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Having A Blast
I'm talking all you down with me
Explosives duct taped to my spine
Nothing gonna change my mind
I won't listen to anyone's last words
There's nothing left for you to say
Soon you'll be dead anyway
No one is getting out alive
This time I've lost my mind and I don't care
So close your eyes
And kiss yourself good-bye
And think about the times you spent and what they've meant
To me it's nothing
I'm losing all my happiness
The happiness you pinned on my
Loneliness still comforts me
My anger dwells inside of me
I'm taking it all out on you and all the shit you put me though
Do you ever think back to another time?
Did it bring you so down that you thought you lost your mind?
Do you ever want to lead a long trail of destruction
And mow down any bullshit that confronts you?
Do you ever build up all the small things in your head
To make one problem that adds up to nothing

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Chump
I don't know you
But I think I hate you
You're the reason for my misery
Strange how you've become my biggest enemy
And I've never even seen your face
Maybe it's just jealousy
Mixing up with violent mind
A circumstance that doesn't make much sense
Or maybe I'm just dumb
You're the cloud hanging out over my head
Hail comes crashing down welting my face
Magic ma, egocentric plastic man
Yet you still got one over on me

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Longview
Sit around and watch the tube but, nothings on
Change the channels for an hour of two
Twiddle my thumbs just for a bit
I'm sick of all the same old shit
In a house with unlocked doors
And I'm fucking lazy
Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored I'm going blind
And I smell like shit
Peel me off this velcro seat and get me moving
I sure as hell can't do it by myself
I'm feeling like a dog in heat
Barred indoors from the summer street
I locked the door to my own cell
And I lost the key
Sit around and watch the phone, but no one's calling
Call me pathetic, call me what you will
My mother says to get a job
But she don't like the one she's got
When masturbation's lost its fun
You're fucking breaking
Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored
I'm going blind
And loneliness has to suffice
Bite my lip and close my eyes
Slipping away to paradise
Some say, "Quit or I'll go blind."
But it's just a myth

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Welcome To Paradise
Dear mother, can you hear me whining
It's been three whole weeks
Since I left your home
This sudden fear has left me trembling
Cause now it seems that I am out here on my own
And I'm feeling so alone
Pay attention to the cracked streets
And broken homes
Some call it the slums
Some call it nice
I want to take you through a wasteland I like to call my home
Welcome to paradise
A gunshot rings out at the station
Another urchin snaps and left dead on his own
It makes me wonder why I'm still here
For some strange reason it's now
Feeling like my home
And I'm never gonna go
Dear mother, can you hear me laughing
It's been six whole months since
I have left your home
It makes me wonder why I'm still here
For some strange reason it's now
Feeling like my home
And I'm never gonna go

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Pulling Teeth
I'm all busted up
Broken bones & nasty cuts
Accidents will happen
But this time I can't get up
She comes to check on me making sure I'm on my knees
After all she's the one who put me in this state
Is she ultra-violent?
Is she disturbed?
I better tell her I love her
Before she does it all over again
Oh god, she's killing me
For now I'll lie around
Hell, that's all I can really do
She takes good care of me
Just keep saying me love is true
Looking out my window for
Someone that passing by
No one knows I'm locked in here
All I do is cry

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Basket Case
Do you have the time to listen to me whine
About nothing and everything all at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid?
I'm just stoned
I went to a shrink
To analyze my dreams
She says it's lack of sex that's bringing me down
I went to a whore
He said my life's a bore
And quit my whining cause it's bringing her down
Grasping to control
So you better hold on

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She
She screams in silence
A sullen riot penetrating through her mind
Waiting for a sign to smash the silence with the brick of self control
Are you locked up in a world
That's been planned out for you?
Are you feeling like a social tool without use?
Scream at me until my ears bleed
I'm taking heed just for you
She's figured out all her doubts
Were someone else's point of view
Waking up this time to smash the silence with the brick of self control

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Sassafras Roots
Roaming 'round your house
Wasting your time
No obligation just
Wasting your time
So why are you alone?
Wasting your time
When you could be with me
Wasting your time
I'm a waste like you
With nothing else to do
May I waste your time too?
Warding off regrets
Wasting your time
Smoking cigarettes
Wasting your time
I'm just a parasite
Wasting your time
Applying myself to
Wasting your time

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When I Come Around
I heard you crying loud all the way across town
You've been searching for that someone
And it's me out on the prowl
As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself
Don't get lonely now
Dry your whining eyes
I'm just roaming for the moment
Sleazin' my backyard so don't get so uptight
You been thinking about ditching me
No time to search the world around
Cause you know where I'll be found
When I come around
I heard it all before
So don't knock down my door
I'm a loser and a user so to slag me
Down because I know I'm right
So go do what you like
Make sure you do it wise
You may find out that your self doubt
Means nothing was ever there
You can't go forcing something if it's just not right

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Coming Clean
Seventeen and strung out on confusion
Trapped inside a roll of disillusion
I found out what it takes to be a man
Mom and dad will never understand
Secrets collecting dust but never forget
Skeletons come to life in my closet
I found out what it takes to be a man
Mom and dad will never understand
What's happening to me
Seventeen and coming clean for the first time
I finally figured out myself for the first time
I found out what it takes to be a man
Mom and dad will never understand
What's happened to me

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Emenius Sleepus
I saw my friend the other day and I don't know
Exactly just what he became
It goes to show
It wasn't that long ago
I was just like you
And now I think I'm sick and
I wanna go home
How have I been, how have you been
It's been so long
What have you done with all your time
I knew you back when
And you... you knew me
And now I think you're sick
I wanna go home
Anybody ever say no?
Ever tell you that you weren't right?
Where did all the little kid go?
Did you lose it in a hateful fight?
And you know it's true

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In The End
All brawn and no brains
And all those nice things
You finally got what you want
Someone to look good with
And light your cigarette
Is this what you really want?
I figured out what you're all about
And I don't think I like what I see
Soooo...
I hope I won't be there
In the end if you come around
How long will he last
Before he's a creep in the past
And you're alone once again?
Will you pop up again and be my
"Special friend" 'till the end?
And when will that be?

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F.O.D.
Something's on my mind
It's been quite some time
This time I'm on to you
So where's the other face?
The face I heard before
Your head trip's boring me
Let's nuke the bridge we torched
2000 times before
This time we'll blast it all to hell
I've had this burning in my guts now for so long
My belly's aching now to say
Stuck down in a rut of dislogic and smut
A side of you well hid
When it's all said and dome it's real and it's been fun
But was it all real fun
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