| I am forever searching... over the sounds of people talking with visions crowding in obstructing I am forever listening... without eyes or judgement straining to hear the words I am forever looking... to be heard author: C(female) |
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| I want a man that stands beside me Not in front of or behind me Give me two arms that want to hold me, not own me and I'll give all the love in my heart stand beside me Be true, don't tell lies to me I'm not lookin' for a fantasy I want a man that stands beside me Jo Dee Messina (sing it girl!) |
If you have found your way here....then perhaps I know you from the past and if so you were curious as to my "whereabouts". I have all but dropped out of the cyber world for many reasons. Some were health related (I did have major surgery, I am fine now) and another reason was time for my son (he started playing soccer and between practices and games I am pretty tied up) but another reason that made me stop was a thing called deceit. When I stated chatting almost two years ago I came into it with an honest heart and just assumed that everyone else did. I know this was stupid and I learned the hard way and the hurtful way that there are plenty of people out there just waiting to prey upon others. I had what a thought many good friendships going and then I found out some who told me they were women were men and some of the men had girlfriends who came after me accusing me of ruining their relationships. Then the chatrooms themselves got bad, way too many fights and ugliness. So I stopped but before I could really let my friends know I had to have emergency surgery (woman stuff) and now I am just starting to feel like getting back into my writing. Right now it is all I feel like doing is writing, because with writing there is no deceit, no one playing games with my heart or my head, no one to put me down or lie to me. And I will probably only write here, the one place that I can call my own and feel safe and know that what is here is MY WORDS and MY FEELINGS. I made a promise to myself to be true and always honest and I have been now I add to keep in mind that others don't necessarily make the same kind of promise. If you like my peoms, or the things I write then visit again and read them. Because this is probably the only time or way you will. I even stopped posting on the chatboard poet's guild just was not the same anymore to much politics for me. I am plain and simple. I write what I feel. Take care of yourself and try and always be true to you! |
| Do you believe in life after love --- --Cher "Believe" |
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| ~Tribute to a Friend~ These are my words to you words of truth Testimony of your Worth your caring and going that extra step A shiny star in the sea of loneliness always there with a kind word These are my words to you words of hope Making statements of friendship and waiting for replies A friend who understands me always putting others first These are my words to you words of caring I am here for you... |
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| Click here for my bio page!! ~smiling~ |
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| Also known as C(Female)!! |
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| Page One of my Poetry |
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| A page for my parents!! ~Much love...~ |
| And one for my Children~ Por Vida~ |
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| Click the candy cane for my Christmas poem page!!! ~Frosty Kiss~ |
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| My Godfather died on January 24, 2000 at the age of 90. His poor body was racked with cancer and without that he may have gone on for many more years. He leaves behind my Godmother and a daughter (he lost a son many years ago to cancer). I have written a couple of poems that I hope you will take the time to read. Goodbye Godfather ~missing you so much~ |
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To save ya some time once a page of my poems is full I just add another page, so if you have read one of the pages of my poems the only reason to go back is if you want to read it over again, for those I do not change! ~smile~ and if you like them that much tell me in my guestbook!! ~hugs~ |
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| Here are pages of all my poems and C hopes that you find them worthy....... |
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| Due to my own continuing health problems I was forced to really limit how much time I spend not only online but at my job. Also I lost my Father on January 14, 2004 (which happens to be my son's birthday) and it has taken quite a toll on me. I have been pretty depressed and so this has also made me feel so bad that I go for days without even turning my home computer on. I still try to write my poems but the book is on hold. Lately I have been writing what you can call letters to my Father because I can't talk to him anymore it is the only thing that gives me a bit of comfort these dark days. I wish all who reads these words well and much happiness in whatever you are searching for...... My email addy is C_Female@yahoo.com if you care to drop me a line...................... |
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| Click here on a news type page where I will add updates to what is going on with me |
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I write here for myself as I no longer write for others.... Most recently I have rekindled a friendship that meant a lot to me and I was sure I had lost. It has renewed my faith and trust but I am not sure about going back to "chat". I managed to read some of the forums and found that it is filled with silly arguements and hurtful accusations. I miss the people I used to "chat" with so much I only wish I could talk to each of them and tell them how much they meant to me and still do as I think of them often. |
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