I'm not sure
How to do it
Since everytime
It's happened to me
I've been crushed
From it.
Do I tell him
That I don't want him?
That we should
Just be friends?
Do I say
That I love someone else?
That he was just
There to occupy my time?
Do I just leave
And never come back?
That usually hurts
The worst of all.
I just don't know
What to do.
I can't go on pretending
That I am happy
Where I am.
I know I'll feel bad
But I don't think it
Could be any worse
Than how I feel now.

A. Beckman 1/2/01