I have desolately caused myself pain.
Leaving myself with absolutely nothing to gain.
As I sit and weep in this midnight hour,
I think back to when I sent you that blossoming flower.
I've needed something so much,
But unwillingly lost is with my touch.
I couldn't find the words to say.
They slipped in my heart -- out of your way.
In your life, I don't want to interfere.
So out of your heart, I stay clear.
Failure -- I am usually not.
I failed to succeed to your heart.
To stop loving you, I cannot,
No matter how far apart.
For now I shall say good-bye.
Healing to my heart needs to apply.
I'm lost in my soul,
Trying to find my way out.
These feelings I can't control,
Feelings of lack and doubt.
How could I possibly do this to myself again,
Risking a perfectly compatible relationship with a friend?
If I could, I would take back the things I said.
To get our friendship back like lead.
I try my best to prevent the pain,
Even though I'm the one to blame.
I shouldn't have done the things I've done,
To get your love, now I have none.
I felt needly like a desperate despair,
Losing my heart in the willingness of your heartwarming stare.
