Don't Leave Me
I'll go for miles 'till I find you
You say you want to leave me
But ya can't choose
I've gone thru pain every day & night
I feel my mind is going insane
Something I can't fight
Don't leave me
A blank expression covering your face
I'm looking for directions for out of this place
I start to wonder
If you'll come back
I feel the rain storming
After thunder I can't hold back
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I Was There
Looking back upon my life
And the places that I've been
Pictures, faces girls that I've loved
I try to remember when
Faded memories on the wall
Some names I have forgotten
But each one is a memory I
Look back on so often
I look into the past
I want to make it last
I was there
Looking back what I have done
There's lots more life to live
At times I feel overwhelmed
I question what I can give
But I don't let it get me down
Or cause me too much sorrow
There's no doubt about who I am
I always have tomorrow
Looking back upon my life
Faded memories upon the wall
Looking now at who I am
I don't let it get me down
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Disappearing Boy
Now you see me now you don't
Don't ask me where I'm at
'Cause I'm a million miles away
Treated like a forbidden heel
Don't say my thoughts are not for real
Or you won't see me again
Am I here or am I there
Or am I playing on the stairs
Am I in my room with my toys
I am the disappearing boy
When I walk in crowded rooms
I feel as if it is my doom
I know that I don't belong
In that room I see her
I see her & she's with him
I turn and then I'm gone
Don't call me up 'cause I'm not home
My whereabouts are now unknown
I vanished from all your joy
I'm the disappearing boy
I have my doubts
Of where I belong
It's something to think about
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Green Day
A small cloud has fallen
The white mist hits the ground
My lungs comfort me with joy
Vegging on one detail
The rest just crowds around
My eyes itch of burning red
Picture sounds
Of moving insects so surreal
Lay around
Looks like I found something new
Laying in my bed
I think I'm in left field
I picture someone, I think it's you
You're standing so damn close
My body begins to swell
Why does 1 plus 1 make 2
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Going To Pasalaqua
Here we go again, infatuation
Touches me just when I
Thought that it would end
Oh but then again it seems
Much more than that but
I'm not sure exactly what you're thinking
I toss and turn all night
Thinking of your ways of effection
But to find that it's not different at all
I throw away my past mistakes
And contemplate my future
That's when I say
What the Hey!
Would I last forever?
You and I together, hand and hand
We run away, far away
I'm in for nasty weather
But I'll take whatever you can
Give that comes my way, far away
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16
Every night I dream the same dream
Of getting older all the time
I ask you now, what does this mean?
Are these problems just in my mind?
Things are easy when you are a child
But now these pressures have dropped on my head
The length I've gone are just long miles
Would they be shorter if I were dead
Every time I look in my past
I always wish I was there
I wish my youth would forever last
Why are these times so unfair
Look at my friends and see what they've done
Ask myself why they had to change
I like them better when they were young
Now all these times are rearranged
I look down and stand there and cry
Nothing ever will be the same
The sun is rising, now I ask why?
The clouds now fall and here comes the rain
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Road To Acceptance
I always waste my time just wondering
What the next man thinks of me
I'll never do exactly what I want
And I'll sculpt my life for your acceptance
I feel forgotten
Feel like rotting
Do you feel the same
Adolescence
Just can't make sense
It's calling my name
I take a look around
And all the things I've found
I call it blind hatred
If you'd stop a while
And maybe if you'd smile
You would realize that
We're all the same
It's just like our brain
When it goes insane
We feel the same pain
All my life I've seem to have this heed
I think at times it even turns to greed
We all want to join some family
We'll even sacrifice a moral changing
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Rest
Hey can you hear me?
I'm calling your name
Hello or is this good-bye?
The gleam in your eyes
It troubles my brain
Will I see it again
So I can rest my head
Angel!
Dancing away
As all of my thoughts are rearranged
Angel
Turning away
To have changed
So I can rest my head
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The Judge's Daughter
Princess in a school girl's dream
May I please speak with you
I'm having troubles with control
And it's all because of you
Today I kept on falling down
I thought it was the street
So I look down at my shoes
They were on the wrong feet
I find it hard to be myself
Can you please explain?
