Oki...my gripe page....
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03/01/03- HAPPY NEW YEAR Peeps!!!!!!! Even tho it is 3 days late..oh well waht can one do? Damn this pc is slow... its coz dreamweaver doesnt like my little quiz piccies i just added i guess. I havent posted here in ages, the nets been down, my pc's been stuffing up, dads been angry, mums been pissed off..either that or its menopause whichever..could be both as far as i want to know. I had a very interesting talk to my parents the other night, pr0n...so weird..so very wrong too.. not the pr0n u understand.. the talking with my parental units abt it...pr0n IS GOOD>>pr0n IS GREAT...
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20/12/02 - yaoi boy to the rescue....
16/07/02 2:12pm he he long time no gripe....i went thru and deleted alot of my gripes coz my parents found the page....oh well guess what?...IM 18 2morrow!!! yay...This is a public service announcement....2morrow i am officially an Adult...im 18!!!! yay...oki thats all i have to say...
EviL
08/05/02 8:53pm Well well well....long time no see...he he test update....71% on ALL my tests bar chemistry which i failed...but that was expected...got a scanner yesterday.....dad's old one....cool tho coz i can scan pix now! yay....oki well gtg help roo....write lata!
EviL
30/04/02 7:09pm First day of skool...yay...see i sound so enthusiastic don't i? Oh well i got my Legal and english test results back...joy oh joy...71% on both...which isn't too bad i spose...but not great. 2nd in legal...damn u Roopal! n 7th in English....damn u Roopal again! n the ppl who got higher than me...bugger...oh well i got 14/15 for my creative writing!!! YAY! that was the only English one i cared abt coz the rest could mean less....but he he i drove my car again...just off the law but it was the 1st time i'd driven it after its service which was cool...no major probs or anything. Now it just needs fuel...he he Tomorrow i find out my Chem test and my Maths....maths i know i passed but Chem i know i failed....but of course we have to have English first....yay...NOT! y cant we just NOT do english? i mean we speak english y do we need to do it for? oh well im being propositioned by Darren...hmm do i take up his offer or do i be agood girl like my parents have tried to teach me n stay virginal until im married...he he j/k.... tho i dunno wat exactly im gonna do abt Darren..he he maybe i'll just let it flow n see where it goes..
Cya
EviL
26/04/02 10:05pm Have driven my car which is really cool...also did some exercise! SHOCK!..im listening to metallica! YAY! I luv metallica! he he..no 1's rung me yet...skanks...oh well they all have exciting lives...i dont...he he short one...we have a BIG bin so we have to work in the gardens AGAIN 2morrow...oh well...my legs r sore...he he oki bubi
Cya
EviL
23/04/02 9:04pm I should have my fone on...i'll get to it later i spose...BIG NEWS...... I GOT A CAR!....if u missed that community service announcement we wil repeat it for you....I GOT A CAR! ...Its white n it goes...it has no air con tho...but i can live without..which it seems like i will have to coz the insurance is coming out of mon argent poche....oh well I GOT A CAR!...now i just have to get my P's...YAY!!!!
Uh..not much else happened here in my little fantasy world...we got a new stereo...the whole room vibrates when i play mettalica!...and we r getting a new air con for the back room...so it was a pretty action packed day here...gtg bubi!
Cya
EviL
22/04/02 12:04pm- oki its been a while since i updated....BUT!!! i have an excuse! I was doing exams...n then i was just lazy....so shoot me already! He he the parental units n co have gone out...yay 4 me! so i am at home with my pussy cat....its nice n quiet...even nxt door r quiet!
Spent all last night talking to Yazzy n Roopal....spoke to Roopal for 2hrs n 40 mins or so...but who's counting...she was! n then i was finally going to bed when yaz rang up...he he oh well i should start charging my fone i know yaz is gonna ring n roopal will too if she doesnt work...he he my friends get very vocal some times n r very quiet others...
I watched Big Brother uncut the other day...GaWd it was funny! Go the Larat! Damien is gone tho! YAY!!! he was an @ss! oh n i dyed my hair...its now got Blueberry in it...looks oki...it didnt really stick tho for some reason...so it looks a bit faded n blotchy...but over all i can live with that...its not like im going anywhere for any one to see it any way. So thats abt all...got a new discman...coolies...n actually plan on sending the letter to Yazmin eventually... but thats all so bubi!
Cya
EviL
04/04/02 6:14pm- well i've been home for about an hour...a bit over actually...hour n a half or so n already my heads on the chopping block. All becuase i said 'i wanted to take mum in blktwn and that i 'wanted' the excel books for school...fucking hell they want me to do well in my HSC but i think it hasnt figured to them that it doesnt come cheap! nothing in this fucking world does!
