Frustrations mounting from within
That I can neither explain
Or control
I am alone
Fighting off seductive demons
By myself
Because no one can understand
The pain I feel inside.
People surround me
Suffocating me with their sympathy
Over suffering they cannot comprehend
I want to give up
Let the emotions inside take control
Let them take the blame
For my actions
But I cannot face the guilt
That would lay ahead
Knowing whether I am dead or alive
It would follow
Reminders of the past
I have shared with so many
Who might mourn
If I were gone.

© A. Beckman '97