They are very small and unassuming, a bright shade of green, my favorite shade of green even..... these are not one of my favorite things these little green happy pills. I went to my migraine doctor yesterday thank you to my Girlfriend, Mel for taking me( you are a life savor). The nurse called me on Wednesday she says "are you ok, my response was of course yes, I'm fine, she said "are you sure" my voice cracked as I said no, I am not. She said " I didn't think so, you didn't sound ok on the message you left, the doctor wants to see you can you come tomorrow". After some intense conversation with my doctor I am faced with a choice, none of which are a great fit or even a good fit, the lesser of several evils. After shooting down her suggestion of taking lithium, I am sorry Kirk Cobain blew his head off after writing a song about "LITHIUM", I am sure the drug just has a negative connotation but as a child of the 80's and conasure of Nirvana lithium is not my answer and I said it just like that to my fabulous doctor who never really second guesses me. My choices my relationship, my pain or my ability to cum. I am forced to choose the least important thing to me, the choice was easy and yet very very hard. I can not cum on anti-depressants but chewing on my boyfriend like a rabid dog with a pork chop as a result of the anger inducing topamax was not an option and I can not bear the idea of suffering day in and day out. So I agreed to stay on the topamax and to treat the symptoms of irritability, mood swings and aggression with cymbalta those little green unassuming pills which make me numb, unable to cum and curb my ability to cry at the drop of a hat.

I'm so happy. Cause today I found my friends.
They're in my head. I'm so ugly. But that's ok.
'Cause so are you. We've broke our mirrors.
Sunday morning. Is everyday for all I care.
And I'm not scared. Light my candles. In a daze cause I've found god.

Yeah yeah yeah yeah.....

I'm so lonely. And that's ok. (alt: I'm so happy)
I shaved my head. And I'm not sad, I'm just merry.
I'm to blame for all I've heard. And I'm not sure.
I'm so excited. I can't wait to meet you there.
And I don't care. I'm so horny. But that's ok. My will is good.

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.....

(Chorus) I like it. I'm not gonna crack.
I miss you. I'm not gonna crack. I love you.
I'm not gonna crack. I kill you. I'm not gonna crack. (x2)

I'm so happy. Cause today I found my friends.
They're in my head. I'm so ugly. But that's ok.
'Cause so are you. We've broke our mirrors.
Sunday morning. Is everyday for all I care.
And I'm not scared. Light my candles.
In a daze cause I've found god.

Yeah yeah yeah yeah.....
(Chorus)..