Hello everyone! I hope all is well with you. I've been kinda down with myself and in turn haven't really posted anything to anyone. So here's my update.
I have been going through some of my things and have decided that i'm going to try and make some handmade frames, holiday ornaments, soaps, and things like that and try to sell them online and at flea markets (if i'll have time to do that). I really like doing all this stuff and helps me feel sane as well.
Anyway, we did some shopping over the weekend. Nothing big but to hold us over until we have more money. I also went online and applied for Medicaid again because i still haven't received anything at all. Hopefully it'll be quicker this time around. I'm having some cramping that is really uncomfortable, but it doesn't seem to be serious as i'm also not bleeding in any way or basically nothing unusual is going on that i can tell. But i've decided that if it gets worse, i'll just go get checked out at a clinic i'll find or just the ER. But i'm pretty sure it's just me being stressed out with everything.
Also, my MIL sent a box over the weekend. It had some cute butterfly pictures for Amber's room, 3 matching pictures for our room, and some things for the kids, and a sports throw for Robert's bed. They are all so nice and look really great. Also, my BIL who is also Amber's godfather wanted us to rush and get her a toddler bed. So they went ahead and sent us a gift card to buy her a bed. We bought a plain white bed and on sunday, I had painted it to match the rest of Amber's furniture. It looks really cute!
Monday, i was in a pissy mood and didn't want to go anywhere but I promised frank and the kids we would go to this park that is near us and it has a lake with a beach and a waterslide. Well, i looked in and felt i didn't want to pay to go into that.... i know snobby me... but i didn't want to pay for something that looked so crappy. So we ended up driving to a really well known park in tke Keys, John Penny Camp... they offer all sorts of water activities and such, but we went to the beach. Water was very calm and no waves and it was very very warm so it was comfortable yet refreshing. Afterwards we all took a walk through one of the mangrove trails and that was nice... both kids walked the whole trail! So it was a nice day... though i forgot to bring sunblock. Everyone is fine and tanned and i'm fried to a crisp on my back and face! Ouch!
As for the kids... omg... can someone shoot me lately?! Amber has been waking up for the past couple of nights 5-6 times during the night and i'm just beat as hell. She just wakes up for no reason and cries and won't go back to bed unless i put her back to sleep completely. She basically wakes up every 1-2 hours and it seems like everytime i finally get to fall asleep myself... there she goes waking me up again. I dont' know if she's basically teething again, but i don't see any changes in her gums, so i'm not sure.
As for Robert and my problems with him lately. I told frank he was not to in any way discipline him if he didn't do exactly what i was doing. And i used a tactic that i hate cause it more instills some fear more than anything, but it has been working so far. I had once a few months ago took a belt and gave robert a smack on teh butt with it... nothing hard, but spanking has lost it's effect. That one time was enough for him... so now my tactic is: i took out the belt and said that anytime he yells at me, daddy, amber, hits or throws anything at anyone, and doesn't listen at all, he'll get hit with the belt. It has been going perfectly and he has done everything and listened to everything where i haven't even had to touch the belt at all. And i tell him how proud of him i am that he's doing so good and being such a good boy and how happy i am that when he's calm, i'm calm, and everyone is happy. And he's happy about it. But then yesterday, frank decides to try and get him to listen to him again, and starts to horseplay with him, and it all went to the shits again.... and he's being bad again. So i'm back to reminding him of the belt and now he's being more defiant. I have no intention of hitting him with it, but once this stops working, i don't know anymore what i will do. I"m going to try and set up some kind of reward system or something. May be that'll work.
So anyway, that is my update. There is something else i wanted to say, but i forgot what it was. May be it'll come back to me later. Oh yeah, and i'm going to start potty trainig Amber.
Anyway, sorry this was so long and thanks if you got this far.
