I can't do it, I give up. I feel week. I am hurting, suffering truly suffering. I consumed the "heal your headache book today" devoured it and I got it, I do. I came to a conclusion, I am in such a fervor to have babies and I think I am being irrational. I do not want to wait but I think it is the best choice for me at this time. I had gastric bypass just over 4 months ago and I have lost just over 100lbs. My best friend from high school just had a baby, my best friend currently just had a pregnancy scare as did another friend of mine. I have the fever I want it so badly I am not looking at things rationally. I still weigh over 300lbs. My periods have not regulated and even though I am sure I could eat enough to support a baby I would still be considered high risk. My surgeon asked that I wait 2 years after surgery before considering pregnancy and here I am 4 months out and wanting. I have never had any patience my inner child wants what it wants and she wants it now. My migraine doctor is right I need these meds for now and I need to be on birth control. I made myself sick tonight I had 5 pieces of candy( those little holiday nougats), in a normal person this is ok but for me and for most people after this type of surgery it causes sever problems a condition called "dumping" this is a usual set of symptoms nausea, heart palpitations often accompanied with a headache and vomiting. My discretion has thrown me into a migraine and a bad one. I am sick, very sick and for the first time in a long time I medicated and I gave in, I took the topamax along with my rescue meds and my pain medication. I am going to take the topamax and next week I will ask my migraine doctor about a different antidepressant as well as refill my birth control. I intend to fully submerse myself in the "Heal your headache" diet but I need to do so while on my preventative meds, for now. I am sick and I hurt and I can not take it any more, I need to get myself well first. I hope I make sense I feel fuzzy.