Be very careful, stopping and starting certain antidepressants can be very dangerous to your health, both physically and mentally. I can't imagine some as pretty as you having a difficult time finding someone to spoil you. Keep your chin up and give it time, the right person is out there for you.
Mikey

I didn't stop cold turkey, I weened myself off of my old one effexor, per doctor recomindation so I could start a new one Cymbalta....but in the interum I wanted to see if I could "be" without them.......

OK good as long as your were doing it controlled and with your doc knowing. I have seen too many people in my career not knowing this and they just decided to stop cold turkey and then end up in a super deep depression. If I was not at work I would love to chat with you sometime on yahoo. Maybe sometime. I like what you wrote in your next blog. Stand up for yourself and demand what you want and need. If he cannot give it then you are right to tell him to let you go. GOOD JOB!
Mikey

Hunny it takes two to be in a relationship not one. You are you and I of all ppl know how that feels. I have felt your pain but I know this there is a man or woman out there just for you and he/she will love you with all faults in tow...

i have been where you are for the longest time. i thought i was living some cosmic joke, everyone was in love and i wasn't. even guys i thought were in love with me wasn't. but i stopped feeling sorry for myself and started thinking i'm too good for these jerks. i stopped hearing 'oh my god, she's fat' or 'you'd look pretty if you lost weight'. so what? i'm who i am. i AM the center of my universe. so what, who cares what anyone thinks. and i started talking to people who had the same attitude. and then i finally met the love of my life, dave :) you'll find someone too. just believe in yourself.

I feel the same way you do Cindy. I have about to come to the fact that there is NOT someone made for everyone. I am 33 and have never been asked out in my life. I feel I am not ugly, but I know with me being overweight, I am not that attractive either. Any more all I want to do is cry (yet nothing comes out) I feel worthless, and that no matter what I do, I am damned if I do and damned if I don't. I hate the way I feel and definitely do not want others to feel it. I wish you the best of luck.