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Saturday June 5th
Yawn
Well, we woke up around 7am, mainly because Rachel couldn't sleep, which
didn't particularly excite Dan or Ryan. lol, The sun was shining right
on them too - mwhaha.
We got up, and had a chat for a bit, and about 10am or so, we decided to queue up for the venue, since it opened around 11am. There weren't many people there, so we decided to go back to the tent, and relax for a bit. When we went back, everyone was there. We spent 5 minutes walking to the end of the fucking queue!! That's how long it was.
As we queued, I noticed that everyone else had tickets. Guess who forgot his?
Fuck
I had to walk back to the tent to go and get my ticket. It was like a
15 minute walk lol. Just as I set off, Ella noticed she'd forgotten it
too. Hey - at least I wasn't alone. We talked and walked.
I'll never talk to a more random person. Ella rocks though, she's so much fun.
I hadn't a clue where my ticket was. It wasn't in my wallet, so where the hell could it be? Without it, I couldn't have got into the venue without it - which would have been a little bit of a problem. I had one place to look - if it wasn't there, I was pretty much screwed. Ella was the same.
They were in the places we thought.
Phew.
Ow Part 2
We did have a back-up plan thanks to Sag (see LP Week of March 03). We
made our way back to the queue which had got WORSE, despite the doors
now being open. Blah, at least I had Ella for company. The others had
already got into the venue, so with camera in pocket, I chatted to Ella,
and took a photo or two. It took an era to get in. About 50 minutes in
total, but it seemed much longer with having nothing to do but stand and
talk.
Ella smoking
Here’s an idea of the crowds.
The crowd to get into the venue
Yeah, so quite a wait.
Eventually we got in. We then found out we could have just walked past everyone because we already had our passes. We got them before we queued up.
*blink*
I should have seen it was going to be one of those days.
And We’re In
Such a good sight:
The venue, pre-thousands of people
We eventually met up with the others outside the Snickers Bowl, which was basically a skating bowl (not sure what it was doing there, but hey). Whilst looking for them, I saw Pritchard of Dirty Sanchez fame! How cool is that?
I was half tempted to say hi, but then my confidence (and lack of) put a quick end to that idea.
I met up with others and there were plenty more people there then - some who I’d never met before. Jon (see Wimbledon LPST meet up) took all the photos. Boy do I look dumb in it O_o. I’m in the middle, wearing the blue hat and a red tee (it was my infamous Spongebob tee).
(l-r) Random stranger, LPUer, Konz, Vanesha, Jons gf, Simon, Ella, Rachel,
Me, Michelle, Another Random Stranger, Tanisha, Another LPUer, Bec, Zowie
and Kim.
We went into the bowl and took up the back seat of the bowl. There was a pretty good view, and I took a picture of Donnington castle:
Donnington Castle
Oh and here’s what the bowl looked like:
Snickers Bowl
So then I checked out some artists. I can’t really remember the majority of them. I did see the Hiding Place, although they weren’t exactly memorable. Then...it happened.
.....
My weekend went from being a minor annoyance just downright shit. Rachel
had been a little cold towards me, so I asked what was wrong. Reluctantly,
she told me that ‘we’ wouldn’t work because of the distance.
I couldn’t believe it. I was in disbelief. I was in shock. Speechless. It’s like everything just collapsed. I went from being on a high to really down.
We talked a little…well, I more listened trying to get my head around she said. We did agree that it would limit the hurt we’d cause one another, and she did it for the right reasons. She cared so much about me and us that she called it off. I just put on a brave face and agreed with her. The last thing I wanted was an argument with her.
Everything inside just hurt. I didn’t know what to do. I put on a brave face during 36 Crazyfists (who kicked ass, despite the fact I could barely concentrate on anything apart from how much I hurt). I may check out some of their songs – and if you get a chance to see them live – do so. They’re worth it.
So anyway. A few more acts came on, but with my sore knee and a numb pain inside, I really couldn’t take things. I just left the girls to it and sat outside the tent. I’ll be honest, although my knee was sore, I was mainly just trying to come to terms with what happened. I felt as if a big part of me had just been taken away from me.
I guess it had.
The girls soon got scared of Akercocke (who can blame them O_O – imagine old metal guys in school uniforms that uses more cough medicine than the country of Spain), and came out for me. I tried not to take notice, because I was really just trying not to let on that I was hurting.
I didn’t do that much of a good job of it.
Rach did ask what was wrong, but I just pretended it was nothing. She was the only one that actually showed concern.
Thanks “friends”.
They walked to go get their M&G passes to meet Linkin Park. Rachel seemed unaffected. She was laughing, joking, and really hyper. I can understand being excited, but she could have at least shown a bit of emotion. It only made things worse for me.
At various points during the day, I began thinking how that maybe everything she wasn’t true at all. You can’t just lose someone you care so much about and still be happy. I don’t care who you are. Then again, I kept persuading myself about how she told her parents about me, got into arguments with her dad over me etc.
Not really someone who’d lie about her feelings, right?
On the way to the box office to get their passes, the girls went the toilets. Me and Nicky didn’t bother, and so whilst I just wandered around aimlessly staring at the floor, Nicky got a call and walked off. I didn’t pay attention as to where.