I mean they've only been living in it for the last 50 yrs or so...sorry mum we cant buy a bag of lollies for 5 cents anymore! 5 cents may buy u one lolly if ur lucky! thats IF ur lucky. So i asked to go to the movies...i dont have a job other than shit kicker around this house so wat else do i do....ask for money...well i get MY head chooped off cause dad went n bought $150 worth of computer shit then on top of that an extra hundred or so on an auction on ebay....N I get MY head chopped off coz i want to go out with my friends...forgive me for having friends....it was so nice when i didnt wasnt it? no movies to pay for coz i never went n no need to come n pick me up from any where or put urself out coz i never went anywhere....but NOW that I have friends NOW im in the SHIT coz i need to money to do things....
i mean mel can do wat she wants n go where she wants to go wif her firends with little hassle about money coz it just dolled out to her...money for easter show, money for clothes, she liked a series of books so they went n got the whole series for her, she got a boyfriend so she had to buy him something...of course shes not OLD ENOUGH for a job so they pay...
well gee willy, i dont want a job..i cant handle skool as it is....ever heard of priorities? well my priority is to get a good HSC...soory it doesnt come cheap...i know i hate being cheap mum but just borrowing the books from the library isnt going to help me. I mean i know i need serious help..mentally for a start but i also need help with chem n maths i cant do 'em for shit. but i mean mel needs a tutor in maths lets get her one fuck emelia...everyone else in our chem class has a tutor coz our teachers crap but emelia cant afford it...her parents can afford everything else but not that...not for emelia at least...
Ah FUCK it...i cant be bothered....i think i'll just fuck my HSC like i planned... i mean what else can i do...i apparently dont get of my backside to do anything else...
arseholes, fuckwits n cocksuckers... n of course my stupid sis who wont even EVER try smoking n then disses everybody who has..n of course my ma brings up the fact that I have ...tried it...at least once...lol then of course i smicker n im told i have a bad attitude...fuckwits..
Owari
EviL
02/04/02 8:43- the date looks funny doesnt it? or is it just me?
Either way....had my 1st exam today....lotsa fun..nearly being sick b4 the exam then after the 1st one we had the essay n i completely forgot a MAJOR character n i blabbed on about JACKSHIT coz i didn't know what to write....I CANNOT WRITE ESSAYS!! Can someone get it thru their thick skulls...ESSAYS SUCK!
Gimme a story any day... the topic dont matter...i can write a story on bascially anything...creative writting...poems...songs...dont matter as long as its not an ESSAY!! stupid teachers....i have an essay in my legal test too..i think i know what its on though...so its really more of a discussion than an essay but thats a week away! thankfully... mind u i have to learn a yr n a halfs work of chem before then...so its all good...
dont have an exam tomorrow! YAY!!! get to sleep in..if the cat lets me..want to get mum to take me for a drive...not likely but i am hoping...coz i wanna get my P's during the hols!!! then i can drive myself...n my friends places! YAY!!!
oh well gtg...must update the rest of my site! ta!
EviL
P.s--> cant wait to get to play around with linux!
31/03/02 10:51pm- well its actually 11:53 according to my watch..i havent change it back to normal non-daylight savings time...oh well....HAPPY EASTER! hope u all ate lots of chocolate n got urselfs sick!...i mean wat else is there to easter? chocolte..chocolate n MORE chocolate...
today was fun..organised my study...managed to create several hundred obstacles to get around doing it...n still havent managed to study...only 1 day to go...1 day to study a foot of note n write an essay...YES i said a foot...if i pile all my english crap up its about a foot high! true most of its all crap tho...waste of paper in my opinion...but wat can u do...its donny...dear old donny...*vomit!*
ahh i think i'll go to bed...maybe not...i tried to install Linux on one of our spare PC's today...didnt work of course...dont know what i did wrong...i'm hoping it was the Pc n not me but its not likely...not at all...made up new stuff for the site that im not putting up till its COMPLETELY finished...im not gonna stuff the links again...
ahh run outta words..NOT...but im not in a talking mood sorry...not much to bitch about either...dad was in a surprisingly good mood...wish it would stay like that...n mum well i just stayed clear of the bombs path..tho mel n i have fought a couple hundred times today...oh oh guess wat we watched?!! The Fast N Furious!! Kick@ss movie! great stunts, actors, cars...the lot! not really strong in the main story way...good character development tho...better than GI60Sec's...tho GI60Sec's kicks @ss in the car department!!!
ahhh the joys of being lazy...c ya!
