SUICIDE

I was standing in the bedroom
When you came home
I had blood on my hands
But maybe you didn't know?

My mascara was streaming down
Along with the tears
Thick and blackened
Just like the years

You didn't ask
Did you care?
You actually smiled
To my empty stare

Did you think you could help
By leaving me there?
A gun to my head
Tangled up in my hair

Did you think it was stupid
Missing the freedom I lost?
Did you think you could walk out
And not pay the cost?

I needed you more
Than I needed my life
I counted the steps to the kitchen
To get a knife

I walked the floor
And playing with the trigger
Would you never return?
That was what I figured

I stood in the doorway
A cord as my noose
Wondering if I could do it
Or would I make an excuse?

Too bad I'm not selfish
Too bad I can't die
I can't leave you alone
Can't answer why

You don't notice I'm here
Your a broken record to me
I don't know what life's about
But this ain't where I should be

I could leave in the night
Like the sun, disappear
But I don't wanna fade
But I don't wanna be here

I wanna be loved
Not be used
i wanna be needed
Not abused

I'm tired of being the cure
To your fear of having no love
I wanna be the addiction
Something you can't get enough of

Can't you see I'm not the one?
Can't you set me free?
Why can't you say good-bye?
Why can't you let me be?

Instead you leave me trapped
You give me no space
I hate you so much
I don't wanna see your face

Why do you condemn me to death
And torture me like a witch?
Why don't you just burn me at the stake?
Don't make me live with this

I can't take it any longer
My breath is growing thin
You wanna take me down
And I know your gonna win...

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