I don't know
What to do anymore
Two paths leading
To what seems like dead ends.
How do I choose one
When neither seem right?
Either way I'm miserable
I begin to wonder
If I will know
What happiness is
Ever again.
I'm ready to break down
I cannot think anymore
My mind will not work.
Heart is dead
From one too many defeats.
Each way goes nowhere
But I think I'm already there.

A. Beckman 11/24/00