EviL
30/03/02 3:33pm- a good day by most accounts....fixed the front door...it is now hanging ON its hinges instead of off them...uh didnt get yelled at for anything considerable. Well i spose that could be cause they've been out got wat they wanted n went where they wanted....mind u dad had a go at me cause i said 'cod' was yukk...i mean i've never stopped them eating it before...it stinks like hell but as long as im not eating it i dont care...but dad bitched about it...
so far thats been it...still havent studied yet for my tests...he he im too lazy... some new pages for the web site...which is cool...oh well gtg must finish the quotes page!
EviL
29/03/02 6:30pm- I am angry and pissed off and i want to either choke someone or sit down n yell my head off...Sounds good does it not?...Im sick of the shit im coping at home....hell its not even my 'home'any more...to quote one of yaz's phrases...'its just where i keep my junk'.
That is soooo true. Sooooo true its pissing me off. I dont get asked to do anything. I'm told. I dont get asked IF i will put mums pc back in....IM TOLD. I dont get asked to set the table....or get the dishes or take the washing out...or do the coffee...IM TOLD. Better yet....Lunchtime, they came back from where ever the hell they went...didnt tell me where theyw ere going, just got told off because i wasnt going...then the first thing dad sez to me as he walks in the door was'how was the rest of the fast n furious?'...innocent enuff u say? well since the other day when i watched it n was TOLD I COULDNT WATCH IT WITHOUT ASKING BECAUSE IT WAS DADS....i mean HELLO they were ALL out! who the hell was i gonna ask? The cat?!
Then todays snide comment....im like well if u dont trust me. I dont know y i bother....everytime im asked to clean the house while they r gone, its never good enuff when i come back...NEVER! 'The floor wasnt vacuumed....i cant still see dirt on it...u didnt dust did u?! I told u to dust...' I mean they never wonder whether i actually did the birds....unless its the budgies..but i mean they are mums birds...then if i dont do them its all hell breaking loose...n if I dont feed the birds each week then they dont get feed unless mum whinges wnd whines about doing them...I mean the galahs have been waiting years for a new cage, and have ONLY been waiting months for dad to clean their cage out...the mouse have a field day in the bottom of their cage...
Then Mel is bitchy AGAIN...everything i say...'Im a self righteous bitch.'....nice isnt it...n this is supposed to be my 'loving sweet blonde sister'I dont know y i bother...
Oki..so its Easter Friday....well woo-t-doo! So im supposed to eat fish...i dont like fish...i never really have...so they bring home fish for lunch...that was smart wasnt it...i mean wat am i gonna eat...do i have to scavage out of the fridge again?....well i spose i was lucky...i wasnt forced to eat the fish...mind u i was tormented by 'my loving sweet blonde sister' while i was at the table....'ur religon sez u have to at it...ur a self righteous bitch....ur a fucking bitch...ur cats a fucking bitch too...' Then im like ur the one who wants a pentacle (necklace...witches wear them...so do satanists but theirs is upside down..) n thats against ur religon...*notice i didnt say..'our' religon...then she had a shit at me...meanwhile the parental units are still sitting at the table....mum told mel off a few times...*oh ur so bad! here i'll give u this little slap on the wrist..* But other than that..this is mel...she can do no wrong...unless its towards my parents or someone they care about....but hey wat can u do?
Then get this....my sister can swear the leg off a donkey...n was procceeding to use her extended vocabulary this afternoon...IN FRONT OF MUM...who was sitting basically next to her....n mum said basically nothing...at least until I started to tell mel to stop swearing n shut thefuck up....THEN...guess wat happens?...mum starts to tell ME off for swearing!!!!! And im like u fucking moron mel has just sat there for the last 15mins swearing her head off n U have the guts to tell ME to stop swearing n shut up!!..no i didnt say that to mum exactly....it was very close, oh so very close....then the almight DAD stormes out pissed because we disturbed his afternoon nap, soap in hand n goes to shove it in mels mouth saying 'i should wash u mouth out with this! u filthy ....' then proceeds to tell her off for swearing n then mum opens her big mouth n tells dad 'it wasnt only mel....the other one is just as bad...' Then he has a go at me n im like...if i wasnt doing my HSC i would be gone.
Me is now thinking about moving...houses, states, hell countries just to get the fuck away from my parents n fucked families....i mean i dont need this shit!! I have tests all next week n the week after n mums like dont u have an assessment to do emelia?...n im like no....i dont have any 'lessons' for the next 2 weeks...i have 'TESTS'....n shes like well do something about it...study or something.....then shes like Mel dont u have an assignment?.... n mels like yeah but im not doing it....n she walks off, but mum doesnt tell HER to do it....doesnt make a mention about it...
