fear
                                       that i am not
                               
                                         what your hopes and dreams weaved
                                                  not what your womb conceived
                                                and raised
                                        for the rest of your breaths

                                   for i know
                                       i should be better
                                              and that i am not
                                                   i know others are
                                   and you greet them with your warmth
                                         everyday

                                                  i am lost in the thoughts of losing you
		

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