Love and hate intertwine.
Meshing,
They become one emotion.
It is hard to describe
Except by pain
That goes past the heart,
Past the brain,
Locked deep
In the core of your being.
You can't go either extreme
Both of the ways right,
Both of the ways wrong.
Confusion settles in
As the feeling grows stronger
Making everything dead
Everything grey.
The helplessness sinks in
As everything shuts down
Until simply
Nothing is left,
You are locked within yourself
With nowhere to turn.

A. Beckman 11/26/00