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this is the first day of my last days. i built it up now take it apart. climbed up real high, now fall down real far. no need for me to say. the last thing left, i just threw it away. i put my faith in god and trust in you. now there's nothing more fucked up i could do.
gave up trying to figure it out. my head got lost along the way. worn out from giving it up, my soul i pissed it all away. still stings these shattered nerves. pigs we get what pigs deserve. i'm going all the way down. i'm leaving today.
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slave screams, he thinks he knows what he wants. slave screams, thinks he has something to say. slave screams, he hears but doesn't want to listen. slave screams, he's being beaten into submission.
perfect little dream. the kind that hurts the most. forgot how it feels, well almost. no one to blame. always the same. open my eyes. wake up in flames.
it took you to make me realize. it took you to make me realize. it took you to make me realize. it took you to make me see the light.
i want to take you, maybe. i want to take you out. i want to wine and dine you. i want to twist and twist and shout. i want you all in my arms. so soft on my bed. you get the key to my heart, when you wear that sweet dress. but you're too physical, physical to me. you're just too physical, physical to me.
there is no god up in the sky tonight. no sign of heaven anywhere in sight. all that was true is left behind. once i could see, now i am blind. don't want your dreams you try to sell. this disease is taking ???????????
2. wish
wish there was something real wish there was something true. wish there was something real in this full of you.
i'm the one without a soul. i'm the one with this big fucking hole. no new tale to tell. twenty-six years on my way to hell. gotta listen to your big time hard line bad fist fuck. don't think you're having all the fun. you know me, i hate everyone.
wish there was someting real. wish there was something true. wish there was something real in this world full of you.
i want to, but i can't turn back. but i want to.
INDEX3. last
come come come on you've gotta fill me up. come come gotta let me inside of you. come come come on you've gotta fix me up. come come gotta let me inside of you.
still feel it all slipping away, but it doesn't matter anymore. evrybody's still slipping away, but it doesn't matter anymore. look through these blackened eyes. you'll see ten thousand lies. my lips may promise, but my heart is a whore.
come come come on you've gotta fill me up. come come come gotta let me inside of you. come come come on you've gotta fix me up. come come gotta let me get through to you. this isn't meant to last. this is for right now.
i know it's is all getting away,it comes to me as no surprize. i know what is coming to me is never going to arrive. fresh blood through tired skin. new sweat to drown me in. dress up this rotten carcass just to make it look alive.
come come come on you've gotta fill me up. come come gotta let me inside of you. come come come on you've gotta fix me up. come come gotta let me get through to you.
this isn't meant to last. this is for right now. i wish i could put the blame on you.
i want you to make me. i want you to take me. i want you to break me. then i want you to throw me away.
INDEX4. help me i am in hell
INDEX5. happiness in slavery
don't open your eyes. you won't like what you see. the devils of truth steal the souls of the free. don't open your eyes. take it from me. i have found, you can find happiness in slavery.
slave screams, he spends his life learning conformity. slave screams, he claims he has his own identity. slave screams, he's gonna cause the system to fall. slave screams, but he's glad to be chained to the wall.
don't open your eyes, you won't like what you see. the blind have been blessed with security. don't open your eyes. take it from me. i have found, you can find happiness in slavery.
i don't know what i am. i don't know where i've been. human junk, just words and so much skin. stick my hands through the cage of this endless routine. just some flesh caught in this big broken machine.
INDEX6.gave up
smashed up my sanity. smashed up integrity. smashed up what i believe in. smashed up what's left of me. smashed up my everything. smashed up all that was true. gonna smash myself to pieces. i don't know what else to do.
covered in hope and vaseline. still cannot fix this broken machine. watching the hole. it used to be mine. just watching it burn inmy steady systematic decline. of the trust, i will betray. give it to me, i throw it away. after everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become. i tried. i gave up. throw it away.
INDEX7. physical
i want your rough house baby. i want this right in your ear. you let me feel your danger. i let you make this feeling clear here. i want the touch of your charms. the heat of your breath. i want to say all those things, that would be better unsaid.
but you're too physical, physical to me. you're just too physical , physical to me. you're too physical to me. you're just too physical to me.
you're just too physical. you're just too physical. to fucking physical. no, no.
INDEX8. suck
how does it feel? how does it feel?
she makes it sweeter than the sun. i get to taste, i come undone. i bowed my head to confess. the temple walls are made of flesh. runs up my arms till i am trapped. itches my skin right off my back. i'll heal your woulds. i'll set you free. oh, jesus christ. my extacy.
how does it feel? how does it feel?
i feel so dirty, on the inside. i am so dirty, on the inside. i am so dirty, on the inside. i am so dirty.
how does it feel? how does it feel?
suck. suck. suck. suck. suck.
a thousand humps. a thousand times. a thousand thoughts. a thousand throats. a thousand lungs. a thousand ways to make it true. i wanted to tear up all things of you.
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