Oki...phew its a sauna in here...that was a lot of steam let off...now i have a headache...but if i go n get some asprin i'll be 'eating it', n if i try n get some sleep i'll be 'too lazy to get off my ass n do anything' amougnst other things...n if i do anything well im gonna cop it any way i might as well shut my door n try n concentrate on a book or something....i mean its not as if im gonna try n study or anything...im jsut gonna get top marks in everything coz my parents say so.
u know im not stressed about my tests....im stressed about EVERYTHING ELSE.... all the shit comes out NOW...yay for being me...n ppl wonder y someone like me wants to kill herself.... wel i spose this whole page is proof y....
*NOTE* No i am not going to kill my self...its just a coined term....i'd personally rather kill someone else....something else would also fit well...a punching bag maybe only my parents wouldnt get me one...it was too dear....but hell to leather they bought my sister everythign else SHE WANTED i might tell her she wants one...so when she asks n receives i can steal it off her....like shes stolen everthign off me...
Owari
EviL
Stress: The confusion created when the mind overrides the body's desire to choke the living shit out of some asshole who desperately needs it.
28/03/02 9:45pm- Again today skool was loads of fun... Nearly got a wk 9...yay donny...mel got to go to the Easter Show...and i who am 17..nearly 18...has never been and it is shameful my sister has actually gone before i have...im most annoyed about that one...also handed in my chem assess...i'll be lucky to get 1 or 2 out of 50 on that one...YAY again...and then i think...am pretty sure i made Kylie cry.
Shall we assess these events in order?....i thought not...
I wasnt angry at kylie...she thought i was...n i wasnt...i had just had a shit hole of a day n the last pd i had was english....gawd help me i was tired and fed up of donnys shit n didnt need her comments about the wk9. I spose i really shouldnt say too much or i'll regret it later...so i'll leave this topic till nxt wk..or nxt term wateva..
Mel n the easter show...she went i didnt...she had $50! i didnt...she got show bags...u got it..i didnt...am i jealous..FUCK YES! she gets everything! cops it for nothing! n might as well own my room for all she lives in here when she needs to have a 'sis 2 sis' chat... Who does she think i am? her dog?...i dont care abt jacob..i know nothing abt him n want to know nothing abt him. He's not my bf...he's hers...i may have no life but i dont need to listen to hers....i get that enuff from the parental units. Did u know i am typing with my eyes closed right now? no u didnt did u?
oh well...fuck chem..its not like im gonna pass the fucken 1/2 yrly neway...or ne of the others... tho everyone expects me to....perfect Emelia...ms top 10 in the state...fuck it...fuck my SC...fuck my HSC...hell fuck it all...yes I dont suffer from insanity I REVEL IN IT!...esp when theres nothing else to revel in any more...
im gone...Owari..
EviL
27/03/02 8:20pm- Well today was a LOAD of FUN! I had to go to Fun Run Day....wasnt it great... a great waste of a day in which i could have been doing my chem asses...which is wat i should be doing now too...bugger...
Oh well...'they' went out this arvo then had a bitcha t me when i came home coz i was watching the fast and the furious...which i havent finished yet...'u waited until we went out then opened it....just so u couldnt ask us'...wat a load of bullshit! I was bored n i wanted to watch the bloody movie! Wat the HELL has that got to do with them...i coudnt give a damn about going behind their backs to do anything, its not worth it coz i'd cop it anyway so y not make it up front... Fucken Hipocrites....
Stupid talent quest microphones stuffed up on us...u couldnt hear us at all...it was stuffed...i am so pissed, i mean we werent a 'bunny ears' contension but we were half decent and it just fucked up....oh well i just so cannot be bothered....also my ma wont let me use her scanner the bitch! I have photos to scan and i need it but she wont let me connect it to my computer because...'It's HERS'...no other fucking reason...other than its hers...wat a fuckwit...
im going to do my assessment n write me an essay if i get time...if i dont well suxs to that..
EviL
26/03/02 8:57pm- I forgot to do this yesterday...I was so busy fighting with my parents again that it just slipped my mind...I mean I do 'jack crap' around here compared to when 'they' were MY age...Tho I spose the question really is...Were they EVER my age?...I mean taking into consideration my parents situation n stuff technically they were never really my age...they didn't have computers, or any REAL DRUGS...peer pressure wasn't a problem, neither was dropping out of school n getting a worthless job...the 'sexual revolution' was a big thing at that time and both my parents are so strict u'd wonder if they don't have a ramrod stuck up their asses....at least my ma.
