My Head
where are you now
i want to talk to you
i'm sitting here alone
waiting by the phone
where are you now
i want to talk to you
if only you were home
i wouldn't be alone i wait for you
where are you now
are you just toying with me
do you need me to play
all your high school games
where are you now
i guess i'll try once more
i don't have much to say
but it's the tenth call that i've made
and it's ringing in my head
yeah the last thing that you said
you said now
i ask you just what it is
you've tasted
your answers hushed
i'm wasted so wasted
and all the promises you made
were the others just the same now
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If Only
if only i was taller
if i had a million dollars
maybe then you'd be with me
if only i was 18
and had the courage of the a-team
maybew then you'd be with me
but for now i'll have to dream
about your smile 'cause your not
here and all i want to say
is that i really miss you
if i could surf a little better
if i had summer's sweater
maybe then you'd be with me
if only i had more time
if i had mike ness' hairline
then you'd want to be with me
if only you weren't so fine
if only i wasn't so blind
i'd find away
to make you stay
then maybe i'd see you
if i woke up
with all these things
would it even change your feelings
none of that is even me
but for now i'll have to
wait another week
to see your face and all i want to
say is that i really miss you
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This Lonly Place
you came around
to see your boyfriend
you came around
to feel the pain
it was yesterday
he tried to use you
but you still go through it
again you took it away
again you let yourself stay
i've been around
this lonely place before
you find out
he's been lying to you
you find he had another girl
still you never
stand up for yourself
you never stand up to him
he takes it away
again you let yourself
again you gave it to him
you said it's the last time
he does it again
i've been around
this lonely place
lonely place before
you got a choice
to leave your place
your lonely place behind
be true to yourself
now and let it go
it's better
than you think
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20¢ Goodbye
went out today
to try to phine you
i guess you didn't
recognize my call
the lady on your end
said you got caller id
and i'm feeling sorry
that you've been
woken up so much
and i'm feeling guilty
just talk to me
please talk to me
i hardly know you
it's too late to even try
i want to know you
another twenty cent goodbye
i found a pay phone and it's busted
another broken hearted fool
but still i pick up the reciever
my lips are touching
someone's drool
please make this worth it
you're all i'm thinking of today
i know you're worth it
just talk to me
please talk to me
goodbye
another twenty cent goodbye
another twenty cents
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Question
you got some question
about your life
you don't know how you'll ever
make it through
it hurts so bad but it's all you got
you're asking me for help but
all i got to say now is that
you don't know what pain is
you haven't suffered one iota so
just stop your whining
you don't know what pain is
stop complaining point your finger
i'll tell you who to blame
so pack your bags we're going out
i want to show you just what's in
this world
cause in the end its all you got
memories to tell you about your life
and how you lived it
so live it good
i know it's all that you've given
you don't know what pain is
you haven't suffered one iota so
just stop your whining
you don't know what pain is
stop complaining point your finger
i'll tell you who to blame
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Disorder
my little story's
growing way too long
i've had to suffer enough to write this song
and if i get another chance
i'll tell you how it feels
cause in this sick old head the pain is too real
so i fall down
i don't know if i can
make it up this time
i know i want to but
it gets harder every time
and if it's easier
to give up everything
i'd give it all to you
to relieve half this pain
cause it's been hard
yeah it's been hard
i sit there at the bar
i wonder what i've done
should i just fuck it all
or should i go back home
cause if i take that drink
i might as well just die
and if i kill myself
i'd be giving up my try
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Carlita
Well after today I'll never see you
and you'll be left with your life
Collecting all your souvenirs
I'll never get it right
Empty man hollow man
I call myself a hermit
My self esteem contingent on
the way you look at me
I'm hanging on your words
yeah I'm reading
all your thoughts
If only I could be you now
cause you got the control
Empty man lonely man
I call myself depressed
I'm finding ways to avoid you
at the expense of sanity
I'm hanging on your words
and I'd like to share a thought
I know I can't be you now
