I shake and I tremble
In a corner of myself
Trying to hide from the demons
That are my mental illness
The pills lay there
An answer to my longing
To end my torment
To stop these monsters
That plague me
But also end me too.
I blame myself
The world
God
For something that has no cause
To fight would mean to live
To go on knowing that the demons
Would always be there
Waiting for me to fall
Ready to capture and torture again
This is something I must risk
Because the demons aren't all
That is out there waiting for me.