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Here
I am, with my heart on my hand, trying to do for the first time in my
life what others do everyday but that I don’t have the courage to do
it. I’ve been walking for long time between hesitations and routes
that keep me away from the sun, thinking how to reach to this moment and
how to find the strength I need to speak the words with my legs still.
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I’m
used to be a lonely person, keeping away from complications that I’m not
ready to face in this moment but loosing in the way so many special
situations that fill the soul and make it shine. This has been always my
choice, keeping my heart away so nobody could make it bleed but reaching
to the point of being paralyzed without feeling anything.
Today
I stopped in the middle of my street and I felt the weight of the
self-imposed hole around me and I only could cry, sitting there, in a
lonely road. There were nobody that could see me with tears in my eyes but
neither was a hand that could comfort me with a hug, and in that moment I
understood. God was wise when He said that you could reach him in other
people, because when you are isolated from the world you can’t feel God
or anyone else. So, it was time to walk to a enlighten avenue, leaving
behind my lonely path and fighting against fear that could stop me.
So, here I am, looking at you in your eyes, and with only a step left to change my life forever.
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There are moments where I feel I am not used to this light, shadows were always my friends, but without knowing it, one day I left my lonely road and my life turned sunny.
I cannot say that there is brightness all the time, because there are some moments when a few doubts show up, but none of them query the chosen path, just the following route.
Each step is new and unique, I could not wish it would be different in any way or at a different pace, this was how we decided it, without any word, just joining our souls together.
When you look at me I have the certainty that I could not have chosen a better way and I know I cannot regret of leaving my old route. The road is much more beautiful if I can walk it holding your hand and enjoying that smile that cleans the clouds of my sky.
I know that there are a lot of things to be discovered but I am not afraid anymore and I am willing to continue enjoying this wonderful adventure.
So, here I am, far away from the beginning and with my heart on your hands.