but I'd like to stay a while
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Too Late
the young boy has
turned into a man
and he's growing stronger
he's battled through things
he thought he could
go on no longer
father stood by his side
wanting nothing more
than just be his dad
but pride only answers
to one call
he only condemns him
and if the boy only knew
the father's pain
the nights that he
stayed up late
wondered why
doesn't he see the future
is so bleak so bleak
father's retired now
he's left with tv and rest
the weight of the world
and what did he do wrong
has gone to his chest
he had such a good life
the family he loved
were all by his side
to his son he whispered
goddamn this pride
so fuck i'm all by myself
now you've gone away
you've left me
all by myself
with that fucked up
thing you said
if i could forgive myself
you knew the way
now i'm all by myself
and i'm sorry
but if you only knew
your son's pain
how bad that he wanted
you to say
you're doing just fine
you turned out to be
one good guy
but it's too late
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I Need To Know
I run away cause I'm
scared that you might leave
there's nothing wrong
but that's not what I believe
just tell me it's alright
and tell me I'm okay
and tell me that you're
staying here tonight
I feel stupid saying
words you've heard before
the way I feel today
is all I know for sure
and if I scare you
I'm only scaring me
I've got so much to say
why won't you speak with me
I need to know
what you're feeling
do you feel like I do
let's talk about everything
I want to share my life with you
and tell me that you feel
the way I feel with you
and tell me that
you love me like I do
you're in my life
well I want to be sure
I'm not wasting time
I've been through this before
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Authority
So you're just barely getting by
not hurting no one
Sometimes you think that you're alright
sometimes you have fun
But on the way someone confronts you
and tries to shut you up
You're having trouble at your home
you want to get out
But you've got nowhere else to go
You gotta get out
But on the way someone confronts you and
tries to tell you that
You're going nowhere with your life!
whoa
You better listen to what's right!
whoa
But don't you see
that I can't hear you!
HEY! HEY! HEY!
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S.M.P.
there's something bout that cold wind blowin across your face
it's not the kill, it's the thrill of the chase
it's like being in bed with the girl of your dreams
or eatin a pint of ben and jerry's ice cream
well you can kick me in the knee with your ski or your boot
well that's cool on your hill of rules
this is something that i will always cherish
parents hate the fact that SKIERS MUST PERISH!
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The Last Time
living life and freedom
wondering if my love
could be as one
and if that you could
possibly love me
thinking life
and living life
are two very different things
the first one being harder
than the last
tonight's the last time
that I ever show you me
thinking all these days are gone
and dreaming of my time with you
just makes me wish
that I was with you now
driving the ninety
I'm thinking of you
if I could turn back time
I'd look you in the eye
then I might see your lies
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Chris Clayton
You taught me how to play guitar
You told me that I'd go
far just by trying
yea just by trying
When we were kids
playing Social D
spiritual man on LSD
We were frying
yea we were frying
Once in a while you'd fuck with me
no ground on my bass and it shocked me
Chris Cayton I called you satan
Cuz when we were skating
You would make the metal sign
You got kicked out of school for wearing profanity
'too drunk to fuck' said the Dead Kennedys
on your button your punk rock button
You were born in S.I.T.
Vegetarian man no BLT on your muffin
no turkey stuffing
Once and a while I'd surf with you
Our first band was called IMRU
It isn't just me
that wants to be here by your side
and I know
it isn't just me
that wants to be next to your side
and I know
I only want to hold you
is that asking way too much
I only want to feel you
you're so far away
I guess I'll believe that you care
and I think
the things that you said
keep running around in my head
and I know
I only want to trust you
you lied to me before
I don't know if I can trust you
in time I'll know for sure
It's only been three days
since I have seen your face
I don't think I can wait three more
I know that I can't wait
The static on the phone
makes you so far away
I watch the clock tick by
you haven't called today
And then I fall apart
waiting for your call
you don't tell me how you feel
you leave me in the dark
I guess I blame myself
for staying here with you
I just want to hear the words
you say you need me too
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