You

You recognized my problem at an early age/But did nothing to help me/You knew I hated confrontation/Yet still pushed me into countless social situations/You told me I should become my own person/And now you dislike what I've become/You don't notice me until I mess up/Then you treat me like less than nothing/You wonder why I stay confined to myself/It's because I can't stand being sometimes/You ask why my grades are failing/Yet never encouraged me when I aced every class/You accuse me of being lazy/Never seeing the countless stories my fingers have told/You act surprised and feign disbelief/When a poem shows you the depths of my troubled soul/You ask why I never told you how I felt/So I glare with hate so old and cold as I turn away/You can't see what you've done to me/The years of ignorance shine before you with sudden clarity/You know that I've tired of living in an older brother's shadow/I'm no better, no worse, not even equal, just different me/You come into my life, begging to be part of it/I say, "Too little, too late."/I love, trust, and understand you/Yet I hate, fear and despise you, too/I no longer care for you the same way I used to/Sometimes I can barely stand the sight of you/You're always doubting, questioning, and challenging me/Maybe one day I'll get sick of it and bring it all to a screeching halt/The real question isn't if but when I'll decide to leave you behind/So when I choose to abandon you and all your teachings/Don't try to say I'm wrong or that I can't make alone; that's how I've lived/Don't cry to your parents about not knowing where you went wrong/It won't make the slightest bit of difference to me/I'll be long gone from the world you forced me to live in/You are the world I long to destroy/You are the haters, killers, and so-called friends/You are the parents that love yet still don't understand me/I wonder if you even want to at times/But it's too late for wondering/At least I'm finally, truly free from the realm in which you entrapped me/Free from all the trials you put me through/And last, but certainly not least, free from you.