But... that was yesterday. Nothin to do about that...but today...oh joyous today...I have no brains again, I'm stupid and I a worthless SOB. I also have no hope of a family life or living in hygienic conditions... translation: I didn't wash up n clean off the table when I was commanded to. And I complained about the fact that I do more than mel n dad but because dad's not here to see it n cause he only hears mums griping I get stuck with the shit...'I'm older and should be more responsible'..MY ASS!
SHOW ME THE RESPECT N THE FREEDOM TO GO WHERE I WANT, N DO AS I WANT N I'LL SHOW U I CAN BE RESPONSIBLE....I WONT GET PREGNANT BEFORE IM 20, I WONT BLOW MY MIND ON DRUGS N IF U REALLY WANT I'LL EVEN STOP TRYING TO ACTING AS IF I GIVE A SHIT N TELL U WHAT I REALLY THINK ABOUT U....theres wat u get....
But HEY theres still more! If ur really lucky I might even bring home a hobo bf n then tell u I am skipping the country n gonna go live in Japan with all my friends who r in to S'n'M.... hey wat the hell 'parental units...I'm starting a sexual erotic shoppe in mainstreet blacktown...no I've actually been deceiving u for all these years...I am not nor ever have been a virgin and I enjoy 'wild monkey sex while dreaming I'm doing it with a cartoon character...'....oh I could imagine that...he he how hilarious....
NOTE: I am not planning to do any of the above paragraph anytime soon...mind u going to japan'd be cool....tho I am still a virgin *of the body ONLY!* my mind is in the gutter...n it NEVER plans to emerge from that state!
I am just venting so that is why all of the above sound so...fucked...oh well it only reflects on me...wat can u do...wat indeed...*Wat: nothing nothing at all....but pain..lots and lots of pain with a huh..n a crack n pain! pain!!* (a knights tale ref)
yeah thank ye for that Wat....Chauncer? *Chauncer :There ain't a bloody thing u can do about it lovey...* well that was encouraging...
oki bubi...i hope this time i actually get to up load this 2morrow morning...b4 skool... oh well must find something to wear for the talent quest 2morrow...lost of fun as usual...THANK U Eostre!!
Tata...he he he....no mickey not hehehe...damn i wrote alot...hmmm i wonder y this room is so steamy...where'd it come from...lol
Cya
EviL
24/03/02 10am- Geeze, its not even lunch yet and He's already on my back! "I thought you had brains!" Fuck you asshole! I never said that, i would never claim that! I KNOW BETTER!!!
Fuck it pisses me off..so i dumped on his hdd, on his 'c' drive, big fucking deal! Fuck it any more i dont give a shit. Go to swarg assholes, coz if ur there i prolly dont wanna be there...
stupid maths assess, stupid eng essay....fucking school...thank gawd im in my last year!
Owari-i'll finish my rant later...
EviL
23/3/02 5:50pm- My parental units again! They came back from Nan's right....then it was 'Y couldn't you do somthing aroudn here?' "I bet u laid around here all day on ur arse n did nothing!" "I thought i told u to vaccum..how can the vacuuming be done if..." Oki..so i slept in... i wasnt getting up at 7am just to hear them gripe about how i should be going to see Nan, n how im selfish n shit...i dont need to hear it any more than i have to. Then dad goes off at me for dumping my stuff on his pc for a few hours while i fix mine...RUDE! how was i to know that it was playing up...i wasnt told...HELL i dunno y i am even a part of this 'family'...im usre my sister wonders that too... Oh well...gotta do my english essay which i refused to do in class...yes..i told her i didnt want to do it..so i didnt...i wasnt in the mood...and its only english so i dont care...
EviL
22/3/02 9:55pm- My parental units mostly...they come home from where ever they went today with my sis then have a go at me because i don't go anywhere with'em. Then because i was watching the movie they 'needed' a coffee...n now! then i was told that i do nothing around home! By dad non the less...i mean what does HE do? Comes home plants his ass on the lounge n gripes about work n the assholes there then gets on his PC. In between sentences telling me and mel off...i mean we do more work than he does, n he whines cause he cops it from mum coz she reckons we do shit all...
I mean 'HELLO' i cop it from both angles...from mum and dad! GIMME A BREAK! I really don't give a shit....ABOUT ANYTHING!
RUDE!!! then i fix my pc n dad has a go at me n wont listen to a word i say...if he thinks its the 'user error' then its me...i mean it couldn't be the computer HE build! Gods NO!
oh well gonna go to bed...night!
EviL
Lest we forget....because they'll prolly never come back! ^_^