I remember you, when we first met in Broadcast; it was a "Hi hon" and I was as, you termed me, then "a ladies man", free with the hugs and kisses to the ladies of the chat room we first met in. I was a hopeless romantic in search of a woman, to fulfill my needs, and flirting was a hobby of mine, so to speak. I knew your friend Sandy, who I had chatted with for over a year, and I asked about you. She told me a few things about you, as I would pester her with questions, like "How is Dee", "Have you seen Dee today" and compliments like "Dee, seems to be a very nice lady" and the statement "I would like to get to know her better". I was starting to think Sandy was getting a little tired of my questions, and it led to you and me getting each other"s ICQ numbers, a better way to chat with one another. It was my way to get to know you better, Dee, as I had told Sandy I was very fond of you. We started out slow, with a few "hi’s" to each other, talking and chatting with no one else around. This led to more chatting on a regular basis – exchanging information about each other, sharing numerous stories with one another, and enjoying each other’s company. It became an every day rendezvous, that we would talk to each other, talking about each other’s day, asking more questions about you, wanting to know so much about Dee. I wanted to hear her voice, I dreamed about it, so soft, and very loving, so I asked for her phone number, and I got to hear her for the first time. I was like a school kid, on my first date, asking her out…nervous, and a little stuttering…this was not me, but Dee you calmed me down, in a way I felt more at ease as we talked into the afternoon. I had a feeling after that, we might be destined for a very nice relationship.
We spent more time with other, it was like we were together in person, my feelings for you were growing, but I had not told you yet…was I shy, well maybe some, and the time came for me to voice my feelings to you. And we were chatting and I said to you "love ya". You said it back to me "love ya", I knew then that there was something very real between us. A romance seemed to be blooming with you Dee. That was the "icebreaker", so to speak, and the nervousness and tension was lifted, and a new beginning was forming with you and me. The words between us were more romantic and loving; the times together more special, and I was falling love with you. I wanted to shout to the world how I felt about you. One night in pool side chat, I said "I love you" in the open room, and it felt wonderful, and I expressed my feelings to you like I had wanted to for a very long time. That night was the night I fell in love with you Dee….
I have so many feelings for you, my darling and you have me, always and forever….I love you with all my heart…you are my beloved lady, who I want to share the rest of my life with. My love grows for you every day that passes, love and you have made me the happiest man in the world…*kiss* to you Dee!!…all my love….
Tom(CB)
I remember it like yesterday that Tom and I first said our brief "hello" in a chat called Broadcast, actually about a year ago. He seemed to me, to be pretty much saying the same things to everyone, his sentences liberally sprinkled with "Darlin’s", and * hugs and kisses*, and I didn’t pay much attention to the patter. I was new to the computer, and had a very hard time keeping up with the posts. My dear, and forever friend YumMe (Sandy), told me about a year later, about this really sweet person that she was chatting with from time to time, who was from Italy. I would watch, as they bantered back and forth in chat, and she said "Hello" to him, "from my friend Dee". Soon after that, I too got a computer, a lovely surprise gift from my daughter, and Sandy’s mind really went into high gear. She would give me messages from CB(Tom), and finally exhasperated, I told her "Just give me his dang ICQ number, and I will talk to the guy myself!". I clicked on, and messaged "Well Hello There!!" and that was it!! Over a period of time, we started a slow dance of exchanging histories, small talk, and phone numbers. The first phone conversation was tentative, testing the waters of a friendship, and then we both relaxed. I found Tom to be sweet, witty, and felt completely comfortable with him. We jumped from topic to topic with complete ease, like we had known each other all of our lives, and the more we communicated, the more I felt the ice meeting from around my heart. Then one day, in a closing post, he wrote "love ya" and without giving it a second thought, I posted the same. It seemed so natural, so right. All the barriers were down after that, and we told each other about our lives, loves, flirts, and mistakes. I realized the depth of his feelings for me when he publicly stated "I Love you". My heart opened to him completely, and as each day passes, I cannot think of my life with out him. We have put past things past, and each new day has the beautiful promise of tomorrow, tomorrow, and tomorrow.
In him I have found complete love, caring, gentleness, wit, charm, intelligence, and respect.
So to you Tom, my heart I give, completely, unconditionally. My love, my truth, my support, and my trust. A commitment to share, to dream, and to always keep my promises to you. And above all.....to simply..... Love You........Always and Forever…
Deanna (DEE)
...and baby, I mean every word with my whole heart and soul….I love you so very much |