Feelings float around, old thoughts and habits and actions remind themselves and shape our present. Do we need to escape these things, I have tried to do so, to fit into the new landscape. Sometimes a glimpse in the past can reveal a bitter truth.
It all happened by surprise. I was as much a victim as it's perpetrator. It was Friday night and as usual I had nothing to do. I knocked on my friend F's door and started talking to her. I asked her what she was doing that night. She and her roommate Nina were going to watch a movie together. I forgot the movie's name, but my initial reaction was what a waste of time. But since I had nothing better to do, I told them I would come by and bring some of my beer also. As I walked back to my room, I thought shit what a failure I am, spending another one of my valuable evenings drinking with two of the ugliest chicks in the university. Well Nina was fat and not that appealing, however F, although short was attractive enough if you didn't have fucked up ideas about beauty like I do. So whatever, I prepared for the evening, by talking a scalding hot shower. As I showered my body relaxed and I lost most of my ambition, since what I was going to do that evening was already fixed. One less thing to worry about. I decided to dress for comfort, skip the underwear. I don't much believe in underwear's since they constrain my cock unnecessarily and inhibit my sexual drive. Without underwear, the constant friction of the skin of the cock against the pants as you walk around, definitely straightens out your cock.
A t-shirt and my favorite shorts would do. I had started drinking earlier, while I was taking a shower. Since I knew the evening wasn't going to be anything spectacular, I decided to drink beer and ease its monotony. So I had one or two beers, I am not really a heavy drinker, got the rest of the six pack and walked over to their room. We made some small talk, popped the tape in and settled on the couch to watch the movie. That's when the girls feeling I was being too cool by drinking, decided to out hip me by bringing out their bottle of Kahlua brandy and some shot glasses. We each had a shot of the brandy and I finished the rest of my beer. That's when they became even more adventurous and entreated me to bring my bottle of scotch over. They knew I had one and I guess we were all in the mood to get drunk. So I get the bottle and we have another shot. The movie's about half done and already we have had three or four big shots of the brandy and whisky. We were all loosening up by the moment, the movie was losing its importance in fact it was becoming funnier and funnier.
F started flirting with me. I could tell by the way she was slanting towards me when she spoke to Nina and how she moved her face close to me when she talked and the lack of sense her words were making. I think we finished the movie and we were all in a very good mood. Laughing and joking we talked about sexual matters, other things whatever. The itch was in out hearts and souls and the whisky had loosened all the crap family values install in us. We ended up in the bedroom and Nina lay in her bed and I sat down in F's bed. I was thinking straight at that time, I just wanted to have a good time and I knew that I liked being with the two girls, flirting with me and all that. F was getting hyper active jumping from Nina's bed to mine. So there we were sprawled out on the beds, too drunk and comfortable with ourselves. F was wearing a t-shirt and pants I think. She removed her t-shirt complaining that it was getting too hot for her and all of a sudden there she was in her bra. I guess that would have been the first indication to everyone that shit was going to happen, but it was too far gone, fate had dealt her hand.
So F lies down back on the ground and now she's burning up real bad. I can't feel the heat but apparently she can and it's making her hornier and hornier. She wants loving, her skin needs to be felt by roving fingers and Don Juan that I am there were my fingers. I am feeling her boobs outside her nylon bra and then she removes that also, I feel all over her stomach and she moans and moves around on the bed, taking me with her. We move around, both of us hot, all of a sudden she sticks her tongue in my mouth and starts sucking my mouth and tongue. I have never been kissed, it feels like there's a wet slimy fish flippng around in my mouth. Also the suction is unbelievable, I am thinking this bitch has been down this street before and here every time I speak to her she acts like she's the virgin incarnate. She breaks off slurping my mouth suddenly. Nina, who has been marginaly aware of this whole thing, is getting hot herself, she is disgusted, she tells us she is leaving if we are going to be disgusting like this. I am fine with that and tell her to leave or something like that. However, F although in the hot seat of drunken ecstacy kept moaning Nina aloud, for some reason. At that time I thought it was just a preservation instinct with her, but now I think she just wanted to rub it in into Nina's heart. Here I have a man playing with my body, in your face bitch, was what I think that moaning and crying was supposed to convey. Nina was our third leg who we were torturing by denying.