The girls got out of the toilet, and started looking at me. I didn’t pay much attention until they shouted me across.
Oh well, at least they realized I’m not doing so well now.
Wrong, they only wanted to know where Nicky was.
Gee thanks girls *roll eyes*
They walked out of the exit, and just as I was about to follow them (I’m not sure why I was following them in the first place. Maybe it was just so I wasn’t alone), I decided ‘fuck it’.
I went back to my tent and drank whole lotta vodka.
God did it taste bad. Me and Dan decided it was paint stripper really, which would explain the taste.
Ugh.
So yeah, I sat in the tent drinking for five minutes or so, then walked over to the signing tent. I didn’t have a clue what I was doing. At first, I just sat down on the floor, leant against a wall thinking about how much things sucked. Then I re-lived the whole tentage thing (that’s all I’ve really been doing – because at that moment, we were so close). I decided fuck it, and the vodka took hold.
Meet & *bleep*
I started introducing myself to everyone in an LPU shirt.
Woah boy.
I freaked out a lot of the newer members, if only because they thought I was going to attack them. I asked some what their screen name was, only for them to say ‘why?’.
Gee thanks, I was only asking you a fucking question!
You can see why I like the LPU so much at times (don’t get me started, I’ll go on another rant).
So yeah – I met the majority of newer people.
The people I can call mates / friends pretty much blanked me. I can’t say why for sure, but it didn’t do my confidence any good. I just lost my girl, who was taking it very well, and my friends were ignoring me.
Go me.
I saw Taffy and Adi (two mates from high school) – they were trying to get into meet LP. I was this (*makes gesture*) close to walking up to them and informing them that I’m working for them and that I’ve met them four times before.
I guess I wasn’t as drunk as I’d have liked.
Everyone went in the m&g – leaving me and Ryan there. Someone who talks really softly at the best of times.
And he’s no chatterbox either. For the majority, I just stood there on my fecking sore knee.
Joy.
When everyone eventually came out, everyone was jumping up and down. People were crying.
They’re only fucking people – jeez.
The Sums
Everyone got out, and collectively, we made our way to see Sum 41. Now
before you all point and laugh, you should check them out live. They seem
to have released all their poppy-singles, so unless you have the albums
and can appreciate their pretty nifty guitar work, stfu :p.
I was sorta..on my own. I don’t know if anyone noticed, but I was miles away anyway.
I kept trying to look at Rachel – she was the only one that could stop this hurt.
She never did.
We got to the crowd, and again, I was surrounded by dumbfucks.
What is it with me attracting idiots?
Maybe it was just a weekend thing – my weekend was hardly fantastic except for the tentage and the snuggling.
The girls tried distancing themselves from me, which further improved me mood. Not.
LP came on…and then you had a few more idiots around me, and I eventually did get to be with the girls again. LP did their stuff, with only two surprises Step Up (verse 1) and a cover of NIN’s Wish. So um..and yeah…
She may have called us off, but that doesn’t mean I have to stop caring about her. I did my best to make sure she didn’t get hurt by the pit (we we’re second row throughout). I don’t think she noticed, but that’s good in a way. At least she didn’t get too hurt.
Some of my other friends didn’t fare as well, but they’re okay now.
During the performance, people were being carried out O_O.
After the show, everyone disappeared pretty quickly. It was as if there was a huge band appearing somewhere else.
Fin
It was really just 15-20 LPUers all talking about how amazing it was –
except for me. I just sorta waddled (stupid knee) around, kicking bottle
tops whilst everyone was hugging one another and stuff.
Jon and Si came up to me and told me they’d heard about what had happened. They were basically asking if I was okay. I told them I’d live.
Which is true. I will. Whether I’m happy or not is another matter, but I wasn’t really in the mood for a heart to heart with some guys I didn’t really know.
The only person I really wanted to talk to was Rachel. To try and seek some resolve. It never happened.
She did give me a hug, but it was more a ‘cheer up please’ hug.
Sigh.
We walked back with the rest of the huge crowds. There were moments when she held my hand I think…the whole weekend is real blurry.
We got back to the tent and she picked her stuff up. I said goodnight, and I did offer to walk her to her friends, but she turned me down.
Ouch.
DRINK!
So yeah – I had more drink. Not good (I don’t recommend people
do this as an answer – but I wasn’t thinking straight), but
what can I say – I was desperate to get her out of my mind.
The rest of the group I was camping with found out about me and Rachel, and things were a little awkward for a moment, but when alcohol got introduced thinks perked up.
Again Si and Kim went to sleep early, so it was really me, Ryan, Zowie, Ella and Chris.
It gets a little blurry, and all I can remember is:
- · Lots of stupid photos being taken
- · Wrestling with Zowie over Charity
- · Calling Charity ‘Charidee’ – not sure why
- · Naked conga lines (completely naked guys streaking the camp site – EW)
- · And a naked girl
Ryan also took a photo of me and topless girl holding Charity. I haven’t a clue as to why I was having my photo taken with a topless girl, but what can I say – she wasn’t shy.
Thank god they’re not on my camera is all I can say.
For a while, a friend of Ella’s talked and fooled around with Charity.
And that’s all I can remember. Not good considering I went to sleep around 4am O_O. I do have alot of drunken photos, but you're not seeing those! :p
Moving swiftly on!
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