[ DaRomancer's House of Poetry ]

I awoke last night when I realized that you were gone,
As I got out of bed, I softly called your name,
but, you did not answer.
And as I slowly walked through the house
looking and hoping to find you, it came to me,
Once again,
you had only been there in my dream.

I walked to the table and sank into the chair.
I began to cry as I realized how alone I was.
And the loneliness began to overwhelm me
as I realized that you would never be here.

I was not worthy of someone as wonderful as you.
I was not worthy of the love we could share.
I was not worthy of the joy you bring to my life.

And as I cried, I realized that I was not worthy of anything,
that was as wonderful as you.
And then slowly, the truth began to sink in. I would never
have you, never hold you and never touch you,
the way I had always dreamed of.
I would never know the joy of coming home each night,
to our house, our kids, our life and our home.
I would spend the rest of my life, wanting but never having,
needing but never getting, always longing,
and always dreaming of what could have been........

Knowing how wonderful it would have been, the loving we could have shared.
Knowing how much joy we would have brought to each others lives.
Knowing the great impact it would have had on all of our lives, but alas
it is not to be.............

But I will go on loving you and wanting you and
needing you, until the last breath I draw. And with
that last breath, I will say to you, "I love you".......
"And I always will."