Either way, by this time, my wandering hands had started exploring F's mound. I began with its high mountain, soon encountered the curly hair and wandered down into the slit. At first I was just rubbing it but when F started moving against my hand and arching her back and shit, I just knew instinctively that the finger had to go in. So I put one of my fingers, oh so gently, into her clit, it didn't seem to bother her that much, so I moved it around and soon I had the hang of it and was moving it around, in and out, really ramming the fucker, because the more I moved it around the better she seemed to feel. Damn, she was insatiable, there was my finger moving in and out and frankly I was getting tired. Luckily, for her I was too drunk to think straight, or I would have kicked the fat bitch out, gotten a condom and been on top of her. But like I said she kept on moaning "Oh! Nina, Oh! Nina" and so Nina didn't go anywhere, except to the couch.
I took off her pants and her panties also, she helped me out by kicking them off and there we lay, me kissing and sucking her two dark and flat boobs, they weren't pert and pointed or perky or anything like that. That part of it was a letdown. Also, this was the first time, I had gotten so far with any girl, so I was just amazed at what my hand was discovering. The stiff, hard and glossy pubic hairs, the wet and sticky slit, which somehow at that moment didn't seem to be that exalted portal of pleasure I had formerly imagined it to be, etc. I wasn't thinking much, just moving my by now two fingers and laying my head on her belly, trying to imagine myself as being very romantic and sexy, when the bitch disengaged herself from my fingers and jumped up on the bed. She was really hysterical by now, crying out "Oh! Nina, Nina", and squeezing her legs where I figure her wet juices were flowing down her legs, her pussy wet, she kissed the walls, jumped around on the bed and kissed the walls some more as the orgasm shook her body. I felt left out of it, I didn't feel all that much like moaning.
Her roommate came by then and took her into the bathroom, from where I heard sounds of vomiting. Some time later I walked into the bathroom. F was on the floor moaning in drunken misery and still crying "Nina, Nina". Then she got up and vomited some more into the washbasin. I stood there and my lecherous heart enjoyed watching her naked body under the harsh white light of the bathroom. It shone clearly on her naked buttocks and for some reason I was much attracted again by what was between them. My cock which had gone down, was now again semi-rigid, just watching the drama. I was just enjoying the whole unbelievability of the thing, that such a thing could happen to me. I made small talk with Nina, with F incapacitated my lechery turned to her. To have both of them naked and in love with me would be too much. I gave it a shot, just as well I wasn't successful, I don't know if I could have handled the naked challenge of Nina's fat body.
We all went back to the couch. F lay down with her head on Nina's lap and her ass pointed towards me. Occasionally, she would cry and moan, but she was subdued now, near sleep. I was nowhere near sleep, I sat next to her wonderfully shaped and curvy ass and admired it. Then I petted it, I was consoling the drunk F as best as I could. I petted, felt, carressed her ass some more. Her nice ass, legs all that glorious flesh. All three of us sat there in that dark silence, on that couch, my heart was singing with joy, F was sleep, Nina asked me to leave after a good five ten minutes. Very nice of her to give me all that time to ogle and caress the lovely F. I got up reluctantly, but further debauchery that night was impossible unless it involved the unlovely Nina. I decided to go back to my room, picked up my bottle of scotch and left. What they did I don't know, I went to my bed and slept.
The story ended tragically for me however. I was tentative as to what future relationship existed between me and F, I tried to contact her, but to no avail, what I had feared had happened, she took me for a scoundrel and didn't try to meet or contact me again. I met her later on in the streets and both of us avoided looking at each other, me out of anger at her selfishness, she out of her lost pride or whatever. The one good thing that came out of it was that I decided that I didn't like Nina as a human being and was able to cut off my fragile connection with her. However, I did lose F, not as a lover, since I had never seen her as that before and even after the night, but as a good friend whom I could talk with and strut around with, drinking, carousing, whatever.
FIN