| Name: | Aimee Dawn Montoya |  |
| Birthdate: | May 15, 1976 | |
| Location: | Southern California | |
| Availability: | very much in love | |
| Marital Status: | Divorced | |
| Children: | One daughter, Majellyn | |
| Hobbies/Interests: | Poetry, Music, Reading, Fantasy, Art and Culture, Opera, Mudding ... the darker fantasies... | |
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My philosophies on life are difficult to delineate in the
amount of space I choose to fill here, but can be described as
pragmatic and honesty oriented, I suppose. I feel a deep
responsibility to be only myself, my whole and true self, and to
accept what that may mean in regard to my relationships, religious
stance, motherhood and other roles I fill. I will not lie about my heart to protect another. I take my honesty very seriously. I say
what I think, and I mean what I say. I will answer ANY question
asked me and there will be no pretense, no cover or softening to
the answer I give. Conversely, I will ask any question I truly
seek answer to, and sometimes people have been offended by the
'inpropriety' of my questions. If I am curious, the question
invariably follows, and a person who is confident and honest
enough to answer it gains my immediate respect. My choice to
follow my heart has lost me friends, the respect and pride of my
parents and at some times my own self-confidence, but through it
all I have learned that true happiness is only achievable to the
person who knows him/herself well enough to define that happiness
every second of every day in every thing that he/she does.
I have been known by many names, nicks and handles, but a strand of imagination connects all of my characters to my heart. I dream in waking consciousness. I choose to do it. I take great joy in the imaginations of my heart, and I see many realisms in my life expounded in my dreams. I believe in the truth and rightness of what is found in the unbound imagination. I trust my creativity, because it defines me. I have been accused of living in a world of imagination, fantasy, fabrication...and yet my reality has taken on a hue of creative, colorful vividity which could not exist if I did not give credence to my imagination. I encourage it. I inspire it. I require it. I believe in the balance of the soul...that we are made up of PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL, INTELLECTUAL and SPIRITUAL substance. In order to live in harmony with ourselves, we must obtain a balance of these things. A person who allows any of the four to shadow over their other, equally important substances, will find him/ herself invariably unhappy. Balance is the centering of self, the discovery of what is YOU, and the conscientious decision to keep yourself Soulfully Healthy by nurturing all of you. |
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I find great joy and personal satisfaction in the sharing of
my light with others. It is my passion and my purpose. It is why I
teach, and why I sing, and write, and read and love...it is why I
am. It is what I do, because once you find a balance, you are ever
in the act of preserving and recreating and nurturing it. And to
be a centered, balanced and happy individual and not share your
knowledge with another is TRULY selfish. I work to inspire young
minds with the desire for balance, for passion, for purpose, for
service. I work to help them nurture the imagination inside them.
I hope that one morsel of the passionate feast I lay before them
can feed them, can build the energy, the substance that they will
form their life from. I see in their faces a bright future, so
much to give, to learn, to share. And I recreate my balance each
time I reach out to someone. It is easiest to find what makes you
whole by absorbing it from those you serve and love. And if you
serve a person, you WILL love them.
I have a severe objection to the repeated use of "shoulds" in our society. So many suffer from the feeling that we should be one way or another, we should do this, we should say that, we should love this way, we SHOULD...that we tend to forget the beauty of what we ARE and what IS. Why do we constantly push ourselves to measure up to some external expectation created by another, or many others, and find that all too often we cannot meet it because it doesn't fit us? I do not advocate that we have no expectations for ourselves, but if anything we should take those expectations as a direction, not a goal. If it is a goal, there is the expectation that it can and will be met or fulfilled. While there are some who can manipulate the workings of their hearts and minds to fit a prefabricated expectation, most of us are human...and our minds and hearts work independently of the will to conform. No matter how much you aspire to a religious mold, the example of someone you have loved or admired, a societal model, your heart will direct you to a being completely unique, uncomparable to any other...to the highest version of YOURSELF. Experience what IS. Plan for the future, but do not yearn for it. Learn from the past, but do not dwell in it. NOW is the time for you to experience beauty, temporary and fleeting wonders and feelings which will never be exactly this way again. Try once a day to just feel the moment. And when you are successful, breath in the perfection of that mortal moment and try again... |  |
That, in such a brief description, is what I am about... honesty, imagination, balance, service, and the experience of what is. And while there so many other intricate parts of what makes up my soul, this is the essence...that I savor mortality, that I choose to love every breath and live every moment.
