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Even Flow
Freezin', rests his head on a pillow made of concrete
Oh, feelin' maybe he'll see a little better any day
Oh, head down, faces that he sees don't look it ain't that familiar
Oh, girlfriend he can't have when he's happy looks insane
Even flow
Thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know
So he chases them away
Someday yet he'll begin his life again
Life again
Kneelin', looking through the paper though he doesn't know to read
Prayin', now to something that has never showed him anything
Oh, feelin' understands the weather or that winters on its way
Oh, ceilings people fall between all the legal halls of shame
Even flow
Thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don't know
So he chases them away
Someday yet he'll begin his life again
Whispering hands, carry him away
Him away, him away
Yeah!

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Alive
Son, she said
Have I got a little story for you
What you thought was your daddy
Was nothin' but a...
While you were sittin'
Home alone @ age thirteen
Your real daddy was dyin'
Sorry you didn't see him
But I'm glad we talked...
I...I...I'm still alive - (3x)
Oh she walks slowly
Across a young man's room
She said I'm ready...for you
I can't remember anything to this very day
'Cept the look...the look...
Now I can't see...I just stare...
I...I...I'm still alive - (4x)
Is something wrong
She said
Of course there is
You're still alive she said
Do I deserve to be
Is that the question
And if so...if so...
Who answers?
Who answers?

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Why Go
She scratches a letter
Into a wall made of stone
Maybe someday another child
Won't feel as alone as she does
It's been two years
And counting
Since they put her in this place
She's been diagnosed
By some stupid fuck
And mommy agrees
Why go home?
Why go home?
Why go home...
She seems to be stronger
But what they want her to be is weak
She could just pretend
She could play the game
She could be another clone
Why go home?
What you taught me
Put me here
Don't come visit
Mother

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Black
Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of plain
Her legs spread out before me as her body holds still
All five horizons revolved around her soul as the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn
And all I taught her was everything
I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands shake beneath the clouds of what was everything
All the pictures sent all been washed in black
Tattooed everything
I take a walk outside, I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
And twisted thoughts that spin round my head, I'm spinnin'
Oh I'm spinnin', how quick a sun can drop away
And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass of what was everything
All the pictures sent all been washed in black
...Tattooed everything
All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all that I'll be
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky
But why, why, why can't it be...how can I be more?

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Jeremy
At home, drawing pictures
Of mountain tops
With him on top
Lemin yellow sun
Arms raised in a V
Dead lay in pools of maroon below
Daddy didn't give attention
To the fact that mommy didn't care
King Jeremy the wicked
Ruled his world
Jeremy spoke in class today
Jeremy spoke in class today
Clearly I remember
Pickin' on the boy
Seemed a harmless little fuck
But we unleashed a lion
Gnashed his teeth
And bit the recess ladies breast
How could I forget
He hit me with a surprise left
My jaw left hurtin'
Dropped wide open
Just like the day
Like the day I heard
Daddy didn't give affection
And the boy was something mommy wouldn't wear
King Jeremy the wicked
Ruled his world
Jeremy spoke in class today
Jeremy spoke in class today
Try to forget this
Try to erase this
From the blackboard

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Oceans
Hold on to the thread
The currents will shift
Guide me towards you
Know something's left
And we're all allowed to dream
Of the next time we touch
You don't have to stray
Two oceans away
Waves roll in my thoughts
Hold tight the ring
The sea will rise
Please stand by the shore
I will be
I will be
There once more

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Porch
What the fuck is this world
Running to you didn't
Leave a message at least I
Could have heard your voice one last time
Daily minefield this could
Be my time how 'bout you?
Would you hit me?
Would you hit me?
All the bills go by and
Initiatives are taken up
By the middle
There ain't gonna be any middle any more
And the cross I'm bearing home
Ain't indicative of my place
Left the porch
Left the porch
Hear my name
Take a good look
This could be the day
Hold my hand
Walk beside me
I just need to say
Hear my name
Take a good look
This could be the day
Hold my hand
Lie beside me
I just need to say
What can I take?
I just want to be
I know that I would not ever touch you
Hold you
Feel you
Ever hold
Never again

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Garden
The direction of the eye
So misleading
The defection of the soul
Nauseously quick
I don't question
Our existence
I just question
Our modern needs
I will walk with my hands bound
I will walk with my face blood
I will walk with my shadow flag
Into your garden
Garden of stone
After all is done
We're still alone
I won't be taken
Yet I'll go with my hands bound
I will walk with my face blood
I will walk with my shadow flag
Into your garden
Garden of stone
I don't show
I don't share
I don't need
What you have to give

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Deep
On the edge windowsill
Ponders his maker
Ponders his will
To the street below
He just ain't nothin'
But he's got a great view
And he sinks the needle deep
Can't touch the bottom
In too deep
Can't touch the bottom
On the edge
Know-nothin' town
Feelin' quite superior
The aged come
To the sky above
He just ain't nothin'
But he's got a great view...
On the edge of a
Christmas clean love
Young virgin from heaven visiting
To the man above her
She just ain't nothin'...
She doesn't like the view
Doesn't like the view
Doesn't like the view
But he sinks himself deep
Can't touch the bottom
In too deep
Deep

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Release
I see the world
Feel the truth
Which way to go
Windowsill
I see the words
On a rocking horse of time
I see the birds in the rain
Oh dear Diane
Can you see me now
I am myself
Like you somehow
I'll ride the wave
Where it takes me
I'll hold the pain
Release me
Oh dear Diane
Can you see me now
I am myself
Like you somehow
I'll wait up in the dark
For you to speak to me
I'll open up
Release me - (4x)
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