I do not think that it's my health
You're the one to blame
You're the one I wish I had
And now my girlfriend is getting mad
I cannot call this sane
Today as I was walking down
You bumped into me
You said, "excuse me" and walked away
As I dropped to my knees
I prayed to the being in the sky
That my parents told me of
I asked about you but no reply
No clues about your love
My girlfriend left me on the phone
I'm pathetically left here alone
I cannot call this sane
Can we find a way
So that you can stay
I think I'm gonna pop
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Paper Lanterns
Now I rest my head from
Such an endless dreary time
A time of hopes and happiness
That had you on my mind
Those days are gone and now it seems
As if I'll get some rest
But now and then I'll see you again
And it puts my heart to test
So when are all my problems
Going to end?
I'm understanding now that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you
As the days go on I wonder
Will this ever end?
I find it hard to keep control
When you're with your boyfriend
I do not mind if all I am is
Just a friend to you
But all I want to know right now
Is if you think about me too...?
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Why Do You Want Him?
I saw you standing alone
With a sad look on your face
You call him on the phone
Looks like he left you without a trace
Tears falling out of your eyes
He's living in a disguise
You've been feeling bad for so long
You wonder if it's right or wrong
Why do you want him?
Why do you want him?
Now many days have gone by
And you still just sit there & cry
You're feeling bad for yourself
His memory will always dwell
You're so obsessed with his love
That's why push came to shove
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409 In Your Coffeemaker
I sit in the state of a daydream
With all of your words flying over my head
Even more time gets wasted
In a daze
It should seem obvious to you
Your screams and cries are never going to work
And all of your time gets wasted
In my daze
And I'm looking back now
At where I have gone wrong
And why I could not seem to get along
My interests are longing
To break from these chains
These chains that control
My future's aim
I sit in the state of a daydream
With all of your words flying over my head
Even more time gets wasted
In a daze
Maybe I'm just too damn lazy
Or maybe I was just brainwashed to think that way
And all of your time gets wasted
In my daze
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Knowledge
I know that things are getting tougher
When you can't get the top off from the bottom of the barrel
Wide open road of my future now
It's looking fucking narrow
All I know is that I don't know nothing
We get told to decide
Just like as if I'm not going to change my mind
All I know is that I don't know nothing
Whatca gonna do with yourself
Boy better make up your mind!
Whatca gonna do with yourself boy
You're running out of time
This time I got it all figured out
All I know is that I don't know nothing
And that's fine
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1,000 Hours
Starlit night
The moon shine bright, you are the one I heed
Up at your window
I see a shadow...silhouette of your grace
Here's this flower
I picked for all the hours
That you've spent with me
The one I love
That I've been dreaming of
Sailing across the sea
Let my hands flow through your hair
Moving closer a kiss we'll share
Passionate love to be all night long
We'll never break, as one too strong
Nothing's more that what our love is for
As I kiss your cheek
Oh so softly
Hands flowing down my back
1,000 hours, I'll never leave
Our romance
Is a love trance
And now we'll never part
1,000 hours
Of such a love shower
We'll never stop, once we start
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Dry Ice
Late last night I had a dream
And she was in it again
She and I were in the sky
Flying hand in hand
I woke up in a cold sweat
Wishing she was by my side
Praying that she'll dry fears
Left on my face I've cried
Oh I love her
Keep dreaming of her
Will I understand
If she wants to be my friend
I'll send a letter to that girl
Asking her to be my own
But my pen is writing wrong
So I'll say it in a song
Oh I love you more right now
More than I've ever loved before
Here's those words straight from these lips
I'll need you forever more
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Only Of You
I wish I could tell you
But the words would come out wrong
Oh if you only knew
The way I felt for so long
I know that we're world's apart
But I just don't seem to care
These feelings in my heart
Only with you I want to share
The first time I caught a glimpse of you
Then all my thoughts were only of you
I hope that when time goes on
You will think the same about me
Many nights awake I lie
I only wish that you could see
I know that we're only friends
I hope this feeling never ends
If I could only hold you
It's the only thing I want to do
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The One I Want
Sitting in my room last night
Staring at the mirror
I couldn't find a reason why
I couldn't be near her
'Cause you are the one that started
To make me feel this way
And every night I'm thinking
About the words you say
Pictures going through my mind
When we're together
All these long and sleepless nights
Will I ever get better
Now you know how I feel
This love is forever
You make my life seem so unreal
Will I ever get better?
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I Want To Be Alone
I lock myself inside my room
I wanna be alone
With you around, you'll only add on
Just let me be alone with my thoughts
Please don't think I'm crazy
I don't want you to understand
My mind is growing hazy
To hell with your helping hand
Why don't you just leave me alone
This conflict is my own
Keep your sources away from me
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