Can I Be Forgiven?

Can I be forgiven

For instigating the argument

Between my brother and his best friend

That led to a fatal fight?

Can I be forgiven

For seducing their girls

Carefully plotting and

Sleeping with them the same night?

Can I be forgiven

For killing the man

Bloody and bleeding

That dared to call me his son?

Can I be forgiven

For his raping my mother

Time and time again

Late nights after one?

Can I be forgiven

For influencing my little brother

Turning his heart

To a cold mound of stone?

Can I be forgiven

For leaving $350 on

The kitchen counter and

Leaving him alone?

Can I be forgiven

For the things I’ve done

The people I’ve hurt

Hateful things I’ve said?

Should I be forgiven

Or suffer, day after day

Watching the instant replays

Over and over in my head?